Thursday, June 26, 2008

Lauren is SICK:(,Me had route canal..2 at once yuk





OF COURSE I upload an IMAGE.
I do it almost EVERYTIME..even if its NOT on my mind!ABOVE is ASHLEY ROSE My lil Angel..with Lauren Paige!I love adding their middle name!LOL I don't know why!But i do!:):):)

I hate a route canal yesterday,it was TWO of them at one time.I almost DIED seriously,i was not in a good state.EVEN with a dang tranquilizer,i was upset,shakey and thought I'd have a heart attack from the novacaine he was giving me.I went to an endodontist.My heart was racing,where My ear drum was going boom boom sooooooo SURE enough I thought This is an overdose of novacaine!He got me NIce n numb though,SO I THOUGHT.(those who had route canals,NO fun right)..well the bottom part of your mouth is just WORST.This guy is very quick though,I'll give him that.I mean he just DUG IT OUT FAST AS HECK.Other dentist take forever(TOP MOUTH) ROFL.I mean 45 minutes etc...this was FIVE Minutes...PER TOOTH.
SO TOOTH number one.The novacaine did NOT work,not 100%.I FELT IT.It felt like my tooth ache I had for DAys and days on end.I had SO MUCH novacaine it was incredibly sad.NO wonder my heart was going pitter patter crazy.When he went to remove the damn nerve,IT HURT LIKE HELL.I won't mince words.LIKE HELL:( I had TEARS in my eyes,tried SO hard not to cry but i was allready upset for waiting from 11am to 3pm.They TOOK advantage of my hearing loss and LIED(the receptionist)I HEARD 11am.SHE CLAIMS it was 10am.Than there was another women there who they said her appt was at NOON and she got there at 1 but SHE even went ahead of me.SO I'm sensitive at times,(NOT TOO OFTEN) but get me on a pity party,its no fun.I hate pity parties esp for myself.BACK to the route canal,The pain lasted a good 3 minutes.I grabbed SOOO HARD on my shirt.LABOR IS EASIER than that pain.I'd rather be in labor than go through that in my life.It was the WORST pain I've EVER FELT in my ENTIRE LIFE.I had a C section,I've had 4 children in total.NEVER felt pain like that.SO I can say,I had a route canal and felt it.Imagine that.:( It felt like my regular tooth pain but WORST..Like almost 10xs worst.It throbbed all the way to my EAR and my head.I seriously wonder if you could die from that type of pain lol,cause if it throbbed to a part of my head,????WELL ITS DONE!FINISHED!PRAISE GOD I am sO glad its done!
SPeaking of GOD...I ran out of the house GRABBED a 100$ bill,for Ashleys Bras and undies whatnot she needs.WELL,I lost it.ONE BLOCK from the house,I cannot find it.
I call Ashley,PLEASE LOOK at home for it.NO she cannot find it,than tells me "mom,whats wrogn with you,how could you lose 100$"..GOOD QUESTION!
SO thats on my mind all day.I get back in the van,I pray,GOD PLEASE PLEASE let me find that money.NOW AS I was praying...my hand OPENS the CD compartment,I wasn't thinking of nothing much,just praying,and RIGHT IN MY HAND is the 100$ bill.Things like this has happened way too much.GOD Is trying to get my attention,I believe.I have to try to listen to what the message is.I know I have to get to the ob/gyn,is that it?I have a crazy uterus with endometriosis.I did a pap smear when lauren was 6 weeks old,and all was well.I'm past due for that.I'm not THAT late so it can't be THAT bad.I also had that liver issue(high enzymes)..waiting for news from that!
WELL today I see my other doc,and we'll see what happens.
MY GOALS.
GIVE LAUREN(POOR BABY has ALLERGIES)..runny nose runny runny runny.ONE THING I do NOT have is a baby running around with runny noses and NOT clean them.Its a HUGE PEEVER OF MINE.I can NOT understand when I see that,in parks,DIRTY kids,with RUNNY noses and NOt being wiped.WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE MOTHERS????Umm YUCK!OR a diaper(sposie no less) that HANGS SO LOW that is SO PILLY AND NASTY.
BAbies/and toddlers are SO beautiful.YES,they poop,they get sick,but dang do your job and TAKE CARE OF THEM PLEASE!NOBODy wants to SEE that!:( It just makes ME SO SO SAD for the babies!AND toddlers!AND EVEN CHILDREN!My daughter Brianna,age 6 now,KNOWS to blow her nose.She dont' let her SNOTS go down her mouth!YES,I seen too much of it,to make it an issue now.YUCK.I hope parents wake up...dress your kids nicely,cleanly,and take care of them or else DO NOT BOTHER HAVING THEM!I'm serious lol.Of course,I do NOT mean genetic issues..Those special need kids are a separate issue.I am talkin about the parents here.Anybody that knows me IRL knows I take GREAT pride in keeping my girls CLEAN.Brianna LOVES to dress DOWN but she is CLEAN.Hair can be all over,but her face is CLEAN.You know what i mean.LOL:) But we go somewhere,she like it or not,she'll dress for the occasion:)
THANKGOD she is starting to enjoy dressing up in clothes I buy for her:)
WELL I am off to see a psych.I am not going back no more after today.I am goign to say BYE.THey tried to prescribe me EFFEXOR.I am bringign Lauren.I am NOT leaving lauren here,when the poor baby put her OWN shoes on and knows i'm leaving.:) SO she'll come with me.What can they do???lol seriously.Some people have NOBODY to watch their kids.:)
I know people would probably think i'm NUTS to bring her,but hah,she is loved,cleaned,and very well taken care of:) So miss shrink can see that lol.
I just do not not want effexor.SO I am going cause I do not want to disrespect the psych and show up/cause she has a schedule.
I am NOT signing papers for her to hunt down my medical records.WHY bother?I'm not seeing her no more!LOL
SHOULD i even GO?
Later at 4 I have ANOTHER appt.SO MANY DOCS..I'm going to Just park my van in docs offices LMAO
OH ..last night we had ALEXIS sleep over.YES Alexis,who we knew as a little girl just like we knew Courtney as a little girl.those two girls grew up here with us:)
Anyways,Ashley,Courtney,and Brianna made a HUGE tent with blankets Galore in Ashleys room.I am TERRIFIED to walk in there.ALLS I ask is to please CLEAN IT AND put away dishes from dishwasher:X LOLOL.
I am goign to make a contract..STILL on my list.
I have to make my GOALS list,and go back later and see what I've accomplished!
WELL ENOUGH CHATTER!
OH billy got me MAD this morning.Not MAD but ENOUGH mad.OH WHEN I go to the docs..drop the kids off at JIIJTU and he'll be there to get them.I'm like UMMM I got LAUREN TOO YANNO!Drop her off too??"OH I forgot,I thougth she'd be w you" LMAO!
First off..NO.I'm not letting Bri SIT at Jijitsu with the bigger girls,WAITING for DAD.EIther you're there or you're NOT!
UGHHHHHHHHHHHH @@ MEN!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

