Brianna made the softballs squad,and more...

I've been very busy.I barely have time to blog anymore.I decided to just update on whats going on basically.The kids are back in school,and loving it.Ashley has a little bit of teenage drama but she'll get through it.Brianna just made softball try outs.I am very proud of her,she is 8 yrs old and one of the younger girls in the team.=) Way to go Brianna!!I am looking foward to watching her play.Lauren is now in dancing school.Stephanie n Avah are still in florida and I do miss them tremendously however,I am going out there for Avahs birthday and hopefully my cousins wedding too.

Now about ME,I have a bad gum/tooth ache combo.I had a hosptiol visit last year for a bad abcessed tooth.I did not get that tooth pulled.For the past few weeks since my nails came off(acrylics),I kept playing with the top of my lip where the infection was(near the gum).So bottom line there is a lil bump there (swollen) because of my messing with it and I am a little peeved at myself for touching it at all!Now it may turn into a hospitol visit AGAIN,and I am not liking it!!i am hoping it will just go "away",since i haven't touched it in a good day and a half:) LOL

I just got an update from Billy,that we have a big bad storm heading our way.Waves are supposed to be 18 to 24 feet,that scares me.If this is the case,I want to bolt and leave our area asap.The bottom line is GOD is in control,regardless of what happens.We have to shake our shoes and get back up again.I know its MUCH easier said than done,when people go through storms and tragedy.I cannot help but think of New Orleans!Omygosh that was awful awful!!

Praying for friends,Praying for everything to be OK with the storm as well.God bless..
nancy

oberon cover,pic next

YAY i got me an OBeron Cover for my Nook.Leather..sweet engraved Leather.With pewter..two favs of mine lol!
I got red roses,I love red and love roses.Couldnt resist.
Here is the link..

School Soon!

I realize I do not blog much,I am more of a reader than writer.I have my nook and it took my time,the little time I had that I used to spend on the computer.Add a set of Nails and forget it..who wants to type!=)
Anyways,I've been on this blog for a while now so it makes sense to just put something IN it.I hate letting things go.I let farmville go..(((wow)))once I was so addicted to that game!It seems silly & a total waste of valuable time to me now.I suppose this happens to the best of us time to time.
Wow.Where to start.I'll start with whats going on in the order that makes some sense.School is starting,very soon.Ashley is going to highschool and you'd think that freshmen highschool is a beauty pageant!Clothing,shoes...you name it."Ash..its about education"..She says she knows but she "needs" jeans that fit etc..Ok.So thats where it is with her right now.She's doing ok,happy for the most part.We did a checkup for school and we declined gardisil.The new dr,i nvr seen before,I should
ve demanded to wait for other dr but overall this dr ordered up a heart specialist N tells me that wolfe parkinsons white syndrome is never away.Never gone.I'm like what???So back to the heart dr she will be going to!
Brianna is doing well.She needs to lose 5lbs and all girls getting blood work.I should be there NOW,but i may split it up...they hate the needle!
Lauren is fine.She needs a hearing test but tats it!:)

I'm feeling a lil sad.Stephanie wise.Avah is ok,but I wish she was closer.Stephanie too.She has to know how much she is loved.I plan on sending her some loot on the 3rd!:)

I have some pics,a new digital camera that I have bought AFTER Laurens 4th birthday party.Since she turned 4..she has blossomed tremendously.I love it!!!
Today I plan on cleaning up and taking the kids to the pool.I took a HOT shower,still have an abcess tooth on right side...and left is a new one)
I worry about that..its just painfull wen it flares up!
Off my day goes....:)

4th..4oth...stressers hit the bazooka!

"I wonder seriously where on earth did the time go.Seems thats what I post quite often!
Lauren had a perfect 4th birthday.I thank friends and BIllys family for that!!And aunt julie,dana:*) The only family I had....=)

She got so much sooo many gifts..two toy story movies,a curious george movie,clothes,doll n carriage ec...So much!=)

Omy i'm stoked.:-) I got the NOOK(barnes N Nobles) e reader.Its made my day!!I'm debating on new digi.Mine both have issues!

