I went a little KOOKOO today.LOL I am not even finished.I should be concentrating on school more(for the kids) but I AM:) They are like almost done.I got lauren a GOODMAMA diaper.I have been wanting to try it.I ordered a muttquin OBV m/L diaper.(yes all fitteds,since when do I buy fitteds and spend that money when we STILL need a cover if we go out).I won't use covers at home,and they are snaps,which is what i like.I bet for outtings a cover would work great.Lauren is right now in a catch 22 Bamboo prefold,with a snappi and cover,and she still feels dry.I LOVE bamboo..I'm in love with it allready.BAD thing.
The good news is Billy said/ he will not buy more diapers.Use money to buy cloth.So I did:) Thats 2 diapers,and i am going to get 1 more from this mama on cafe mom.BiZeeBums something like that.I hear nothing but RAVES.:)
ANyways,today OF ALL Days,on a SATURDAY we had Ashleys game for Cheerleading.I rushed out this morning and left.I figured,let me run home(it was a HOME game lol,in our town),and than go back towatchthe game.She calls and the game is OVER..I'm like HUH?How can that BE??WHen I got there,the OTHER game was still on??((wierd))) But we WON again.2 games in a row,we're undefeated..the midgets:) YAY!I was happy to hear that!!!
Ashley went to my mamas house,and they went to get Ashleys hair cut.It looks SO cute.REALLY adorable i love it.Afterwards Brianna went for a hair cut.I was going to go for one,and I have to wait till Wed or so.I have a few ideas,so I will try them out next week:) My beautician is not thrilled on making my hair darker.She said every blonde she colored darker,cried and wanted their blonde hair back.LOLOL
Anyways,right now Kate is here with Ashley.I am slightly baffled,hurt by courtney.They've been friends forever,yet she is quick to put down Ashleys friend or aka FRIEND.Nah,plural.The only ones she dont put down are the ones she is friends with too.Very sad actually.I do not understand where she is getting at?I am sad to hear that she drank at this girls house.I am sad to find out allthat i've found out.She lies,alot,and even to her mom.I do not have the heart to tell her mother how awful she's been with lying.I know it,caught it,etc.Her mom is minimizing things when i tell her,that now its like whatever.I am not saying NOTHING.Just let time take its course..and concentrate on my own kids and life.Yet,its sad.Overall.
WELL,waiting on Dh:) went to shawns house(stephanie n Shawn) and we're going to grill some food.I want to take a walk...I am sad how DARK It is now!Its 8 and DARK.It was NTO ever this dark out at 8 a month ago:( Spain its dark out at 11!I like THAT!LOL!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Better pIc of Lauren w her custom outfit:)
I posted a TINY picture below.I love this outfit....and we're putting it on her TOMORROW for the GAME!:) Ashleys first cheer game!I am tempted to put a cheer outfit on her though....LOL.:) but the outfit was so cute,I have to share it!TOO MANY CLOTHES!I should start selling off some of her stuff!
some pictures.:) Some friends.
""Our new friends"""
I reallly LOVE these people.Billy introduced me to Stephanie..(yep,same name as my daughter lol).She is so nice,and I feel we're going to be good friends.I just love when we make new friends,its just awesome.They've been here a few times this summer,and now buying a house.Stephanie just graduated from College(BA in sociology?I think)? & I am fully motivated to go to school.:) I feel people are in our lives for a reason at times.
They also have a little boy that Brianna ADORES:) its so sweet!Watching them play!
Another friend I'm talkin more too lately is Denise.She is half the block away.LOL..she is my "WILD" friend.YEP..the girl is wild.She says it herself.I like wild people,hippy type people..she is just so down to earth.I get along with people like that..stephanie above is the same:) Downto earth,honest etc.!
SOME CUTE PICS!
((above is Lauren with her outfit from HYENA cart @ 22nd designs.She also recieved TWO Bamboo prefolds.Did I say I love bamboo??LOL DH was right years ago about bamboo..we have bamboo floors..you name it:) THANKS BILLY..now i can feel good buying bamboo diapers haha!
The 2nd picture..is MY MY birthday:) Yes,we forgot me LOL..I posted all laurens birthday.:) (well not ALL) but what I can find here from the digi.:) MOST are allready developed from CVS and put in the photo books.:) I found a CUTE one that has my 2nd birthday.LUCKY..you do not find these things.It was at the Hallmark store,outside.Not big,but cute!Loved it!