SOme pics...A small blurb!






Here we are...at courtneys house for the party for Ash and courtneys leavign mill pond and goign to middle school:)
LOL!I"m sad,that the school did NOT give them a nice "graduation" like they did for brianna!I guess they DO when they enter highschool.:)
OMYGOSH MY TOOTH is starting up again.I had a coffee..ugh.I have to starve..day #2 now of starving.NO FUN:(
Anyways,UP ABOVE is Ashley N Courtney YEARS AND YEARS AGO!Courtney is sleeping right next to me right now as I type ROFL!OH Lookee see,lauren fell asleep right next to her..AHA I'm heading back t bed before tooth acts up all the way again YIKES!PAIN PAIN..I'll try the ice cube trick again.Make a fist,put the ice cube on the thumb fat part,and the tooth pain goes away.No joke,it worked,I slept till LAUREN woke me up!
WELL,BACK to some cool party pics!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

OFF to the shower I go!

I went to pick up Ashley,Courtney N mikayla(she is not mentioned here often,cause she is not one of ashelys friends thats around often),but she is here tonight lol..and I'm GETTING HIVES.TOOTH HURTS. WE're supposed to go FISHING when the kids crash,we'll see what happens cause I hear its going to rain:( Maybe we'll eat,I'll call laura N see if her n sean wanna do something ::shrugs::: Its one of those days,I'm itchy and & In pain.I hate my toothache,I wish somebody knew how to PULL that sucker out!:( WHALLA I'm going to TRY to post the video I've been TRYING to post.(SIGH) I should be organized..(whats that?) LMAO

UGH I gotta get the girls inside..::OUT OF THE SHOWER::: waited for the uploads!
Ashley ALWAYS stays in front of the house,and goes next door,they always have bonfire parties etc.
I am OFF.!LATERZ

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Party party party!




