What to do?

I'm just not happy tonight.I have to snap out of it.Seriously.It goes off and on.I dont even have the energy for a stinking shower..Yeah,stinky me,needs a stinking shower.Grr.
I feel guilty,stephanie announces she "misses me so much:...i would fly out in a heartbeat.I don't think she gets that.I have 3 other kids,and another one named billy.lol..seriously,let me just GO.I can't go,or just something is up.Well,she requested for me to go like TOMORROW.:*( that is just unreasable lol...Maybe if the BABY was born,but we're all taking off.:)
WELL enough said.from me..;)

Lauren at Applebees..Playin around

 

More..More & more

 

This is when we hit applebees:) we had such a lovely afternoon.My cousin Erica came with her Fiancee.some of the kids are in the wedding party(stephanie & Lauren).Bridesmaid,and Flower girl.I think personally Brianna would be better off..(flower girl),because Lauren is a lil young,but its up to them:)
Well,I am off to wawa,get something to eat.I am giving up my favorite food.Chunky Monkey Ice cream.I was eating a pint a day,sometimes two,bad bad thing.I put on 15 lbs (not knowing lol) & i'm shocked my jeans still fit.What the heck???are the scales wrong??LoL.:)
I am goign crazy at home today.Lauren cries,Billy gets stressed.I love him,yet he is always into his 'you tube' or whatever video he watches.I dont' mind,but we need so many things done.I feel helpless sometimes.:( and depressed.I wish he could just enter my mind sometimes.....

Weekend update & a lil pic

 

OK,this picture was SO dark,I had to lighten it up.Lauren is in her bumbo..LOL the thing was put away forever in the garage.Well,Brianna got it out,and its driving Billy crazy as of late.She puts it everywhere...Well,anyways she actually sits in it and watches tv(lauren I mean).LOL.

Anyways,this weekend,
1)I got my hair done,Its no longer bleach blonde..its light brown/and I kept the blonde as highlights,and the tips are dark(the new style as of late) lol..& it looks pretty neat,if I can say so myself.Ashley has the pictures & have to upload them to my computer.
2) my parents left,we had lunch here.I had to run to pick up Ashley from Alexis house.THe night prior(sat night),we hung out(me,lori and laura came too) and we were talking till after midnight.I had a nice time.However,next morning I ran to get Ashley,and bring her back for dinner at our house with my parents,brother etc because they left at 1:30pm prompt to get to the airport:(.I was very sad,started to cry.I hate it.I really do.Why do this?Is it because my dad left his parents to come here?I do not understand,soooo now what?its time to make us not have our parents around?Men are just unusual people.Imo.
How is it that it makes sense,to be in SPAIN for 7 mos?what is there thats SO SUPER important?
Here is my brother having twins...Stephanie having ONe baby(allegedy)..so wat the heck??
Even when I had lauren,it was so important to be in Spain.Yes,spain is wonderful,YES,they raised us and when I was little I had to leave my friends for mos upon mos to go to spain.At that time I hated it,but now I don't,and its hard for us and the kids to just UP and fly to Spain:( Life is SO short,SO SO SHORT,yet what I find as important,people do not.
I am hoping to sell the house,and move to Florida.Thats my plan...

LOVE this picture!

 

LOL its just so cute.I love the outfit,the picture...etc!Lauren is getting big,this was mid summer though..A lil while back.LOL,I just want to make a blog now,with my fav pics!thankgod for picassa photoblog.I think I'm going to just toss in my favs,and not just randomly throw them all in!Hmm

Downloaded picassa 3!

 

I DID IT!I downloaded Picassa 3,and omygawd,I'm going to have fun lol..I should've done it sooner.I never edit pictures,I just take them.I think its going to be fun to edit them.I love taking them,so why not play around a bit.I see people do it,and I should've done it way back.I just like the originals,I guess.
Anyways,I am not 100%,but I'm pretty sure I'm going to be a grandmother.I have wayyy many thougths N opinions and I am not posting them on my public blog.I just pray and hope that Stephanie is ready,and she'll be a Good mom.She is going to be a mom,no wait,if she is pregnant,that means she is ALLREADY a mom,and that means I"M ALLREADY a grandmoter.Omg..I'm too young to be a grandmother(well,thats what everybody says lol)!
I send the collage(a collage,the first thing I did with picassa).Now I see why people have a PHOTO blog.I may just create one,for fun..just PICTURES.I'm sure billy will enjoy it.This blog is just mixed with whatever I feel like tossing in,a random blog.I should just name it Nancys Ramblings,cause thats all I do.babble,ramble,blog away blues.
Well,Tomorrow I have to see social services to get health insurance on the kids.Should be fun..(OH JOY),So tonight its fun with pictures,a LONG shower to stop my back pain,and my KNEE is pins n needles off and on tonight.I'm wayy too young for THAT too.Am I going to die young too?I sure hope not!:(
KUDOS!

FILLING OUT paperwork,for back to school

I am filling out paperwork,to go back to school.First is an essay,and 25$ along with everything filled out.I have to make a copy of my college transcripts(degree),and highschool.From there I will take an entrance exam(hope I pass lol) if not,you retake the parts you fail till you get it right.Its not like its just a one time shot,fail and you're done,so thats a good thing.However,there is an 12-18 mos wait,(I'm hoping i can get in by this coming Sept) more likely than not,it will be NEXT september.I'll be 39...Oye..I cannot believe it.I'll more likely graduate nursing at 40 yrs of age.LOL.It happens.I had my children,raised them as they were toddlers.Lauren will not be in kindergarten yet,so that makes me sad.I cannot put this off no longer though.I want to expand myself,as a mom,and person.I know,for a fact,I can not stay home on daily basis.I am not wealthy enough to just go do functions.I like to work,and do things that consist of people.I need to move around,sitting down doesn't work well for me.The day goes by swiftly standing,and doing things.Not to mention,I'll be helping people.I feel that God is pushing me in this direction.I prayed for a few years,and recently,to give me guidance.For me to get this sudden urge,that remained and grew with me all this time,is proof that this is meant for me to try to make it happen.
Well,Wish me luck!

