DINNNER at HOME

 


My Happy GIrls....happy all the time it appears...LOL

Than ksgiving 2009:)

 


Our Family:) Happy Kids!!!Thanksgiving 2009!

THanksgiving 2009:)

 

Thanksgiving came and went.:) wonderful in each nd every way:) I was saddened by my Father in law,reflecting on my pictures 2 yrs ago he changed so much.i pray he heals and gets better soon.christmas is here soon,and we're running everywhere!
Today,I'm taking the time to try to CHILL but its not possible...again.I have so much I want to blog about,and say yet I need a good hour to think and do it.
Bottom line we are all ok.Stephanie is planning on heading to Jersey with Rob.Lots of things happening there....Ashley right now is at the mall(where the heck I SHOULD BE).:)
I know I am getting a beautiful comforter set allready for christmas...Ugg Boots,and I THINK billy got me jewelry..Maybe its just wishfull thinking...lol among itty stuff that add up.I love christmas,I am buying everything I think others would love and enjoy.
I look foward to this whole holiday.we have our tree up(pics in BILLS camera).I am just a random blogger,thats what I define my blog,random thoughts random pictures,and I do not post regularly,just randomly LoL.
GOD BLESS and MERRY CHRISTMAS!
I have to figue out how to set where pepole can reply to me,Help?? lol

Possibilities,and annoyed too~:(

One,There is a possibility if stephanie and Rob get things a certain way,they will be able to move up north here..in NJ:) I think it would be wonderful and I'm ecsastic at the thought of Avah Livign up here!!Its a much better environment for her!
Secondly,I am also ANNOYED as hell with what happened with my van!I mean seriously,what the hell??
I am not at fault,somebody cuts me off and now I have to cough up 500$ to pay for damages that were done to my van cause of the impact?You've got to be joking!Tomorrow,yeah,Tomorrow I'm calling the insurance company and disputing it with them!
The police report claimed it was "MY" fault cause "I hit from behind"..but if somebody CUTS you off??wat the hell then?Is there No blame there at all??I'm fuming!
Top it off,i saw a WOMAN driving.The report talks about a MAN.I asked Ashley too,who was driving a man or woman,she also said a woman.Very ODD imo.I wish I could really CLICK to that precise second.I know it was a woman.I just know it.Its annoying cause the report said MAN.WHY?ANd WHY did they make a right,when they clearly where supposed to just PULL over,these are things I am goign to brign up tomorrow!I hate being a pain..(SIGH)..but I hate more liars and whatever.I do not see them putting claims in,their car had hardly any damage.I'll flip if they do put in a claim.
NJ is awful,insurance wise.

I would love to move.It isn't goign to happen...not for a while I suppose if ever.
We sorta belong here.Where on earth would we go?lol..Things are set up nicely in some ways.WHy change it....

Anyways,I'm waiting for my hunny,my babee..I love you Billy forever and always.
You went to get us ICECREAM...I know the days are over..The icecream ones.LOL.I suppose one day ain't going to hurt us!

I have to gather up money.Time to snap pics of EVERY diaper,EVERY gymboree outfit,and sell it ALL.CHristmas money,Baptismal money,You name it money...galore!
I need LOTS of GOODLUCK...

worrying...

I am stumped as what to do regarding so much,stephanie and avah
Are in my thoughts and prayers!!!
I am bewildered!
I have issues with my van, needing to be fixed! Right now its at
The auto body shop getting the door fixed,next is the other side
Dent...HOPING it won't cost me $$$$$$ 500$$$$ deductable!I have a
Feeling it will :(
Well.we went to drs today and everything is ok,Billy needs more
Testing but we feel ok.I think and hope things will look up!!
Mom is in florida,I wish I was there.
Lauren was sick w an infection it took 3 days plus of fever before
She finally got an abx!! But now she is coughing!!! :(
I'm practicing using my javelin to post on blogger,wondering if
There's an app for that???To use documents and publish??
Well,I nvr have laptop time it seems lol

see if it works!!!video!

