Did ONE of my goals..scratch one!

I got competition for Ashley DONE...Now we go to the one in toms river.Ashleys team the lions did not place at all this time.Oh well:) She is busy now with try outs,and competition again this weekend.i'm exhausted allready from all these competitions!!!

NOW I got MY CAR FIXED:) the cracked Glass.If I didnt write it as a priority list,IT IS oN IT lol!I am SO glad its done!It was 190,they come to your house,remove the old glass in one piece,than put in the new on.I gave them a 10$ tip,LOL cause you just cannot beat that price:)

I cannot drive it today,at least 3 hours.I have so much to do,but its all later on:)
I'm off to nap!

Competition today & my Goals for the month!

I am going to start writing my goals,and sharing them with Billy as well,so we'll call them "OUR" goals.This months goals,is to
1)Paint the parlor.it makes me nauseas..lol..literally.The pictures splattered at any which way is enough to make me dizzy.I want to paint the wall where the fireplace is a darker brown color(however not DARK brown),and the other walls a lighter shade.Heck,i'm happy enough with just redoing the whole room.I have an idea of what colors to use.:) It'll also match the kitchen lol.

2)order our granite counter top.Order new knobs for our kitchen counter.

3)Order a fridge

4)buy a mattress.

yes,the last 2 just consists of buying.However my mattress I have here now is pillowtop and king size.it is not going to be an easy feat tossing it out the window.I wish somebody would come TAKE it away.It was NOT a cheap mattress,yet we cannot deal with the pain.The mattress I want needs to be a mattress that will not hurt pressure points.I would like a free trial of the temper pedic,see if I like it first.I want 30 days of sleeping and see if i can go 30 days without pain.its awful sleeping in pain.I had that night before last.Sure enough it RAINED yesterday.There is something happening,and I haven't gotten a diagnoses and it drives me crazy.
OH yes...
my goal for the NEXT 30 days as well,is
5)GET A DIAGNOSES

6)GET BRIANNA to the EYE doctor!

7)Call Early intervention for Lauren,just in case.

8)ENJOY HALLOWEEN:)

9)Keep the house clean,even when I feel like tossing it all,hanging my head and just let everybody suffer in the messes they make.However,I can't do it.I lift my head back up and start cleaning again.I am not OCD however,i am not in a good mood if my house is not how I want it to be.LOL..Clean.I cannot wait till this list is done:)

10)TRY NOT to buy stuff online.I am a sucker for cloth diapers,and yeah,I use them,however I DO use sposies too.SO its just an addiction.Time to cut my addiction out.There is no making your money back anymore(SIGH).I used to make back half my money always,so buying was not an issue.

11)try to avoid all the gymboree sites..ALL TOGETHER.Lauren has MORE than enough clothes.I have to realize that,when I sit and think of her wearing this and that..

12)TAKE Brianna shopping for clothes.I can NOT buy her clothes online becaues when she gets them at home,she doesn't like them:( It makes me So sad!
OH today is competition..AGAIN..for Ashley.This time its regionals.If they make this,than they go to State wide,than nationals which is Florida."IF" they get that far.They just may make it,soooo """add to list...save money for Florida""" lol
I plan on going in November(thats next months list) to Florida to visit Stephanie.Its just a weekend trip.:)

WELL I'll be having a BUSY 30 days.next month,a week before the end of the month,I'll do my next 30 day goals.The next few days I'll update on my goals.

Crazy kid

LOL!Ash Ash Ash!What are you doing???!

Back to the gym & another week running ragggged

I finally went back.I am sooooo glad I did.I wish I had more to say,but I've been incredibly busy that I dont' have much to post lately!Anyways,the gym was exactly what the doctor ordered.I get up,and Billy decided to wait it out till the weather warmed up some.I said Fine,i'm heading off to the gym.I drive out there (five minutes) and wonder why I waited so long to go back!!!Motivation is Key,so I discover,& will continue to discover!(dang i'm craving coffee right now lol)!
I did body vibe,which I always thought was for babies,well it was a pretty intense work out.Prior to that I did 50 crunches,and 1o minuetes(big whoopsie) on the epilipital(SP) machine.My goal is to lose 10lbs before christmas.I know I can handle that one.I always post goals I know I can handle.
I get home,and find out later on that my mother is stressed beyond comprehension.Poor woman.I do not understand why she is a victem of everybodies problems,they automatically become HERS.If me and billy can get a grip here on reality,I simply do not get how so many other people can NOT get it.Reality is this...do NOT buy what you cannot afford.Do NOT try to keep up with the jones's,and money does NOT make you happy or who you are!Try to find peace with God,and always follow your heart rather than greed,you will be a happier person in the end.Do not blame other people for what goes wrong,or what you do not like.I can not stand that my mother allows the above to be thrased at her repeatedly.Everybodies problems,become her own problems.She basically holds the world in her shoulders(which is HER world) and its unfair.Speakin of which,I should be calling her soon.
Today I have jijitsu again.Oh the JOY!LOL..I love seeing Brianna wrestle and do her thing.She is just so cute and good at it.She is one of 2 girls in her class.The class is 99% boys,was,until another girl joined,so its 98% boys.=) She loves it,and I am ambliviant to make SURE she thrives in what she likes to do.This goes with all my children.
Ashley more likely than NOT has cheer practice today as well.So after 3pm I'll be running all over until bedtime.

