AVA..her SHOWER in SEPT,and etc

Ava is coming:) here is pictures of my lovely grand daughter:) i am anxious to meet her,and I am SURE she is anxious to meet me lol!!
Love is grand...(AHHH)....grand thats why GRAND MOTHER came from.WOW,what an epiphany I just had!
Here is my lovely baby girl!

party yesterda,and sweating today

I'm SOOO sweaty,I'm sitting here and sweat is pouring down my face.I do not get it,why is it soooo HOT?Its NOT that hot,but I am sweating profusely.I have sweat goign down my eye,right down going down my face,to my lip down to my chin.I'm not even wiping it of lol..Its nasty stuff.I sweat SO much I have No idea why.Anybody know why a person can sweat so bad?Is it good or bad to sweat to much?I never used to sweat like this?Is it a midlife thing?BUt its not hot flashes,its just Sweat.LOL.
I realize its 80 degrees outside but nobody is sweating lke me that I know of.OMYGOD.

Anyways,Did church,Alexis spent the night,the party was a big success I got to see friends I hvent' seen in ages and ages.
I am EXHAUSTED In a way...I woke up at 2:30am.OMY...thanks Kids~!!

i phone...vs matrix

I have two cell phones right now to play with..the Apple I phone and the Pantech Matrix.
CONS: Matrix: Just a phone.Its cute but doesn't do nothing but calls,text (what I decided to just PAY for).

PRO : IPHONE..it rocks and I wonder if I should just go and activate it for a month see how I like it??Before I upgrade or whatever.

CONS: Its 30$ a month.WHy should I spend that?? I want teh blackberry anyways vs the Iphone.
There are other touch screen phones I'd like to ck out OVER the iphone.Just cause I would need to installI tunes and All that stuff.

Would you get the iphone turned ON??Or just keep the Pantech Matrix.I love how the matrix textin thin skides right out to the sideIts pull open,like the Lg shine.

WE are Set for TWO upgrades,this and next month.Its up to me if I want to use it now or just wait it out.Descisions descisions.
i have to find a new phone store,as I am not crazy about the one I go to.The sales man I caught allready in a few bullshit lines..I'm sick sick of it!

a party today and a grump family!RANDOM PICS TOO!

I am absolutely STUMPED.My gosh!We have a party in toms river today at winding river park.Its an OK park,not my fav but it does what its supposed to do.
NOW Billy decides to cut the grass,the girsl complain thy dont' want to go.How about me?Maybe I can skip hop N go..LOL Its NOT that far.I made 2 big trays of pasta salad.Thanks to Tia Julie..LoL I didn't mean to "Copy" her dish,but it became a dish that NOBODY made.SO allas I made it,and I happily say it is much better than hers(hehe Auntie)..:)
I miss my family.Everybody is away.It makes me depressed.My girls are out of control,there is ABSOLUTEY NO family Unit,except for OUR OWN we are a TIGHT unit but when you have a sister out in Florida.Grandparents out in Europe.Other grandparents you speak to rarely,and so on so forth....There is a saying "it takes a Village to Raise a child..I could NOT agree more!
Billy is overwhelmed.He is a great daddy but some issues I disagree with him about.He has to realize they are KIDS..not grown ups in little bodies lol.Too funny.

WEll,I'm heading off to take a shower.Right now I hear billy going on with the kids,about Heaven Knows what.Ashley doesn't want to go to the party.
WHY such A SIMPLE thing becomes such drama.Ashleys bumming due to kids her AgE..Umm whatever.There will be teens there.I'm sure.I am not letting her stay home.No way,No how.Bill wants to cut the grass,since it rained all week..After that we're kicking off:)
Have a great SATURDAY people!

my moms house?