its rainy snowy day

Yep..TUesday february 3...Not a very fun day to be outside!yes,I tried allready.Went out there and its just Ick.I wanted to drive out to gymboree,or somewhere and do some shopping for Spring Clothes.It'll be here before we know it!Nahhh not happening.However,tonight I'll be going to the aqua class and the nice N warm Suana..my favorite place to be.Seriously,I must be odd,but it clears my sinuses,makes my back feel better,list is endless.I am betting it even clears my pores!
Well,Lauren is riding on the blue horsey,looking out the double doors on the famliy room,and saying its SNOWING".LOL..she loves it,sadly its not sticking much at all.I have to upload pics from my new digi.I love it,I was considering taking it back for the nikon cool pix 10mp..but loving the fuji so far.Its 12x zoom,which makes it bigger but it has settings that i love & the pictures come out nice,and I can take one after the other without any wait time.Which is important to me,and NO shakey fuzzy pics.All In ALL those are the things that matter:) LOL
WELL..i'm off,to read,clean,and shower!KUDOS..((I cannot believe I woke up at 5am,why??) LOL

stephanie:) New pics!

I put another picture of her in the bottom of my blog,(2 posts down)!;) she is growing up So fast!She is amazing,bubbly,happy,and a sure spender!LOL she loves to shop!Her favorite things are People,her phone(hah),laptop,clothing,just STUFF.She LOVES her "stuff".She will be here on the 13th of February!Time for valentines day!I have to tell her to bring a RED SHIRT..i'm going to snap pics of ALL of them in RED shirts.:) so cute!I can do it myself,OR I fcan go to sears or something for pictures!!!OOOPS,her other favorite thing,is a person..who is in the picture;) ROB..which she claims she'll have in her life foreverrrrr!!!

I wish I had a friend who (IRL) knows photography,JUST so I can do my OWN pics of my children!I have to find this site,this phenomenal photographer gave me.If I do not find it,I'll ask her again.:)
My digital Camera that I bought recently,its no "BIGGIE" but its pretty neat where it has some "manual" stuff.Apperature,Shutter speed,etc.etc..If you do it wrong you get a black picture.However,you get it right,the pics are great.Than of course the regular 'Point N shoot" setting.:) CANNOT go wrong there.The 10mp is an upgrade.:)
Its big,but big because its 12x zoom.BUT when zooming so far,the mp is so low,like 3 & 4 mp.It still is nice and clear but whatever.:)MY cell phone does 2mp and it works fine!lol
Well,I'm off to watch TV with Billy,than get ready too for later!
I really wanted to share pics~
:):):)

Sunday...& Sunny!

What a morning it turned out to be allready!What a weekend actually!Its superbowl sunday!Yikes!I am supposed to go to my friend Lauras house.Plus we're invited to Hanks house!Sooo I am guessing we'll hit the local house,which is indeed Lauras house.Well,I woke up at 8am,and left to pick up Brianna who was at my mothers house spending the night there.Ashley stayed behind sleeping.I took Brianna to jijitsu,than we came home & ate breakfast.I started the laundry,loaded the dishes,mopped the floors and bought up clothes than made my bed.I'll tell you,no need to hit the gym when I have all the walking space and cleaning space here!eek!
My mom just left,from picking up Brianna to take her shopping for her birthday.My mother does this with her grandchildren before or ON their birthdays.Since she will not be here for Briannas 7th Birthday(she is leaving for spain).She decided to do the shopping now!I think its so sweet,Brianna gets to pick out what she likes,and my mom is practical and buys what she needs.Like clothing!My goal now with Brianna,is to tame her down,get rid of that PONY TAIL she loves so much,and that hair thats in her eyes all the time:( she drives me nuts!I need advice,how to help get a stubborn,and I mean SUPER STUBBORN girl to basically happily LET YOU(yes I say LET..because she throws a tantrum)..play with her hair,and wear it differently.See,Brianna is ALL about consistancy.She does NOT do well with change.Even subtle ones.I need help on how to break through and get her agree with me fixing her hair,and wardrobe.She is such a beautiful girl,yet HIDES in her own clothing and hair.She hides behind her bangs..she hides behind loose clothes.I know this,and see this.It worries me.I wonder what it is???Every night we hav to do the same thing at the same time,or she starts to get a little uptight.I need advice.i suppose google may help too???

Well,yesterday was also indeed busy as well.We had My nephwe Anthony came over with this girlfriend Lori.They were here till approx 8:30pm, & had to go back home.I however,had previous plans at my mothers house.Our cousins theresa was there,with her husband,parents and adorable son.I have to uplaod pics to share,lol,the lttle ones yeterday were ALL over the place!
My sister in law,dang she is officially pregnant with twins.I am thinking how cute it is,but YIKES the work she'll be involved with.I wish her the BEST.I love having ONE,lol,just ONE at a time.KUDOS to moms of multiples:) I'll feel like a lil cow,with all those lil babies around me lmbo!Yet,they'll be SOOO CUTE!I'm excited!My brother,he must be stressed.He'll be great though!
Anyways,It was so cute watching the kids play.Even Brianna hung with them,and before I knew it,the time flew!It was 11pm,when they left....than the kids wanted to spend the night.Oh well,i left,came home and here I am now!lol!
Happy Sunday..its gorgeous out(for February lol) & I am going to clean up,and get ready for the SUPERBOWL..(shrugs..Like i care lol)!