Ashley had a BIG FUN Party at Courtneys house for her lil mini graduation(they didn't graduate,but next year she goes to a new school aka MIDDLE school lol) SO the girls asked me and laura to do something together.I was going to do something at home for her,sooooooo less work LOL:) They had a great time,and I'm glad. here are some pics.I have LOADS of CUTE CUTE videos,I have to upload them too..soon Little by little.! Tonight my dh is taking me out FISHING and DINNER!YEPPIE!I'm psyched~ but I have the WORST TOOTHACHE I've ever had in my life!Once I'm off the pc,I'm heading in the shower..(dying to try that nice shampoo from serena at dreamboat diapers)...and getting dressed.:)

Sunday, June 15, 2008

PART ONE of entrance LOL

cute entry video!

After her Graduation,:)

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LOL itty bitty tiredness

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Briannas Graduation SlideShow!

HEY,its FATHERS DAY

I think we may go fishing,I see a HINT of SUN peeping through.I get up,and grab Lauren who was wide eyed next to me just making gooing noises,yes,combined with real words.Hey,she is only a tot to begin with lmao.I realized we were up late last night in SEASIDE HEIGHTS.:) I will upload the pics later on,the digital camera is upstairs.We got some AWESOME pics & Had a Fun,peacefull time.We bought Courtneywith us as well and the two big girls had fun just roaming the one area going on ride after ride(Oh the pleasure of cell phones),while Billy and Bri rode the electronic toys(siimlar to X box and what not lol) and I used the Claw Game.I did Great.There was this couple,blew 50$ I am told trying to get this cute white stuffed tiger with Beautiful sad Blue eyes.I want the tiger,for me..since the girls are spoiled rotten with stuffed toys,didn't mean much to them.Something about that tigers eyes,that just drew me on.Its me,and my lil tiger.Maybe thats how I won him so fast?LOL.
SOO afterwards,My darling dearest husband (YIKES) could not remember for the LIFE of him where he parked the car.Me,and Courtney said two blocks that way,he denied we were right,and we just sat on the cement whilest mr know it all walked around haha...turns out we were RIGHT ON..(SIGH..MEN).Just TOO much.

Again,back to Fathers Day,and this morning.I get up EARLY,past the crack of Dawn,with Lauren.Clothes still from last night(we got home after 2am..yes 2am.Fortunately we're not strange,because there were MANY MANY families out and MANY MANY people rent hotels at this time of year as well.So why not live it up.LOL.
Well,I got home,crashed out.This am,OFF we went,to walmart.I got a bed in a bag(i'm going UP to make the bed in a few minutes YEPPIE).Its blue and white...NOT my colors but I want difference!I wish I bought EXTRA money cause I wanted the suede bedding but I ONLY bought 100$ with me,for dads day..lol..get him a tackle box.WELL I got the tackle box,bed in a bag,rugs for my bathroom and garbage can(3rd bathroom,in the side of the house i'm in now,thats rentable if i wished to do so.I may shower in that bathroom.Its been ready forever,SO I am going to use it.I want Billy to do his ''errands""..but on fathers day?NO!
I Like his Tackle box,its for fishing!
Anyways,I'll send pics,and updates on WHAT we DO for Fathers day.Right now,I have the feeling he will want to go NOWHERE and RELAX for wrok tomorrow HAHA!I guess last night was his "NIGHT":) WE did have loads of fun.We always do!I love it!I love seaside..Not sure why so many famliies do not.Its family oriented,n as much as point plesant,but seaside just has that Kick I like.I love wildwood MUCh better(Everybody loves wilddwood.)
OH Funny stuff.My mom sent my brother with 100$ LOL..i was surprised / pleasantly so.I should've used EVERY PENNY for diapers for Lauren.BUT NO.I spent it on other items!Only me lol.
At least I can still buy her some good reliable diaper covers.SHe is using the prefolds method,Snappi'd and set.I love it.:)
laterzzzzzz about everything..I'm needing another cup of coffee or i'll be SLEEEPING!Hehe!