Anyways.I love you Lauren Paige.You completed out family!I do not can not imagine life without YOU!You are my true sunshine!May God Bless you and hold u near...forever.xoxoxoxoxoxo"

(copied N pasted from another blog)!
Yeah..Im all over!
Right now sitting here wet after swimming!My neighbor came over.I have so so many errands to run.I'm FLAT broke..broker than I've ever been in ages.1789 mortgage..1500 for next door solar panels(he was supppposed to wait grrr)..Ihave to wait till 19 when bill gets paid and MOM is going to shit not realizing I am dreading bringing my own daugher home while she is not well:( Not while A 14 yr old,is here and sees just HOW much ATTENTION it brings!
700 ELEctric..and they want 300 more..shut off notice I paid 286 car insurance due again..I paid 300$cell phone(extra costs for long dstance but no biggy)...party..gifts...etcetcetc.
I'm flabbergasted!:(SAD..depressed and STRESSED cause I'm a godforsaken awful awful person!
:(

asey!
When we go as a family at nite is 1 thing never again!!!omtgosh!

Its late,waiting restlessly for 14 year old to get home!She went to boa3d n rides 9 to 12. Am w a mom I!!!I'm livid n tired...ok here they come!!!Her n C

woo hot summer day cooling off at home!

http://our-free-ebooks.blogspot.com/
I wanted to share this site with people who are spending their days at home like myself today.I also wanted to share that I have a brand new NOOK:) yeah
its all I talk about as of late LoL.The good anyway.We have the good,the bad,the ugly in our lives.Today I want to discuss the good.I feel blessed.I have a beautiful family and loving friends who I adore deeply.I do not know what i'd do without any of them!!
ANYHOW(sigh) back to the Nook.For 3 yrs now I wanted an E reader.I used to buy baby gear at amazon and look longingly at the Kindle but thought to self"SOMEDAY'...well the someday has arrived for me!I was going to grab the Kindle but I did not want to be stuck with the kindle library so I picked the Nook after lots of people recommended them that I know and the ratings and comparisons I read online.They both are excellent in my opinion,just a matter of preference.My Nook works with my library....epub,just things that I enjoy.I can get books via USB free downloads from websites like the one I posted.!!!Great Blog,go check it out.My next "longingly" things I want is the Ipad and OOh An Iron that just shoots steam that we use standing up.
Well,theres still a month away for my 40th!!!

Here is Lauren.SHe is in this toy called the Bonzai.I love it and could've bought THAT,butttt they have the pool lol.Its undecided here about it,but at the same time my lovely cousin Dana has it for her beutiful son and we used it on his fun,adventerous party!!!Lauren goes to school 4 days a week and enjoys it,she also enjoys paties.This was one of the funnest kid birthday party in feels like forever!!LOL She knows how to celebrate hehe!

Back to the Lord...

This is an interesting place to start,as well as Diannas BLog(a flowered purse) who is a good friend of mine.:)
I need GOD back in my life.Satan is nipping at our heels in a bad way.I read today on facebook,if Satan is following you,RUN,and don't even Look at him.
I miss Beth,I should seek her out on facebook??Good idea ...no doubt it came from the LORD himself!I miss church.I m catholic however I find christ's spirit more in a smaller family type church.My town is big so its hard to find that period.
I thank the LORD for the energy to clean the house.It JUST hit me.JUST now,I prayed for this a few days ago.He gave it to me,i did not deserve it at all!!THANK YOU LORD!!!!YOU are the ONLY one who never let me down,nor lied to me.
Everybody I know has lied to me wayyyy too much.Its one thing I DO NOT DO to peo9ple and I get it like a GLUTTON!WTH???


Today is another day.I feel like everybody is getting hand outs left and right....except for us.What we do just to LIVE is unsettling to my stomach....
Bill is lost...very very depressed.I know it.I should be with him cause he is leaving soon.I should go instead.....
Kudos n GOD BLESS!!

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I cannot wait till time goes by and I buy something I really really want!It'll take a year or two..maybe three but this time will pass and google ain't handing out nothing that I know of??
Maybe I should Google "incentives" LoL!