THIRD pic,is ME and Ashley!Taken from her DIGI!LOL Its SO cool...LOL
WELL my nephew is on his way with his girlfriend.Mind you I feel old.LOL..he is like 20..god knows how old she is.(no he has to be 22,since Steph is going on 19..oye,i remember when they were SMALL).I took out pics of me and Billy back inthe day WHOA we were HOT!I miss that..LOL I am going back to the gym.no i'm not "FAT' but I want to be THIN again.Is that crazy?hah!
I miss the classes at the gym.I discover eating smaller ammounts,keeps your stomach from growin where you need MORE food at a single serving.ADVICE:: stay away,far away from buffets:X
Here are the pics:)Today I went and got tons of gymboree for 113$...15 pieces.I had the 30% off circle of friends AND have gymbucks 50$ worth for when we shop NEXT time:)
Laurens wardrobe consist of MUCH gymbo,Brianna is mixed.Brianna is complicated lol.No way would she wear a cute sweater dress,or leggings,etc.She is very into jeans,and hannah montanna tops etc.She is HERSELF:) but she will wear what I picked out.I know her taste now.BUT sadly,I would've loved to buy other things that Lauren can wear later.However,watch lauren take after Brianna(maybe not,since I put dresses on her often now).LOL.Actually at the dr's,when I went there for an UTI,she took off her Fishy outfit from Gymboree and put on a cute dress from the childrens place.SOOO funny.I really should snap a pic of her closet.(closets)..I can't wait till the DUNGEON is done(billys closet I call it that lol).he is painting it,and I really want to use it for MY closet but it has a hot water heater.I have NO idea what he plans to use that big closet for if we can't use it for nothing??WHY make it??HE makes me nuts!
OOPS I am supposed to go meet him upstairs YIKES LOL!
Another weekend,Summer is ending soon:(
I am stunned this morning.I woke up,and looked at Billy.Poor guy has a wasp bite on his arm from work yesterday.I sat around and was thinking of how fast this week flew by.I know,I repeat this often,but its so true.Every week is flying by.Now we're hitting the last weeks of summer.I want to go to wildwood tomorrow/or today(its late now),but Ashley has a game.Dh says we'll go next weekend.
This week consisted of this.
1.Me getting a biopsy.Day after the biopsy I had a UTI.The dr's didn't want to see me till MONDAY(the lady says,linda..Ugh I'm like NO,I cannot wait till MONDAY with a freaking uti,is this lady nuts?YES..she is.Many patients will be lost,due to waiting forever to see the doctor.TWO hours to see the doctor,is what my friend Laura is goign through.That is just rediculouse,we have a doctor IN TOWN,for the convinience of SEEING him fast.If he can't see us within a reasonable ammount of waiting,I will have to resort to finding another primary physician.I like him,its the LADY who makes the appointments and such,she has not a CLUE what she is doing.That is bluntly obvious:(
2.cheerleading.Jijitsu.Everyday I have to go from 6-8 to the field,in the heat with the children to cheer practice.3xs a week I go to jijitsu.Now that my mom is home,I can sit at her house while Ashley cheers.SADLY no mothers hang out like we used to when they were just mighty mights.Every year,less & less moms hung out.I enjoy watching,but now they are by the big bleachers and Brianna got hurt allready.Lauren can get very hurt,plus the cars are right there too(traffic into the field).So sadly,now I reluctantly leave,and come back on most occasions.Yesterday late afternoon I looked through my mirror and seen Ashley doing her toe touches,it was just amazing.She got so grown,and is developing into such a lil person of her own/a big person of her own lol.
Again..time flies:)
3.My grandfather:( he is doing awful.He has leukemia.He has lung tumors.You name it..he is doing awful.I was blessed to have a sacred hour alone with him.It was just us two,and we were in bed,me holding his shaking arm down:( Praying with him etc.I know he doesn't have much longer.I feel that time with him was a gift from God.I just hope he IS saved and his heart belongs to Jesus.I'm still praying for him.I know my abuelita is up in heaven.Abuelito(who is doing badly),has a bunch of anger.He has to get past that.yes,he lost 2 children.One was his only son.So I can understand that deep sadness and anger he has for those losses.:(.
I have been helping my mom out with watching him.Its hard however,when I have the girls with me.I have 3 of them with me at all times.Ashley has friends,and will pop over to visit.I couldnt' believe my mom was upset about that???I can understand not liking strangers in her house,but I think she truley overreacts.Doesn't she know,that we'ret there because of our love N worry over her ARM AND BACK AND NECK??She cannot take care of abuelito.I do not know or understand how she is taking this on.She has to get some HELP...a visiting nurse.Something!!!!