A CUTE PIE:) My Gymbo baby

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TOOK This test.RESULTS.TAKE IT TOO!Interesting!

What mental disorder do you have?
Your Result: Manic Depressive

You have extreme cycles of highs and lows. Sometimes you feel like you don't know who you are. One week you could be very hyper and happy and the next week you are slow and depressed.

ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Paranoia
What mental disorder do you have?

Thursday, June 12, 2008

GIRLS

QUICK LIL WALK LOL VIDEO

Sunday, June 8, 2008

BLAB,2 cute pics,and billy plans on a pool!

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LOL just ONE year ago!:) LOLOL!
STILL FITS In that same dipe!I should've snapped a pic..and baby leg still fits.She has huggalugs she never wore yet.I found some AWESOME SITES that have Babylegs,for 6-8$..I have RME sooooooooooo wooohoo LOL RME will go for baby leggies or some more cloth.Maybe a nice wool shorts/longies.I'd LOVE a skirty!
She does NOT need any "clothes" so I may as well just shop and buy bows,and dipes!LoL!

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Here is miss Brianna!!SO for Brianna AND Ashley..................................
WE are DEFINATELY buying a pool!Billy wants to get one that you do NOT need to take down at all..so its a hit!THE LADDER WILL be removed everyday!:D I am going to be spendign a LOT of time this summer outdoors.!
Plans:
GYM
BeACH
Vacations(3 of them).
and POOL
mine and friends:)
YEPPIE and of course lots of grillin lol!

PICS..CLOTH DIAPERED LAURYN PAIGE!

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In a dreamboat fitted from Serena!I love this diaper!:):):) Its in the pail..today I bought a huggabun pocket diaper.They definately a hit too!I got red lol!I'm amazed how well they work,and priced!You get a hemp fleece insert WITH your diaper.You cannot beat it,quality,and price all at one.I will get more,I should before prices go up,IF they do.LOL!
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Here is miss Lauryn trying to get some goodies out of the basket.:)
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LAUREN/a VIDEO LOL



LMAO Lauren was sick,but she was playing:) She is SO SO Sweeeeeet!
I love how the beginning she is APPY.Her HAPPY word..Its one of my FAVORITE words..and one of her FIRST words.That ROCKS:) Her first word...(REAL WORD) is HAPPY LOL!!
I hope she Keeps that positive attitude,sick and all and "APPY" LOL!

LOL Lauren being silly video!

MORE last year..(SIGH)

Looking below..looky now..big change on the girls!This is the girls waiting for Daddy & Ashley to get off the rides.Look at Brianna,she was SO babyish still.LOL!
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This is MY LOVE:*) He is AWESOME,always making us goodies:) I love you BABY!13 yrs coming up.I do NOT know how that time flew by and we still have the love,passion and respect that we do for each other.I love our life together,and I KNOW we have something SUPER DUPER SPECIAL.MY SOUL MATE!FER SURE!LOL
I know you read my blog,and I love that you do.I do NOT know what the heck I'd do without you.You were there for me through the lowest points in my life,and the best!
Now we have some struggles(with my health) to overcome,it may not even be a struggle..but we'll overcome,as always.I bet my health is fine:) LOL.We worry over nada!

I'm thinking of going out on my upstairs DECK to get some tan:) NO NEED for a tanning salon.LOL the gym gave me a few 2 week passses..for what I do not know.I am going to give them out to some young girls that I know.
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LAUREN..A LIL BABY..I have to stop posting baby pics LOL!But i post what i want!Its my blog LOL!

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this is CRABBY:( he died.We got him in Wildwood.Dang,i want to go back lol.Maybe I should start booking a trip for a few days.I have to plan our summer.Time to discuss things with Billy.
I wouldn't mind another place,but I LOVE wildwood,and LOVE how the cape may zoo is near by,and so many things.We CAN go to ocean City Maryland..I am goign to ck it out.I wonder if its as neat as Wildwood.Wildwood has a FEW water parks,and a FEW piers full of rides,tons of restaurants,clubs,you name it.Its a perfect family getaway IMO.Get a nice hotel with a pool..why get a plane ticket to go anywhere else??LOL.