LAST pics..Just random.:)ALL ASHLEY again.LAST!

I am very proud of my Ashley.Of all my children.Ashley yet,shows independance,is friendly,is a natural around people.She is so preppy,happy,and always trying to be helpfull towards me when she can.I know she can go far,I pray that she doesn't get sucked into the world of drugs,violence and vanity.Right now she is in a world of FUN,SCHOOL,N a life I'd LOVE to do over!I would do it exactly the way she is.LOADS of friends,LOADS Of fun.Oh yes,she is popular.Of course..LOL.I'm SO sure Brianna will be too!She knows EVERYBODY.I walked her to school (ELEMENTARY LOL) and kids were yelling BRIANNA BRIANNA from the bus.WHY are my girls such social bugs?Stephanie wasn't as much so...and I think Lauren is more shy,and will be more of a book worm.TIME shall tell!Maybe she'll be a balerina/dancer like mommy!She does perfect 100% perfect front rolls and tries to do splits.She also does mini cartwheels lol!so funny for a 2 yr old.She LOVES to eat.Thats one thing,this kid can do is EAT!MOMMY loves chunky Monkey Ice cream.OOPS another thing to do today..RUN to SHOP RITE!LOL I wish they would deliver!

MORE Ashley Pictures!To share!

Ashley Rose N Friends.Cheer and Life!

Last but not least..not enough pics of my TWEEN baby girl!She should be out of school by NOW and waltzing in the door with babbles of her whole day!Its so cute.12 yr old girl,full of energy!She does NOT stop!OH I would LOVE to be 12 again!I know her friends birthday is coming up!Her competition is over,(first part),and i am NOT allowed to post the video of them competing till the end of the whole thing,or her team can be disqualified.I did not know that,but she asked me NOT to post it on you tube,so I will not.:) I still have to upload it anyway lol!
This is what I call..the life of Ashley Rose.She loves to play dress up(at 12 lol),read around the house,clean n rearrange her room and clothes.She donates clothes like candy,I go through it and keep what i want to keep for Brianna.I may have to run up to the attic and see what I can find that Brianna will be able to use.See..Brianna was born,when Ashley was SIX.SO mostly likely I saved size SIX from Ashley FOR Brianna.If it wasn't so stinking HOT i'd go UP to the attic!SUCH a pita!WHY the heat in October..(venting again of the same thing):D

One thurs October Afternoon

((SO CUTE ABOVE...for LAUREN & EVEN BRIANNA FOR PACKING UP STUFFFFFF))) I love it!
I am chilling out today..again.:) Its just staggering how HOT it is outside.Isn't it October??how Strange.I should've kept all summer clothes out.:) Lauren keeps streaking and taking her clothes off anyways.Thankgod for cute diapers.Lately she is showing loads of interest in the potty.She is talking more.I am calling Early Intervention as a precaution.Just like the eye doctor.I follow my instincts,if I am a paranoid mom.Thats fine.I can deal with that.She puts 2 words together at most.Not sentances nor does she sing like Ashley and Stephanie did.She is a little more ahead than Brianna was,so I should relax,but as we know moms never relax.LOL.She is so beautiful N so SWEET.She will cuddle and put her arm around me so tight.Same as those she loves and feels close to.She is not one to run to anybody and just jump on them.When she goes to you,its because she sense something about you that she likes.I am stumped how different each girl is.I figured,Ok,I have girls,this should be easy..another girl.WRONG.LOL each kid is so different that it would be like having a boy,because of personality differences.Nonetheless each is a joy.Laurens favorite things to do is...play with Littlest Petshops,Her dolls(feeding,changing and carrying around),barbies and furniture,she will lay out a blanket or a prefold and make that a cute little floor for her smaller toys.So cute.She likes barbie cars & loves to draw.I am stunned that she makes a circle,two eyes,nose and a funny smile.ShE IS TWO..she can draw?Thats a first!She may not speak sentances but her gross motor skills is amazing!I am sure IE will see that lol.MELTDOWNS,Oh,I try try try to be patient:).WHen I am,it works.I've just been SUPER busy this month with my grandfather(rest in peace).My mom went to the hospitol:( I was sooo worried about her.She is ok,but I feel she needs to relax.NO MORE RED MEAT.NO MORE JUNK FOOD.She needs to,as my grandmother needed to eat loads of chicken.Say bye bye chorizo mom.
I must say.This is a jump from what i've been saying but I miss Spain.:*( I'd love to go back.I'm hoping we can go back next summer.If not,I want to travel around the country.Maybe tonight,(I have to go to Jijitsu),afterwards I believe Ashley has cheer practice.They placed 3rd on competition,so I'm sure she has to go do more practices,plus there is more games going on.Our team didn't stop playing yet,they were undefeated till they played againts Asbury park,NJ.
Oh for halloween,I know Lauren is going to be a bumble bee!I have a few things I ordered allready for Lauren.She has a ride on toy,so thats not needed.I need some ideas for christmas gifts for Brianna & Lauren.I know what the big girls need.I need a new phone(SIGH).My phone fell into the toilet.I am using Ashleys OLD phone that was replaced via insurance & It has to be returned.When that happens,I am so freaking beat!
I miss you Stephanie..(YEAH,came home,and left..Next time just come visit without luggign all your furniture n your car on a trailer ok kiddo) haha!
Pics coming next....