 

me and avah!

 
I had to throw in another picture of us two!
Thankgod I went to the dentist and fixed that ugly stain..omygosh!How on earth did I let it get to that!
Speaking of dentists..I have to hit the shower,kiss my laptop,avahs pics,goodbye!:( I hate leaving,and running all over!
TOP it off,Lauren spilled Some cereal on the floor.Yeah,She was sifting it like sand,with her sand toys(SIGH)..this is what I came home to today!(I was at wawa and with Brianna at the bus stop).
Life goes on....LOL..I'm not going to over react!I have ALL day to clean!I'll clean up the cereal,and ignore everything else and get the heck out..or i'll never get out of here!I spend my days cleaning for what?Nothing...cuase the minute the kids are out of school and running through this 3000 sq foot house,they actually make a mess in every square inch!
I definatey want to downsize!I am the cleaning lady!No wonder I let my tooth go..LOL..cause I have NO time!Now i'll MAKE time~by not sweating the small stuff no more!IT'll get done,when it'll get done!I never used to leave te house till the beds were made,and dishes done,OFF I go!!

Nanny N Avah1

 


:) Me and Avah:) boy she has little trumpet socks,covering her face!!I miss you sweetyums!XOXO

Avah coming home/Lauren with her.

 

This was taken in Florida!We were bringing Avah Home!Lauren(aunt Lauren lol) was so in awe of what was going on!!Right now,Billy went to the doctors,i'm looking out the window and whalla..my van is out there!What did he do??take the car?
We have to take Brianna to the dentist at 12:15!Than at 3pm I go to the dentist for MY OWN fill in!
I am beginning to believe that my abcessed tooth is healed.Is that normal?Or am I in denial?LOL cause it feels normal again!After all this time!I am flossing,brushing,and I feel if I take care of my teeth,it will NOT come back.I wanted it pulled,and now I am debating on why pull it at all?Its a dead tooth.It was root canaled,they can redo the root canal,but why bother?Time shall tell,but I'm thinking maybe the dentist was right,and i was wrong.Its worth trying to save the tooth always.:) Pulling should be the LAST resort!
I am thinking of Brianna,at teh dentist today.She is NOT going to be a happy camper!This is the girl who is NOT scared of fighting,running,throwing a football,you name it.However,needles is NOT her thing.Not Not Not!She IS going to be stubborn and headstrong about this whole thing.Brianna is a "know it all" ...lol.So she thinks.She is pretty smart,because she did say "why do they have to do anything to my "BABY" tooth,its going to fall out anyway".she has a small cavity on her baby tooth.So they want to put a fill in (after drilling it) a simple procedure however,for her,it might as well be a trip to the moon!I cannot wait till she heads off to Florida and meets her little niece Avah.I cannot believe my SMALL girls are Aunts.LOL thats just unique.Avah is a lucky little baby!She has 3 aunts and of course her mommy and everybody else!She has one uncle too!Rob has a brother!These are ALL young aunts and uncles!So at her wedding,they will all be dancing LOL..(I pray)..:) SHould be a fun day.I hopefully am around to dance with them all!
Anyways,life is like this.It goes,its beautiful,it has its ups and downs,stay strong,have faith in the Lord,and everything in the end turns out ok.
Even when we pass on...we go to Heaven:) So all in all,faith is huge!
Stephanie is right,I tend to talk about one t hing,than drift off to a completely opposite topic lol!
GOD BLESS!ALWAYS!

lol Lauren famous face!

 
Gotta Love it!She's doing great!Right now she is sleeping,today was a running around with mommy day.We went to the collision correctors,she was donned up in a cute camo childrens place jacket,blue jeans,and matching shirt...so casual if I may say so!Pony tail on top..bangs out of her face!Ya name it.she goes through hermomments,either she TALKS a LOT or she just goes all quiet and shy.LOL.:) Never thought i'd wind up with a shy one,but I was shy as a kid...i actually remember hiding behind moms jackets Lmao!