Pics,and of last summer

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I really have to post an updated pic of THIS summer.hehe,billy I think gained a few lbs,but I know i LOST weight YEPPIE!I know its from the gym,and not eating like I used to.i guess the yogurt company did me a favor...I loved it and its GONE!Strawberry Banana Columbo Yogurt..GONE.POOF.It did give me a lot of heartburn though lol!
I am anxious for summer!
Ashley N Courtney are having an END OF THE YEAR PARTY,(sigh), at Courtneys house because its going to be a POOL party,and allas we do not have OUR POOL UP.Billy is looking to buy us a pool now,not sure what he wants.he said this morning we are getting a pool.He wants a pool.Ok,I'm game..but the gate better be able to come OFF.I do NOT want a built in pool.I am terrified of them:( gate or fence,they scare me with so many lil ones.When they get older,we can decide,or just buy a different house with a built in pool allready there!
I'm anxious for summer!
Yesterday I was at Lauras house,with my girls.They had a good time,me got some color with Laura.:) I feel badly cause I didnt' make it to the passion party this girl from my yahoo group was having.She lives SO close,but being with ileanna when she told me she was pregnant and than my brother coming home,compounded with endless bags of awesome clothes for lauren,just kept me super busy!THAN I had to make supper for Billy.
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YES,Looking at the pictures,I lost a GOOD 20lbs LOL I am stunned!I look silly there but its an OLD picture.The B&W was not a good choice,with the tan and the light lipstick LOL!Billy however came out great:) This year will be the other way around LMAO(Kidding).
I'm goign to send him the pics,to show him what the RIGHT foods do.He'll notice the weight loss on my part and I think truley realize it LOL!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

PICS cool pics pics pics


SOME CUTE PICS!







Lauren at the bus stop,waiting for miss Brianna!She has Serenas Fitted Diaper under her...fits GREAT!I love Dreamboat diapers!I may pick up some pockets and fitteds from her soon.Right now I promised no more diaper shopping,cause Lauren has plenty for now.I want to get her a minky one size diaper.Thats my next diaper buy I think / or fluffy buy lol!

Here is Lauren trying to grab things from the dresser.In this dresser consists all her diapers,and wipes etc..LOL the end drawers has snow pants,mittens etc.Too funny,a whole dresser for diapers?Of course its gotta go,its holding JUNK.I want that dresser to go...and soon.Maybe this weekend,I can buy lil crates or something,and a stuffed animal thing for the corner.It'll be a lot more tidy.

The next pic is lauren with her CUTE OUTFIT riding her horsey:) I forget the name of that line,Something with Love.I THINK..LOL.I got it NWT in ebay,for like 4$ lol.Gotta LOVE ebay!

Bad news,bet i think it'll be ok

I went to my dr's yesterday,and I got two different news.One is my liver,the enzymes level was high.Not sure what that means,but i have to go today for blood work for HEP B & C..NO WAY could i possibly have hepatitis,how the heck do you get that??How weird is that.My friend lori has Hep C but You can only get it through blood right?Makes NO sense!Doc asked if I had blood transfusion,so he is clearly concerned:( :(.
I am stopping the Effexor,cause I read that anti depressants can cause Fatty Tissue in the liver,soooooo ADIOS!I took them in the past,and NO more steroid treatments on my knees either,I swear,you listen to docs to heal one thing and you can get sick with another issue.I'll find out more soon enough (SIGH).
NEXT,is I have endometris or whatever in the lining of my uterus & the lining is xyz thick(I should bring the paper that states exactly what).SO I have to see a OB/GYN to fix that.I also need to get one of those conoscopy things,u/s etc..UGH.Last thing I NEED now is a Hysterectomy(SP).BUT I allready had surgery for my cervix..I am concerned,why I am always nauseas,and tired.I do the gym,and this week I exhausted it,I am goign this morning.Its raining so Billy will be home.He cannot work in the rain.I dont' want to bring Lauren to the gym.I don't mind,but its easier just putting sneakers on and go.I think working out and eating healthy will help heal myself on my own.I'm planning on looking up Herbs and stuff that help with the liver.
I am NOT taking Tylenol ever again either!