oct 7th...to do list..and small update

MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD!!MY HUSBAND!!
What would I do without you??
I love you!!!

We went to the boardwalk,last time for the year.I miss it,maybe we can kick one more trip?ya think bill?LOL
I love how you read my blog from time to time.Anybody who wants to see billy you can at www.myspace.com/billbout
Anyways,I am EXHAUSTED today.I have to get a referral to take Lauren to the eye doctor.
I have to go to jijitsu.
Clean the house..
Stephanie is STILL not home since 10pm last night.:( It was her birthday (19)..said she was goign to atlantic city.Maybe i'm too old fashioned??But I think she should be home and working,or finishing her school.I am baffled as to what happened in florida...nobody told me nothing.This upsets me.One day she is in college,the next she is in a moving truck,with a trailer for her car.How strange.Something had to fall apart.IMO.
The college here is 20 min away so she would have to commute.So winter semester,she is gone.

Anyways,MY PHONE is broke,on top if it all.I have to get a new phone.At&T.I may try one of those go phones(since ihave a contract) and put my sim card in it.I hear it works.
I am so mad:( Ashleys NEW phone just came in lolol,how nice both my daughters just got new phones & I have none!
IT IS mY FAULT but still..
WELL..PICTURES to toss into this blog:)

I have Lauren right next to me.She just doesn't stop or let me read emails or nothing:)
She is waiting for BRI BRI..(sounds like BI BI or BABY) lol..so cute.I always call Brianna Bri Bri for 6 yrs now,and its catching over here.WERE BRI BRI..WERE BRI BRI(wheres brianna).STE..for STephanie.STE out?(steph is out?).
YES..steph is out lol
I love how she say ASH EEE ASSS EEE lolol
now she said baba,i get down..So she still remains next to me.Doesn't leave my side for nothing!Talk about Attached haha!
She loves to play,outside,my neighbor Denise has this cool yard thats set up with Bugs and frogs.They go there,and play and come home SO full of dirt.I love it,they just get to get down and PLAY:)
I am not excited about winter.I am goign to look into mommy & me things..or join MOPS again.
WELL laterz!

Sad Loss.:(

September ended very sadly.My grandfather passed away.I am not going to post much about him now,It was a very sad night.I cried so hard,and couldn't get to sleep.We were at the hospitol with him.He was talking to me,and I sooo did NOT expect it to happen a few hours later.I seen him around 9pm and he passed at 11:23..WOW:(
I was in my car drivign home when this happened.(Dang van had a flat tire)..so allas I left due to Ashley having to be at school early the next day.I come in here,and Wham...I knew he died.I just knew it..and a few minutes later I see Ashley crying with the phone in her hand.Than i knew for sure.I was stunned.I get upstairs,and than just well,was compounded with grief.Billy sure knows how to give tight hugs.THank you Billy,I'll never forget your gentleness that night.
You truley were there for me,at my worst hours in my life.

Well,we went up north,and I do not mourne well in front of people.It's just hard.I left,we spent the night at nana's house.Next day we came home after the funeral.After seeing my grandfather going next to my grandmothers,I just lost it.:( It was so sad,all those years,all those memories I have of them.They are close to my heart,and part of who I am today.I love you,Abuelito and Abuelita..FOREVER.
I know they are in peace...and together.Thank you Lord..

Our Lives....Together.