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Today,July 4th morning and I have puffy swollen painfull eye!I am proceeding as usual,my only choices are go to ER or wait it out till tomorrow.Brianna came w a purple ball n knocked daddys coffee along w other kitchen paraphanelia smack to the floor,grrrrrrr!!!Get over it dad lol.Ashley comes down to investigate n had her 3 cents to say all while I am battling some sort of eye issue that travels to my head and giving me a headache as a result.I did take advil,actually 2 of them.The weather is hotter than hell today n I feel avoiding the pool is a good idea for the eye...but not the rest of me.I'm supposed to meet lori n frank etc at beachwood later.fireworks by the bay!!!
I will update how it all turns out.....live laugh love<3

My van is dead at wawa still!! Sooooo frustrating,esp that it is fathers day!!
I pray they do not tow it!!!
First BBlackberry post!

Happy Fathers Day!!!

I love you Papi.You are sofar,makes me wonder why ad how on earth can you really be that far??
you love your country THAT much?I know men think country before Life??I do not understand why my father chooses to spend so much time away from us.???
He took my mothertoo.
I am here trying to post,get out things that linger in my mind for such a long time and I hear lauren say " I want cailou".OHMYGOSH.its ONDEMAND!I hear that Cailou song every single day all day long!!THAN I hear Briana "I can use your laptop yet" Its driving me bonkers especially since she broke the backspacebutton on the laptop to begin with!
Anyways,I have to keep using my long finger nail to tap the nothing tab,not even a white button anymore to fix errors.It drives me crazy!
Speaking of Fathers Day.I miss Mine.I miss my husbands dad.I also miss my husband because he choosed to sit up stairs while I am here on the laptop.

BIG problems besides those problems of the heart,and thoughts of the mind lol...My VAN a NISSAN QUEST is DEAD at WAWA(look at www.wawa.com) and a 2006 Nissan Quest.The quest Battery has been dying very easily.Light on too long or whatever required a jump.Now after 10jumps it won't charge.It took a charge with Ileana (my SIL)....but it died right after I got in and went to backup and turned the light on.Wham it died.WTH???????How devastated Iwas.
I knew today was not going to be theday the father of my chidren deserved.
He loves our kids.He loves stephanie.I'm heartbroken forwhat he and Stephanie went through.THats ao whole new story.
I see Icannot blog as much As Iwould with this keyboard and the constant fixig spelling hogw a bad backspacer!SO annoying!
Dad Oh Got a LAPTOP for fathers day 2 weeks early...I hope HEsEjoying his Laptop!!!
Well.Happpy Fathers Day to ALL the loving Dads arouhnd....i love my father
my husband miss my father in law(2 weeks ago died) ( and my abuelito:(
LOVE U ALL......

quick daddy did house pics

wow wow this is Brianna!!Time FLIES!We mustfix the truck.Iwas going through y picassa album and seen so many pics of what we took throughthe year ad deleting everythig from my laptop cause pictures do take memory space!:)
I love you Brianna!You went and got to be 8 so fast!!!!!
Imissthe truck!Right now my VAN is up at wawa broken.The batter wont take a charge.I wish MOM would offer a ride(truck) i will not ask.Never would I.I would offer to my kid..ALL of them(so long their sober naturally):) I am STUCK at home,oh man its fathers day and the redcar geo pris that is unregistered!AND bad sticker.OK,pull us over!We did ot know and officer told us to fix it(oh no ticket) ummm but if we drive it all around we WILL get a ticket not to mention it doesnt fit Laures carseat than Briahna and Ashley.

tired,dissapointed,endless

Kidsare doing good.I get some disrespect and I realize respect s a two way street however I AM treating everybody very nice!wth??
Ok,forget that...I am dissapointed and sad with Bill.He's been busy working,but come on its the weeekend...does he not KNOW I'd love to sit and sleeptoo??I wonder and worry if he is sick.He really needs to get to the dr's for a good thorough bloodworkup!!!Its frustrating!What is a girl to do?Scream??Grrr!!