4.WELL,SUMMER is still here.I might as well jump in the pool today.I am heading outside to turn the pump on.I am heading to gymboree.com and pay for the items I have in the cart.I wanted Brianna to take a look at it.I am taking Ashley shopping as well.I do not like going too soon,because they WEAR everything LOL...KIDS!!I went to Ashleys school for orientation this week as well(see busy life I lead lol).Her new school is double the size of her old one,and she has a locker now & they go from class to class.How neat is that.She is supeduper excited:)
WELL off to change a diaper.I need to get Lauren poty trained.She is now Two.I am calling an eye doctor,when she is tired,I notice her right eye gets 'lazy" as they call it.Her doctor is NOT concerned,and said she is not doign it all the time.She NEVER did it prior to her SHOT.I have this creeeepy feeling its connected.I hope it goes away.I know of lil girl who got her eye fixed this month.Well,I just want Lauren happy & healthy:)
I'm OFF for now..to take care of everything and everybody.What else do I do?
ack
This week consisted of this.
1.Me getting a biopsy.Day after the biopsy I had a UTI.The dr's didn't want to see me till MONDAY(the lady says,linda..Ugh I'm like NO,I cannot wait till MONDAY with a freaking uti,is this lady nuts?YES..she is.Many patients will be lost,due to waiting forever to see the doctor.TWO hours to see the doctor,is what my friend Laura is goign through.That is just rediculouse,we have a doctor IN TOWN,for the convinience of SEEING him fast.If he can't see us within a reasonable ammount of waiting,I will have to resort to finding another primary physician.I like him,its the LADY who makes the appointments and such,she has not a CLUE what she is doing.That is bluntly obvious:(
2.cheerleading.Jijitsu.Everyday I have to go from 6-8 to the field,in the heat with the children to cheer practice.3xs a week I go to jijitsu.Now that my mom is home,I can sit at her house while Ashley cheers.SADLY no mothers hang out like we used to when they were just mighty mights.Every year,less & less moms hung out.I enjoy watching,but now they are by the big bleachers and Brianna got hurt allready.Lauren can get very hurt,plus the cars are right there too(traffic into the field).So sadly,now I reluctantly leave,and come back on most occasions.Yesterday late afternoon I looked through my mirror and seen Ashley doing her toe touches,it was just amazing.She got so grown,and is developing into such a lil person of her own/a big person of her own lol.
Again..time flies:)
3.My grandfather:( he is doing awful.He has leukemia.He has lung tumors.You name it..he is doing awful.I was blessed to have a sacred hour alone with him.It was just us two,and we were in bed,me holding his shaking arm down:( Praying with him etc.I know he doesn't have much longer.I feel that time with him was a gift from God.I just hope he IS saved and his heart belongs to Jesus.I'm still praying for him.I know my abuelita is up in heaven.Abuelito(who is doing badly),has a bunch of anger.He has to get past that.yes,he lost 2 children.One was his only son.So I can understand that deep sadness and anger he has for those losses.:(.
I have been helping my mom out with watching him.Its hard however,when I have the girls with me.I have 3 of them with me at all times.Ashley has friends,and will pop over to visit.I couldnt' believe my mom was upset about that???I can understand not liking strangers in her house,but I think she truley overreacts.Doesn't she know,that we'ret there because of our love N worry over her ARM AND BACK AND NECK??She cannot take care of abuelito.I do not know or understand how she is taking this on.She has to get some HELP...a visiting nurse.Something!!!!
4.WELL,SUMMER is still here.I might as well jump in the pool today.I am heading outside to turn the pump on.I am heading to gymboree.com and pay for the items I have in the cart.I wanted Brianna to take a look at it.I am taking Ashley shopping as well.I do not like going too soon,because they WEAR everything LOL...KIDS!!I went to Ashleys school for orientation this week as well(see busy life I lead lol).Her new school is double the size of her old one,and she has a locker now & they go from class to class.How neat is that.She is supeduper excited:)
WELL off to change a diaper.I need to get Lauren poty trained.She is now Two.I am calling an eye doctor,when she is tired,I notice her right eye gets 'lazy" as they call it.Her doctor is NOT concerned,and said she is not doign it all the time.She NEVER did it prior to her SHOT.I have this creeeepy feeling its connected.I hope it goes away.I know of lil girl who got her eye fixed this month.Well,I just want Lauren happy & healthy:)
I'm OFF for now..to take care of everything and everybody.What else do I do?