WHO is in my MOMS house?Its very odd,the lights go on and stay on.....for days on end.
I told billy to PLEASE to go in and see who the hell is in the house.Its odd.VERY odd
What made it WORSE is WHAM somebody calls my mom (HUH) in Spain(WHO would call mom in Spain lol..yeahh right,a neighbor has her digits)..neighbors she dont' communicate with.Never ever.
Anyways,and sees A LITTLEGIRL With blonde hair trying to break in.It is not Ashley.I know its Not Ashley like I know my name.I am with Ashley,she is peeved that she was even Bought up.Her words are "WHAT WILL I DO THERE,there is NOTHING THERE".No,Ashley is not your drinker,or smoker or drugger,so there is absolutely NOTHING to dothere.Not to mention,even if she WAS(which she is NOT)..her friends mom is never home!I dont' see MOTIVE here people....GRR
So Now billy drove by AGAIN..and seen the lights on AGAIN.So he is going in NOW to see who the hell is in the house.He is not too happy but he's going in becuase i'll be damned if something happens and my kid gets blamed.They always get blamed,well cuase steph always got blamed and now its pass the blame down to Ashley.Its sad.One wonders why Stephanie is in florida??Hmmmmmmm
It may make some folks happy,however,My mom will just as soon Follow her.So when that happens it won't make some folks happy.
I am happy whatever,I will go to Florida too.LOL..Im just biding my time.I do love Jersey.DON"T get me wrong,Love NJ.I am considering taking my kids to florida for the new school year.Its a thought...now who is going to pay my mortgage in NJ.I could rent the house out..now thats a thought!:) & rent a house in Florida!Whalla!
i'm definately blabbing.I am on photobucket,and just uploaded pictures.This is my 2nd photobucket album and I have 2000 pictures in this one album.That means I have close to 4000 pics,WOW.:) Not to mention whatever is in online albums like shutterfly and snapfish and whatnot.Drop box and picassa..and whattttttttever...
TIme for me to get my head outta my ass.
I need to get moving,get the house moving and eventually get my rear end back in school.Talk about Boring life.How can I say I have a boring life?well I am bored.
period.
BORED.

my stair..the rails on the stairs..LOL

 

HOnestly,I really wanted WOOD.But Bill came home with these..and wierd,they look SO cool.Now its time to paint the steps.
I need to think,what color,a dark color(the steps are oak),dark like close to black(I've seen it and it looks SO cool)...and than I will have all my pictures in a black frame...OR a pretty wooden color.I can paint the arm rails white,and it'll match the white thats on the face of the steps.I cannot wait till end result..OYE When will it happen??

Ashley is at the mall,and Should be home soon.She actually bought two pairs of jeans.lucky girl lOl

cutest Blog On the block

Oh my gosh what a DAMN boring Day today is.It took the pie for the most boring day this summer.B O R I N G!
SHould I cook?Nope.Should I go for a walk...NOPE.There is nothing i even want to do,remotely because top off the rain I have pain from head to tow pretty much.Even heartburn.
I am honestly scared of what my body is going through.Am I going through some unknown illness?Are my kids going to be without their mommy?That just breaks my heart to a million pieces.
This morning,that pain I went through broke me.It made me cry like I haven't cried in a long time.I do not for the life of me,understand how a woman MY age,who is active as I am can go through this crap.I really need to do blood work.I owe money(SIGH),not tremendous ammount but at the point where I could just do without.I should pay it.I am not supposed to have a bill.The woman who works for the doctor wrote teh WRONG code more than ONCE and whalla I get a 200$ bill for BLOOD WORK.SO now when I want BLOOD work done at LAP CORP,I have to PAY the balance.I should just get it over with.Its unfair.Everything is unfair.

Well,I'm waiting for Ashley,who luckily runs off to the MALL today with her friend.Lucky girl!!
I am heading upstairs.Brianna is VERY impatient and wants me to go and help her hang up POSTER of her favorite MOJITOS The NICK JONAS MAN..(SIGH)..or shall I say BOY?Oye!
I am the mother here,and I really have to get these kids to realize that what I say is IT.No ifs and buts.

