Pictures NOT coming out the way they're supposed to!

I am making them small,but they come up SOOO dang big??why??I don't have the slightest clue!
I am going nuts!lol..I see blogs with big beautiful pictures and everything shows,but this blog (MINE of course) does Not work that way ugh how frustrating!:)

((trying again))Lauren at aunt karens:)

THANKSGIVING CHILLIN"

Thanksgiving,was lovely...Now ready for christmas.

Thanksgiving was wonderful.We got up,dressed up and ran to aunt karens house way up north nj from us.The food was delicious as always and the kids had a blast hanging out and being with their cousins.
I spent the next day shopping,got 2 kodaks digi cams,the 10x zoom one(zd10?) something like that.SO far I'm loving it.Not sure what to do with the 2nd one.But dh said he wants one for his truck,so maybe it'll go for him.I know Ashley is getting a laptop,so is Stephanie,from my mom(dell) and PINK lol.How cute,big gift but I am happy about it.Billy said maybe Santa will get me a laptop(i have one,but he wants his/hers).Anyways,we'll see no need no rush.I want the girls to get the items I am hoping for them.Christmas should not be just about presents,and I love christmas.Its the birth of our savior..and I love that celebration aspect of it.I plan on ripping Cd's and getting ready for an Ipod we will eventually get.OR a big mp3 player,but the ipod seems more user friendly based on what i've been reading.Ashley has the mp3 player from last yr,SOMEWHERE in this house.One big thing on her list is a COAT.She needs one so bad.I did some gymboree shopping,and i'm waiting on Laurens coat.I should run out and get an xtra one cause its getting really chilly out.the parka type jacket I dont think will cinch it.
Back to Thanksgiving,we also celebrated Aunt Karens 50th birthday:) N I love Billys family.They are just so sweet,and we'll be seeing them for christmas soon enough:) yay!Not sure how we're going to do presents etc.
Just playing it by ear.:)
Here are my pics,from thankgiving.Ashley LOST OVER HALF my pictures:( i am so mad about that.Ugh

I have SO MUCH to be thankfull for..my family,friends,health,home,My savior,everything.This was a thanksgiving as well,that I am very gratefull for.The food,again was out of this world:*) I loved it!I missed my mom and stuff,but overall we had a great day!

UMM favortism?I hate it..still...

I love my mom.Yes,I really do.Today she calls,crying and crying,god knows why.I'll tell y ou why,cause stephanie threw the remote control at her,so disrespectfully cause she treats my mom like shit.I tell mom for the hundreth time,"you are spoiling her,you let her treat you like that,even if its wrong,You CONDONE IT"..FOR YEARS when stephanie pouts MA runs.I'm so so so sick of it.ITs like hands tied type shit.I can seeee right through this child of mine,and I love her,but when I see the user in her with my mom,even though she'll declare she LOVES my mother,she is using and abusing her.BOTTOM LINE.You treat somebody like shit,hit them,throw shit,than demand monetary items.Thats what I call it.

Now my dilema.My other girls LOVE "MA"...and at the flip side they are gettting HURT by all of this.They are witnessing this crap.I do not want this no more.My mom as much as I love her,I Do not want to cut her out of my life.However,she is cutting US out,cause everything is more important.We're at the end of her list.
I had to console Ashley.This is how i feel..Ashley is NOTHING,even though I know she loves Ashley,but shit,compared to Stephanie,I am shit.I'm only called when stuff is NEEDED for Stephanie.I have sick Brianna here,NOTHING is asked about her.NOTHING is asked how we are...how I am...in a serious manner.My dad is ALL for my brother.My mom is ALL for Stephanie.
I'm out.
I dont' care any f'ing more.I'm tired of the lies.Ileanna lies,My brother I love him,condones all the lines,cause he is just in his world.I gotta realize he is younger,so I give him some slack.Ileanna i think was abused,or something,cause she tries very hard to be loved.I love her/but on the flip side,she has to stop lying cause I see it every time she does it,and out of respect I Do not say shitola.I love my nephew,and he I worry about as well,as my own children.
I want to move.I think moving is the answer to all of this.My mom could care less if i'm here or not.Just this morning she states,"I"M goign back to spain" blah blah blah alll cause of stephanie.What about the rest of the grandkids.
I'll tell myself what,I will NOT NOT NOT allow Ashley to suffer,and witness somebody being ADORED AND PUT on the freaking MANTLE like they are GODESSS no matter HOW much I love her,and have HER(SHE REALIZES NOW,she is 11,and crying??) That is so wrong and LOW.I cannot believe my OWN FAMILY would be SO FREAKING LOW???Omg.:(
My mom can manipulate her own excuses.Poor steph has no father.bullshit.She is spoiled and ma can't say no.
I see right through steph.
SHe says she is gettign a job,salary is 1400 a week,(UMM GULP,I find it hard to believe,i hope its true cause she could USE It big time,and I'd be proud of her but I dont' see her lasting long at ALL,the drive is enough to burn her out)
SO She is saying (GOTCHA) she needs a NEW car for this job..(am i the only one who sees this shit or what?)HAHA...I am so done with the lies.
I'm going OUT of LIE LIE Land..get it..lala lielie...OFF to lala land.I'm gone.As soon as we could,I'm putting the house BACK on the market and LEAVING.
It hurts here.
I am on anxiety meds.I should be on depression meds.I have issues with self esteem my WHOLE F'ing life..etc..list is endless and NOBODY has a CLUE who I AM LOL..Imagine THAT!I just yes yes yes,and little by little the light inside me is fading.That light will blow out real son.I just know it.:(

Christmas,I am thinking of not exposing my girls to NONE of their shit.DONE.