We had a busy day...after that we went to the police,than pharmacy than moms for lunch seen baby sarah and Aiden:) after that we hit the Insurance company to (jaw drop) find out Billy never got a CLAIM # lol.The lady that was working there,tells me WE need 500$ deposit,HUH?I said how is that?""If I go outside and hit YOUR car,and we BOTH have allstate,so to fix YOUR car that I hit while YOU sit here,YOU have to pay the 500$ deductable"...she was a little taken back at that.I felt bad,since she apparently wasn't competent lol.She was probably the grandmother of the owner..or something!OYE!
The lady who HIT my van did NOT do a claim.(wow does that NOT surprise me)...
well:) overall..it was not a bad day:) I have a very bad headache!
Billy has a bad toothache!
MAYBE on his way to an abcessed tooth,luckily he did get antibiotics(MY leftover),and his face DID swell up a BIT but it went RIGHT back down.MINE just kept going and oging till i went to the Hospitol.why on earth IS that?Immune system have anything to do with it?

I'm worried about SWINE flu...who isnt..the famous flu..:( I am so so worried!

a lil update...and pic

 
I'm playing with picassa so my other blog is going to be overloaded with pics soon:) as well as my websites.:)
Otherwise all is going ok.
Billy has a bad bad tooth ache,HOWEVER,after much MUCHdialing on the phone today I got a call back,from a dental clinic that WILL see him.

ahhh TGIF!

I'm SO relieved its FRIDAY and its NOT NOT SO not cold.I dislike the cold.Its not sunny though,but no need for air conditioner nor the heat.Love days that we don't need either or.
Well I have much to do today!!I woke up so groggy still.I fell asleep close to 2am,I lied down and than woke back up,so I decided to tackle some cleaning in the house.I mopped the kitchen,cleaned the toilets and tubs,and wiped down some walls that really need to be painted.Seriously....I hope Billy gets the time to do it and SOON.The holidays are coming and I seriously do not want to spend another holiday looking at that white wall in the parlor.That really drives me crazy,nor look at the curtain we have up there(verticle blinds) they are SOOOO 80's..MAUVE yuck!Time to get some beige or white curtains and paint the walls a light brown color with a darker accent by the fireplace.thats my plan.I also would love to eliminate the pictures.Completely!
SO that aside,I went to sleep late,and woke up cause Ashley had to be in school.Brianna woke up in tears her throat hurts.This child LOVES school so I did not pick that to be one of our batles.
Brianna N I do not,unfortunately,have the relationship I really would want to have with her.I will have to go the extra mile withher...she is totally a daddys girl.She is a tomboy which I do not relate to.I relate to girly girls,for I was one myself.She can throw a foot balll down the street just as good as 10 yr old Boy named Joe.She can run,she is smart as a whip.WHen Ashley went back out the other night,when her leg got hurt,Brianna is the one who pipes up and says "Mom,that is NOT good parenting".WHAT??Is that YOU Brianna??She really comes up with some good ones,clearly right out of the blue!
SHe hides her beauty completely,I have to literally force her to get her hair brushed,and sometimes she allows me to brush or straighten it (cause its LONg and it is so wavy she leaves it down and it becomes a mess.Its a way of order for her hair.LOL..I am not into using heat on her hair but we do it once in a while.
She does not like hair barrettes or hair bows.(SIGH)..Lauren will keep ALL Briannas bows.Hoping Lauren will like them!If not,they will be sold or given to Avah N Sarah.
Ebay probably would fetch a good dollar for SO many items I have!I should start ebaying!
Anyways,last night i applied for 3 jobs.I wonder if I will get them,or ONE of them.I need well I WANT a cash job.Something,doing something.I'm going stir crazy!=(
The holidays are getting near,and I want to go to Florida soon.I do not know where everybody thinks we have all this money to do everything!!!