I spoke to my mom,I'm sad that my grandfather is doing so poorly.It breaks my heart t hinking of him not being able to walk from his room 4 feet to the bathroom:( AND him falling.He has a huge tumor in his lung,I don't see him making the next year.How awful is that:(
I miss my mom a LOT.Especially days like yesterday,she is SO helpfull when it comes to the little girls,when I have doc appts.I had to bring them yesterday,even though Laura says "just ask" and "I'll watch them".I guess I should just "ask".My mom says to "ask" Ileanna,she'll watch them too.I guess I'm silly for NOT 'asking".I'm just used to just my mother,me or my husband watching them.So are they.The only other person who has 'watched' the lil ones is Ashley.She is a mature 12 but she IS ONLY 12..but an hour or so for the docs..she'll handle that perfectly.SHe's proven herself a few times allready and we pay her very well for it.LOL.So she knows she is helping out her own family,and gets an allowance and pay for when she "sits".She wants to 'babysit" outside of home,I told her she can have a job next year.WAY too young to want to work I think,::shrugs::: I want her to be a lil girl as long as possible.She so far has been great,normal 12 yr old.She has friends,drama,does good in school,and is respectful and loves her sisters,and family.Brianna is always a goof..my lil tomboy/super excited about summer!She was saying stuff about wanting just a "SMALL" pool in the yard,where its up to her knees,and the sprinklers,and we'll have "fun" and I can sing to Lauren and her,and we can play.Just the way she says it,sooooo cute and sweet.To be 6 again,LOL what a lovely age.I love my kids.
Stephanie spoke to me yesterday from Florida.She is happy out there,I miss her.She has been through the wringer,& me too..but I know she is unhappy with herself.She is in outpatient treatment for depression and substance abuse.I think she should go INpatient..we'll see what happens.She ""Loves"" this guy Anthony,soooo if so,she should try to get better.Or else they won't work out.Life is "hard" as it is,to toss in a mix of the above to it.
Oh Ashley had a class trip:) LOL she loved it.It was at the museam in Philly.Her only complaint was it was a long drive.The boys were teasing her about the Ben Franklin Bridge is going to fall down while they drove over it.She has a fear about bridges.I don't know why..but she always hated bridges.

Anyways,its 5am,and I'm UP.I dont' get WHY I get up every morning at 3am.I miss sleeping alone with my husband:( I love lauren,but the co sleeping bit,is nice but I basically miss my husband.Its not how I wanted it to be.It just fell into that,I am going to start going in her bed with her,and wait till she passes out,than leave.
Thats it...or fall asleep and Myself leave lol..either way,its whats next.Brianna complained that Lauren wakes her up,SO we let lauren in our room.WHat happens next...BRIANNA started sleeping on our bed too.GOOD THING we have a huge king sized bed,or else FORGETABOUTIT..even SO it wakes me up.She sleeps on the bottom part with her feet BY my face,UGH.Lauren sleeps sideways,and me and billy both get kicked all night.I enjoy it,I turn over and let my back get kicked at.My back hurts every damn night.I hate it.I suppose a new mattress is in order?
We plan and plan,have the money but never GO do it.I suppose we like to 'save" the money,cause emergencys DO happen and we like to be prepared.Many people shop with an extra thousand or so,we have to save it.I am not happy unless there is a few thous saved,and we have our bills paid without TOUCHING the money we save.If we have to dip into that,I consider us BROKE.BIG TIME.Speaking of shopping,this week I spent over 300$ in clothes for Ashley(but did get Brianna 2 outfits lol and 2 shorts,and 1 top for lauren,and a pair of cute canvas sneakers at old navy).Myself two tops..blah blah,CUTE though.Now that I have some more toneness to my body,and arms,the tops I got looked SO cute.I am waiting on Gymboree for the girls(lil ones),and Some cloth diapers arrived for Lauren.I also got her G diapers.I bought BAC OUT,and it works GREAT for stains and what not!I am waiting on bows now too for Lauren N Brianna.:) Brianna is starting to let me do her hair again.I sing my Praises lol.Her hair got LONG in the back now..N its so much thicker than Ashleys allready.She is so pretty but the way she dresses,and wants her hair so BLAH drives me NUTS.i want to put earrings on her,necklaces,you name it.(SIGH)..I embrace how she is though and do not dare try to change her into something she is NOT.I feel they need to discover their OWN Identity.She is tomboyish but loves girly stuff too.Its cute:)
GAWD,I babbled enough:)
I miss mom,Steph,I love you guys...papi too,and Abuelito:(