Here is some good news.Next month we are getting Solar Panels installed on our home.I am ecstatic!I pray it is all we hoped for!

I am exhausted as well from the nonstop florida to spain to Nj drama,life problems etc.poor mom should enjoy her trip!!Life falls apart when she leaves lol literally!
Our home right ow is just like walking on eggshells.We need a pow wow,a famly meeting again.Kids need remindig what they have to do.I do not need to ask more than once what i want done!!!
Right now Ashley bathed Lauren:) Brianna is a pain in the rear today to tae a bath.if she does NOT she is NOT going out with us when we do!She went to the beach and has god knows what o her hair,
we went to the beach yesterday,after that we stopped home.I fed the kids,and lauren passed ot on the couch.Daddy came home and sadly stayed with A VERY tired lauren(the beach is a total KNOCK YOUONYOURASS activity) the sun was SO hot that my back,is RED.I did not use nothing on my back OOOPS!Shooo I shouldve had th kids do it.
Excuse spellings..My laptop backspace is literally BROKEN and I have these LONG beautiful nails which makes MiSTakes LOL.Its 60$ to replace keyboard.
I Needd MONEY!!Where is the MONEYTRAIN RUNNING AT??:)
Kudos..Iwill uploadbpictures when I retrieve my blackberry emails.I nvr downloded the app for photobucket for blackberry.Anybody do that????
Well,this is it for now....its saturday at 1pm and I do not know whats nxt.I'm still beat!

lifegoes on...

Im sitting back in the computer room which was once stephanies room.I should be in the kitchen talking to Bill but today I feel like getting sme thoughts out.Excuse the spelling between long nails and a broken,completely broken back space makes typing an effort whereas it is effortless for me.I type fast.
We are doing ok.We are adjusting (not) to the loss of my father n law.Billy is depressed and I'm tryng to get him to snap out of it.I have stress to the hilt here at home and than stress on the phone from florida to spain back to here.I feel clueless and lost on what exactly I am supposed to do??I said i'll take Avah however taking Avah has to be without constants how and what i must do.In seconds flat,i was told avah is 8 mos and must be inmy room??I had every single child in their rooms pretty fast!I can see an occasional come cuddle but they sleep better with a consistat schedule!Iam all for co sleeping.That is baby sleeping n bed wth us.Ok,I'm told this,that Avah s not to stay in Florida but com to NJ.Ok,fine...I call her other grandmother to verify and whatever but she has not said that to me or caled me back!Stephanie,needs to get her head together.She needs to go to rehab.Im scared thatthe hug n tears I gave her at the airport was my good bye forever.Something kept me from letting her go.I am scared out of my wits. i can't type no more,Billy is calling me.(SIGH).
I love ALL my kids.I am annoyed that Stephanie has to be so spoiled and she has NO clue how to get around this little world.Iknow its hard,noodooo its not easy!I struggle howevr,simple things like talking to a stranger,she is unable topick up the phone and talk about things..like wic,or dr's appoinments.I cant even hear half the time and just do my best winging it.The person on the other line could care less whats happening lloll no need to avoid calling the drs and such??O boy!!

Anyways...w are getting ROOF JEWEWLRY!!No not bragging till its DONE than I'll have braggging rghts when its UP on the roof.Solar Panels,I am psyched!!!

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wishi for winter two.

 

COLD??I miss it!

 
me..
I miss the cold.The warm weather is just not suitable.LOL
Brianna just got an A in her project,her MARE project!!!!
I know kids having a beach party,not sure when!!Its neverending......here is the list
1)fix all car issues.
2)call social services fix that
3) all social service issues
4) Pay bills
5)clean house,figure out clothes
6) Games,jijitsu,errands

n trust me it goes On and On and On....I wish we were up north.I wish we were anywhere but here.I think Bills depression is rubbing off on me.Seriously!!!

oh btw..bike is back

I noticed I posted that Ashleys bike was stolen,well allas she got it back.Strange isn't it.its a long story and she's lucky to get it back.Unreal.

I am having some issues with her.She is 14 and her "boyfrend" is 17.wat does one do in this case???