The sad note of the day,Billys Aunt Delores Died,and i wish we went up north.Its sooo RAINY so it didnt happen.Plus the kids,and the drama,but if it wasn't 2 hours away we sooo would've been there.I hate how we aren't at places we want to be at.I dont' recall his aunt Delores but I know HE does..I'm BORED,yeah,did I say that ALLREADY?

Dinner consisted of TEXAS TOAST..LOL..some chicken nuggets,Mac N Cheese,hotDogs,Sausages,Potatoe Salad,we call it a smorgasbord.Everything for everybody thrown about lol!!
I told billy i would like to have RED WINE with Dinner EVery night!
Its UNBELIEVABLY healthy.Wine N Water that is it...No sodas.
WELL,I'm heading UP to do the JONAS thingy!Brianna is being VERYVERYVERY upset,cause I am actually (GASP) sitting down.Imagine that.
If I wasn't in PAIN,I would be UP and running around.The rain doesn't stop me.How rude..These kids need a lesson in knowing how LUCKY they are!SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!
I am going to do this for Brianna and than tossing her in front of you tube and bringing up some videos toshow her just how it is!!
BTW,I just copied N Pasted this cute (background) I may change it.LOL I think its just adorable!HAHE
BILLY is just driving me NUTS!

CyberDefender 2.0 Free / AVG AV going $$$

CyberDefender 2.0 Free / AVG AV going $$$

OK,I have this for antivirus.I am debating onwhat to do.It is internet security.I had nortons 360 for 90 days.I had my laptop for 3 mos allready(reminds self to buy ONE more DVD that i'm short of to make back up discs lol even though i can run to best buy and buy a rebooting disc if it crashes.ALL my pictures are in web albums and developed,and cd's.:) Priase god.

I am wondering if this will work?I do not get it.I should just get another one.I am not into aVG at all.There is projonsky or other ones that I feel work great.
I may just hold on to this till I have money.It does cost but I did the trial pay from by getting a month of NetFlix movies.:) I love movies so why the heck not.
I can cancel it anytime regardless.I'll watch a few movies though.I can watch it on my laptop.

Ok,today was a BAD morning for me.My neck has been hurting for TWO yes TWO days.Its not better yet.My arm is tingly and numb.I have hearburn(get over that).My back hurts SO terribly.I am going to give up smoking..AGAIN,I went through too much allready to quit the first time for 52 days.I have No idea why i went back,well I have a clue.My friend Lori tell sme I can gain weight,
I had liuid taken out of my knee,and thats out of mowhere.lol;)

WELL,My daugher ashley is at the MALL.Its POURING out.SHe knows IAM NOT going out to get her,I can't barely keep my eyes opened.i obviously did not sleep enoough than took an anxiety pill,Today is definatley the perfect day for it.The rain is hurting me :(

Today what did I accomplish..sooo little anyways..tomorrow I have to drop money into my account so I can use the coupons and baby bucks for Briannas back to school clothes.SHe'll look darling)
I gave coupons along with baby bucks,maybe i'll drop it off on the WAY to pick up ashley lol.
Things I reallyw ant to do.
1)WORK
2)WORK
3)WORK
I cannot deal with ber!

makeup?advice..

 

I hate the way I do my makeup.honestly.There has got to be something..OH ignore the lipstick on my cheek.LOL yes..me and Brianna were playing dress up.YEP..& Iknow my roots need touch up..MAJORLY.I just don't know what to do with it:) SO it remains.
Anyhow,Brianna KISSED my cheek:) so precious...but whalla every picture remains with a red cheek.LOL

These pictures I was debating for which or what will go for facebook or myspace.I decided on a smiley one,these are just not "FB" style..Not my personality for "FRIENDS"...They were just self poses.(cough)..Boring,but fun for me to have.Its a first..Pictures of ME,rather than everybody else:)HEHE

A Lil Sexxxxy

 

Nahhhh:) Just Being a GOOOF today.One day,billy will look back..and think,what is she doing?lol

Me again

 

Just tossing ME.:) Latest self portraits...yeah..self indulgant little me.

me

 

GREEN EYES..bLUE Dress.

