Ashley had a big party,she turned 12,so a party was set for her.She had lots of friends over,boys and girls alike.Everything went pretty much how I planned it to go.One big boom,was when my mom and aunt came by,I went to turn back on the music and left the sliding door open on the other side(game room) and it has a 2 foot gap to the cement and WHAM Lauren goes fallin right out.I felt like a shit.
She is ok,has a lil scratch but overall went fine:( other than me feeling horrible.
Billy has been unbearable lately.
he nitpicks at me about every dang thing N i don't know how much longer I can take of it.I love him so much,and I miss the billy that didn't nitpick so much.i am still nancy,the same ol me I always was.Due to all the stress I went through,all the drama,I am on med,(aprozolam) for my ocd and panic attacks,but NOW I got more stress.
I really feel like i'm sinking in a ship.I try and no matter what I do,its never enough or good enough.I'm so so sick of my whole life being like that.I do everything for my children that I am capable of as a woman and mother,and THEY are happy and healthy and thankfully I love them SO much and they love me so much.I don know what i'd do without them.Seriously.:(
Brianna,what a tut!She is SO cute,so funny,so much energy,tomboy combo girly platter of FUN.LOL She loves to PLAY PLAY and read and talk.She asks the most funny questions ever.Her and Daddy are SUPER close.She loves jijitsu and football,so they can relate in some things of interest haha!I just wish we could relate like we used to.
Last night i sat up BY myself and watched TWO movies.ONE was so so..(broken) and the other was GOOD whoa,kept me AT the eds of my seat.1048 or somethign like that.The guy was in a room in a hotel in NY called the DOLPHIN lol and it was amazing.ROFL It took my mind off all my drama in my life!
LATER.
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