ack
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
two yrs old
Here is Lauren,on the 3rd day,SUNDAY,we had people in N out,Mostly IN all since Saturday.She is exhausted.I cannot believe she is 2!!HAPPY 2nd Birthday!She is full of action,totally complete MONKEY.She gets into EVERYTHING.Just today,(I told the bigger girls ALWAYS SHUT THE BATHROOOOOOM DOOR)...she poured a whole bottle of conditioner in my toilet.I hope it doesn't clog it up!Grrr tis a conditioned toilet,thats for sure!ALL the doors upstairs HAVE to be shut.The pool,has a ladder,it HAS to be UP.At all times,I check and double check just in case.She is non stop moving...not much different from Brianna,if not more adventerous!All the hayday at home,so much action just fuels her energy more rather than take it down a notch lol.
She had her b day on Friday.My mom sent her balloons and $$ for presents.We went to the dairy queen,& had our personal cake and time with her.On Saturday we had a nice party for her.It went better than I had hoped for.I know she had a great time:)
Than Billys(daddies) brothers and nephew and his son sal(so cute he is):)
KUDOS!
GIFTS I got,and PIC Of Daddy & Girls!
I LOVE IT:) Its custom made from Tonya at www.hyenacart.com/22ndDesigns
& its her size/and I know the top will fit for so long!She also got 2 Bamboo diapers as well on the way:) I cannot wait:)
I guess I should chill with the shopping.I have a cof coupon for gymboree,I am goign to grab things for Brianna for school:)
Lauren does need stuff for the fall/winter but I'll just do it little by little!her Birthday ROCKED,it was THREE days long lmao!One bummer happened,when my sil came and said things,but otherwise everything went great!
Kids are banging for me to go swimmming!I wanted to share this outfit,iTS sooo CUTE!UGH I cannot put it in now,so here is dh and the girls..LOL.OH stephanie,I miss you!come home soon!;) WE LOVE YOU!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
BRIANNA..before & now!:****(
The Picture here is Lauren in her towel(my towel lol) after a bath.She is wearing a muttaquin diaper that Dawn gifted her when she was born.It was one of her SOFTEST Diapers she owned as a newborn.I just LOVE that diaper.I have it for my grandchildren.Its sooooo precious.you can find muttaquin diapers at www.muttaquindiapers.com
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Not sure,but google always comes up right lmao!I am STUNNED at the prices of Goodmama diapers!My birthday,SILLY HUH I am thinking of going in with somebody for a dozen of them.(I get 6,she gets 6).I think I am never going to put a disposable on her ever again!LOL.
The second picture was Lauren wearing her gymbo "POOL PARTY DRESS".She had this LAST summer at her 1st birthday party!I love that dress.I'm amazed it fits still lol.I love gymboree!I do not understand when people say its expensive,because it is NOT.Not when you buy them on sale!Not to mention gymbucks!Well,now they have an OUTLET in JACKSON!I want to go!SO bad!LOL
I decided to pick out a pic that is in my harddrive(I HAVE DEVELOPED OVER HUNDREDS upon HUNDREDS of pictures lol I LOVE LOVE digital cameras!PRIOR t digital,I never played with cameras!HAH!
LAURENS Birthday Is coming UP!
I cannot believe it!She is going to be TWO!Yikes!I have a lot of people that are coming,I want to keep it at 20 people more or less.I have people I want to invite,but feel funny inviting.NEXT Saturday is her party,ONE day after her birthday.MY Birthday is on Monday.Its SO neat that we're 5 days apart!LEOS LEOS lol!
Speaking of Leo's,I am unhappy today:( My grandfather is not doing well,he fell and hurt his eye.Poor man:( I hope he feels better.I pray that I get to see him again.I do not have a clue why they go to spain 6 mos out of the year.I'm seriously thinking of leaving Jersey for good.I would miss my family,which is mostly my friends:( All my friends,what would I do without them?You cannot just remake 20 plus years of friendship anywhere in the world.Speaking of friends,Ashley is at Lori's house,she spent the night with Alexis(Lori's daughter).She is calling n calling wanting to come home.I am going to get ready now,and hop over there.In the meantime i have to fix my "temporary" crown that "fell out" of my mouth.ROFL i'm lucky I didn't swallow the dang thing~:)
Our pool is kicking booty,and we're enjoying it.i have to upload pictures of the kids enjoying swimming all summer long.I skipped the ocean this week,I do NOT feel Brianna is feeling well enough to go to the ocean quite yet.Speaking of Brianna,I cannot help but think about people and calling me with so much drama!Wat the hell??First my aunt calls yelling about how "she never told me to sue"..when she was the FIRST one to tell me I should sue the hall.My mom is adamant,alot of this bickering between two sisters is making me VERY sad.As far as I'm concerned,I'm thankfull for the outpouring of "get well soon" cards I got from friends online(THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH).I have pictures of Brianna holding them.She did get a cute smily face box of cookies from the girl who spilled the water,and Brianna enjoyed it(OR should I say,lauren stole some haha)..but overall she realized that the girl was sorry.She is super smart,we went yesterday for LONG walk,just me,her and Lauren.(Nobody else home),and I LOVE the one on one talks we have.I worry because of her tiring out soo quickly.