 
Her eyes,match dresses.If she has brown,the hazel pops through...green clothes,or grass they are profoundly green.Blue Dresses,I dont see BLUE eys(maybe a lttle in picture) but in life,they are green as grass.Uncanningly Beautiful.None of my kids have green eye..

GREEEN EYES?

 


Its SO hard to get it on Camera...LOL

my 3 girls

 
I just love this picture..and decided to tosssss it in:)
Its a beautiful picture.:)
Lauren has green eyes,not sure if you can tell in here.I want to crop this picture and just get their eyes.:) LOL

my happy numbers & Picture

 

Well,its a CLOUDY Tuesday.Not sure what to do today.Maybe take a walk to my brothers house,tonight we're having cake for his birthday.
I've been feeling a little depressed,and just not myself.The pain I go through daily physically is just draining,and the emotional,stressfull drama that goes on daily is also having a toll on me.I am gratefull for the little things that make me HAPPY.
THis week...:0)
laurens new hair do(in picture).I just get everything out of her face,I know nonsense stuff but it made me happy.

2)Brianna is FINALLY (gasp) going to have me do her hair.I can faint with this news lol.If you know brianna,you'll know she is SUCH a stubborn stubborn girl and just loves her hair swept to the side and a mess.It drives me absolutely CRAZY.Hair by her eyes..I think ANY mom would bug out with hair covering your childs eyes.This is huge..to me:)

3)This made my week..by far.Ava's Pictures:) I really enjoyed them.I look foward to seeing the videos.most of all,seeing her:) This is something fun to look foward to.My only stress here (which of course I cannot have a happy momment without stress) Is her AUNTS.yep,ashley,Brianna,wanting to go see ava too.The finances which do not allot for everbody to just WOOP fly.Its just an unfair situation all around,for all of us.We all want to go to See AVa.Shoo,I would love to just go to florida to vacation.Just isn't happenng.Money is alwas a downfall in life...and unfortunatey in love.:(

4)I got the stairs done this week(well not ME perse lol) but bill did and i'm so happy over it.Its silly,being happy over rails.LOL

WELL i have things to do,on a rainy boring tuesday.:) TTYL

my JAGGER kitty!

 

This is just one of a hundred pictures of ME and ME and ME with jagger or Brianna,that me and brianna took one night playing around.Jagger has been with us for like 3 plus years now...I'd say close to FOUR.Where did the time go?It was in the summer,The anniversary is coming.Its just before cheerleading season,which is just about NOW>:) WE LOVE you JAGGER
Now off to find out what picture I'll use for Facebook or Myspace...etc.Might as well make that night of fun into a picture for me.LOL
Life is busy.Its just chaotic.

LAUREN loving EMU!

 

DANG I really really should start hunting her next pair lol..its summer and what does my child bring out to play?her Emu boots!
She also LOVES that awful Paci.Thankfully its MIA again.SHe'll lose it and than wham,whalla WOOPS,there it is!She gives it to me to "mommy pease Wash durty" so i wash it for her and again she'll have it.
She is slightly if not overly THIN in my opinion.She is also a fussy fussy eater.hopefully when MA comes home,she'll eat HER food cause apparently she does NOT want nothing but Ice Cream and Peanut Butter N Jelly.Pizza is acceptable.Just a few things.bananas..LOL.
GOSH how I love this child.I am worried about Billy.SO many things on my mind.Whats on his?:) Going on 18 yrs this February of being together,and 14 of marriage this September.That is such a LONG time!

I'm EAGER for us to go OUTOUTOUT!I miss the Mangolian Grill so to speak!)

lauren got her seat!

 

YAY YAY I Finally Hooked Up Laurens seat!I put the teether in,& the latches.She does NOT get out of this seat.She CAN but its not as easy as the Marathon.
I like the marathon better to be honest,just a tad more.its higher up,and she sleeps better on it.Her head never flops foward.Here it doesn't flow foward but it DID (if that makes sense).I seen it flop once,and I did not like it lol.
Babies heads (oops TODDLERS),should not flop aroudn during sleeping.Nope.
I think its SO pretty.She'll be harnessed on either seat(marathon and this one,its the true fit From the FIRST YEARS):)
She Loves it:)
Now mommy has a back up seat for the other car:)

THe board..

 

I decided to post this picture...yes,I put these pics in my photo blog,but I wanted to share the boardwalk with whoever doesn't have the other blog link.We have one on each side(two piers) well the water goes on and on..from seaside to Ortley and Point Pleasant so on so forth:) MILES of ocean..south it goes all the way down to WILDWOODS and CAPE MAY..
DO I love living here at the JErsey Shore.YES.Absolutely!Are there more beautiful places,I'm sure there are,but the fun I have here is unbeatable.I am minutes from everything.NY,PA,Atlantic City,and smack the ocean right here.It'll be hard to adjust to something different and life away from the ocean.It has its UPS N downs too...worrying about tsunamis is one of my downs.We have miles of Islands to protect us(we live by the bay beaches) but a major tsnumi will wash us out and undoubtly wash out every beach here that are on the islands.:(

These are all from when we went with Anthony,SAl and Jessica.We had a good time.My knee was SO swollen(yes,this past week they took 3 vials of water from my knee).I was angry when i was carrying stuff lol.no doubt it was the pain..
Walking on the sand can take a toll on a bad knee:) So thankgod yesterdays beach trip did not have that pitfall.Last week it was empty almost,due to the cloudy day.Yesterday was sunny N packed.:) lol

Brianna & Sal!

 

BRIANNA AND SAL..swimming or racing??no idea lol!

Daddys lil girl mooooon!

 

DADDY AND ASHLEY loving the MOON:) hehe...this is In our yard.We had such a good night.....up so late....kids runnng around,you name it,eating swimming all the good warm fuzzy stuff!

July 4th week..

 

My girls,and Anthonys new Girlfriend Jessica(same name as our niece,yes lol) she was awesome with Sal:) (Anthonys son,my great nephew).We had a nice night just chilling in the yard.the next day we ran off to the beach.I've been to the beach and all over lately.I have no time to breath..LOL!
i just had to toss in pics as well in this blog:)I just love this picture.It states the kids mood for the whole summer,just their faces.LOL

Pic,and Thoughts..

 

I Sooo Had to tossssy this picture inside:) Right now I'm just messing with pics.Got lauren ready for bed.Bathed and ready to go.Took all but a minute lol!

Now the things on my mind...

1)the twins.My sister in law called from the hospitol that teh babies are not MOVING(Which concerned me RIGHT away)..(ouch the kids are Loud,playing WII behind my head..ouch)..
Anyways,the doctor let her go home(which also concerned me),saying they just dont' have a lot of room.What??How does this make sense??Is it NORMAL for twins not to move as much???
Stephanie is getting booted around,complaining how much Ava is kicking!Just a big difference with their pregnancies.I suppose twins is something I am not not familiar with.Only enuff to wonder and worry.
Well,My sis in law said the doc said she wont' make it till August.She is not DUE till LATE august,so Now I need prayers that the babies are ok.

Off I go to the loud bunch of kids that are behind me...I really should keep my eyes on them lol..oh man what a fleeting thought.For a second I pictured Lauren a LITTLE baby,but now she is going to be 3,and she is a BULL!
LOL

My Darling Husband..