I want her yearly check up,and make sure her lyme disease is "OK"(the blood levels).Billy sprayed the yard,we've planted more grass etc,so the yard will be looking cute for the party.I need a THEME!Talk about last minute nancy.I sent out my invitations via email..I have to call 3 people to come.
I am confused,about whether or not to go to my nephews party.I want to go,but I am not staying long.I love my cousin and his family,my aunt,but I am hurt about a few things.I guess I am very passionate about my feelings sometimes,and even though I wrote things online I wrote it in a very low point in my life.(Yes,this blogger lol)...however things got twisted.I did not do anything.Nothing to hurt anybody directly.Now things are just not the same anymore.So of course now i feel uncomfy.Not to mention,I have laurens party,and I would've had them invited,but I do not want to overwhelm people with two parties in one month for our family.So I don't but I realize thats my own fault.Not nobody else's.LOL.
I am right in the fact that A)Billy,Me,and the girls are at the bottom of the list with EVERYBODY in my family.NO DOUBT.I'm not talking about cousins lol,I'm talking about with my own parents,everybody.My mom caught it yesterday,I slipped and said "your husband is right"..She said "my husband is your father"..OOPS.So I realize I have underlying sadness,and issues with that.Billy told me that awhile ago.I ask him do you really love me?What a question,I think in theory,that is not a normal questionto ask your husband,and being the mother of his children,of course he loves me.I believe I have a phobia,of people who are close to me,not loving me.Not sure why I am like that.When I am told "I will never talk to you again'..things like that,they just trigger something inside me more and more.I heard it from my mom this week,and than my aunt this week.Ummm Hello...Maybe I am better off just letting everybody have their wish.Billy is another one this week.."I'm not coming home tonight"..THREATS..I am sick sick of it all.:(
If people knew me at all,they know that I open my doors to EVERYBODY.My heart.My life.I am going to eventually show somebody my lyrics I wrote,and poems.I have them in a journal at home.Nobody except Billy,read them.He only read a few.The day I die,somebody will get to see them all and that bothers me in a way.I write here,I know nobody really reads anything here.
Back to the topic..I guess I'm also SAD but happy,because she is turning into such a cutie pie,that Lauren is going to be TWO.I remember very well the day she was born.The people who came to see her.I remember every momment and second of that hospitol stay.We stayed for FIVE days in total,due to her Jaundice.She was such a cute baby,soooo tanned (I guess due to the jaundice).
Now she is FULL of energy,and has the Loudest scream out of all my children.My children are my everything.I know I was meant to be a mother,AND I know I am not meant to have anymore.FOUR is enough!Four is a lot.I am sad with Stephanie,I had her young,but I had Ashley young as well.With stephanie,it was like I had her,and took care of her till she hit almost age 7.:*( Than she got whisked away.It was totally unfair.Totally Wrong.Her dad apologized,yet now she is still suffering & cannot figure out how to function in this world in a 'healthy" manner.She never suffered consequences for her actions,and that is SO detrimental to a myriad of issues in her lifestyle today.Her choices,are not what would be my choices.If things do not work out in this house,she hops to the next house.If they do nto work out in NJ she runs back to florida.Than the same thing,back to New jersey.She is in my prayers soo much that I believe she will outgrow it,and settle down.
Brianna,now,I just got off the phone(AM SITTING BACK DOWN LOL).I have to head out to toms river.Maybe go swimming in lori's HUGE pool!However,I'm sorta Beat because I have to go to the dentist.I cannot run all weekend with my crown off!I cannot believe it FELL off!Of all things!Ugh.My real crown is coming in 2 weeks,so If I do not get another temporary on,I have NO idea what the result will be lol!
""LIFE IS HARD"""
I'm sure not just for me,but for everybody.We ALL have bumps in the road we have to drive slowly through.
KUDOS
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