 

LOL ths is at 1am,we got home SO late last night due to traffic.Imagine traffic on 37,jUly 4th,It was unreal.I know now,for real,Now I really understand,the meaning of a Bennie.
For People who live down the shore.Which is undoubtly what we call when u are basically living in central to southern NJ....Where everybody flocks to go to the beach and boardwalks.Its called "down the shore".:) SO us who live here,we are called Pineys(aka the pineland regions)...its pretty beautiful if you ask me.:) The people up north are Bennies,I believe its for Bayonne,Elizabeth,Newark,New York,Something else or whatever..I forget lol..:)

Anyways,He put chemicals in the pool,and was walking back inside.It was a perfect ending to a perfect Night:) I didn't take pics of the boardwalk,but who would want to??LOL it was packed.We left,due to the feeling of being stuck in NYC during a rock concert or something.Walk a foot,try to find a spot to fit stroller through,keep hands on each other.My anxiety level goes Up high ...I worry about the people bringing guns,and what not.However,my worries are unfounded because its been safe as heck.:) COps are all over.
Personally I prefer Seaside to Jenks,the boardwalk has SO much more to offer,etc..and closer to home.I do like gong to Jenks too though:)
Speaking which,its Sunday ....I may put Ashley to babysitting and go out with Bill tonight.
I still have Ryan here..SOO I may cave in and drop him off.OR will his mom come??Maybe I'll put her to the test?
I know she is home.:X
Laterz...Love each other......
ME

DIGGGING my HEELS into LIFE

 

JULY 4th,2009...here I am:) I used picassa and warmyfied it (spelling is off but whatever):)
RIGHT now I'm taking a minute Break..I'm outside with the kids while they are swimming.Ryan,is here.I should take more pics but I am peeked out.
Im wondering where his mom is??its 7pm,and not a call.I do not mind having him here,but why can't she Call me???I have a feeling,she wants me to go take him HOME.I realize she is doing her dd room,but Whatever..this is just getting old.
I adore the girl..she's been my buddy for yrs n yrs..but the red car has a FLAT.He is 5,brianna is 7...she thought of having him come to play.THEY had FUN FUN FUN...don't parents want that??
Oh well,I supppose she knows he is doing well,
BOYdo I drift..well thats what I'm doing right now.AND Lauren just got SOAKED and WET of course,from pulling the cooler close to the pool and peek with her eyes at what the kids are doing.SO they splashed her.Off I go now to dres her,again for the 10th time..
SHe has a lot of clothing,SO many unused still,for a fun day,a rainy day..lol..might as well put them on her!

HOPE EVERYBODY HAD A GREATESTWEEKEND!

Laurens boo boo pic again.

 

POOR baby...and yes she loves her mommy!I think its an allright pic of me.I'm more photogenic than Billy Id say..but both of us look better IRL imo..I look at the pictures and think EEK,thats not what you look like,or me..lol...even the kids,have some pictures I disagree somewhat with.
I love pictures though.:) ALL sorts!
This picture shows the Color of Laurens eyes to the T..its Greenish isn't it..Odd.The one person who has greenish eyes is ONE person.
MY father.
SO Lauren DOES look VERY much Montero.Without a shadow of doubt!

July 3rd,Mommy N Lauren

 

Look at Laurens BOO BOO:( She got a FAT LIP (ugh) on Friday from falling.I thought she REALLY hurt herself!Apparently it just made a tiny hole inside her lip and poured blood.It was really terrifying looking!I want to type so much but right now Ryan is here to play with Brianna!
I wish there was a way to use a laptop in the sun???I would think its annoing lol...

Laters!!

July 3rd,2009..LHS

 

We were at the field,on July 3rd...great day,fun,friends,family,fireworks,food..what else could you ask for!!The kids were all riled up.lol..Lauren was a little scared of the fireworks,and the 2nd day she just fell asleep through them.I suppose she got used to it!

This is where we go every year,unless we skip hop off to camping,or Wildwoods..Our town has them the day BEFORE the 4th,which I LOVE..cause on the 4th we can go somewhere else:)

HAPPY INDEPENDANCE DAY...I do not forget what this Holiday is about!