Ok,next.I'm suffering from a tooth ache.AGAIN..n my other side.I realize now why they wanted to do a ROOT canal on that side.It hurts!SO this is my mouth as I type.
Right side,upper back teeth,Abcess was there,was on antibiotics,got off them for 2 days now,and it feels OK.I worry however that my face will swell up into cellulitis(I was in the hospitol for it) and I even had bad dream about it!Yikes!My lower right side,had a root canal(NEEDED Badly) and still doesn't have a crown.It does however have a temporary filling.(SIGH).Crown is on the way.
Upper Left Side hurts(towards the back)..thats where my next root canal is going to...I should hurty and fix my teeth before something happens and I do not get dental anymore!Yikes!
My concern is the abcess is going to come back,and get reinfected.There is no way the abcess is just GONE..like OPOOF disppeared!
WELL.I'm off,to WAWA and billy and Brianna.I have to get my car (van) off for it to be fixed.Some lady hit it.I need an estimate,and the whole shebang.
BUSYBUSY..even on a quiet Friday morning!

SLIDESHOW summer 09

My Beautful Grand daughter Avah Marie!

I miss her so much!She looked up at me with her LIGHT blue eyes..yes LIGHT blue,so young and her eyes are right away BLUE...wait and see,I bet she'll have white blonde hair lol.
Avah Marie...WE love YOU!
She's lucky,Not only everybody in Florida who adore her,she also has THREE AUNTS...LOL Lauren is only 3:) Grandmom,PopPops (billy),and My mom etc...cousins(my brothers twins) everybody!!
wishing they would move here:(

wowzers LONG time!I'm a grandmother!

I'm going to start with the obvious!There has been SO much going on in my life I haven't had the time to post anything!
The most exciting thing so far,is My grand daughter Avah Marie was born!She was born tues Oct 13th at 1020am!:) WOOT!She is so beautiful.I sat with stephanei through her WHOLE Labor and Delivery:) It was truley such a memorable experience!I am so gratefull I was there.Lauren came with me,and truley LOVES Florida.She was nervous in the plane,bundles her head in my arm LOL till we started flying Up and away..LOL she stared out the window!!LOL
I am thinking often about moving to Florida.However,I am unsure how muh I'd like the state.I really want to go there...and visit or rent a place out for a few months.I am so sad that Avah is so far,and I'm missing so muh22

deck/yard.:)

 


I get SO much peace..just waking up getting my coffee and blackberry or book and just relaxing out side!! now the weeather is getting chilly,and the time is going by even faster.I am depesed off and on.I have severe pain,:( In my KNEE..its HUGE,and fill of fluid.Yesterday went to the hospitol for X rays for my knee and chest(fluid there too)!!
I also got blood work.I'mjust waiting on results,andim praying they figure out something.I do not know whats worse,getting an ITS ALL FINE diagnoses,which means they did NOT find out:( OR a diagnoses thats bad.I'll get through it,I'm getting throught the pain.!!!
Pain is my joints,My fingers,My muscles,My lower n middle back(middle back when I lay on stomach and lift my rear end) my knee is non stop.I toes,my feet,everything.
I am suffering:( Sooooo I THANK GOD for the beauty of the world he has blessed us ALL with.Just look at your surroundings,and be at one with nature..I love nature.

Blackberry w opera mini post!lol

Well I discovered the blackberry phone and that I'm totally hooked on this nifty item!!who wouldve dreamed 20 yrs ago that I would be playing,reading novels on ereader.com on a mobile phone?? I recall my first cell phone :) It was huge!! It was a gift for christmas from my mom and I was warned don't talk too much on it!! MY how things changed!!!!!
Anyways I downloaded opera mini and it is a little faster than blackberrys browser plus it has so many things which makes it so fun!! I am not on the laptop as much lately,but in all honesty the laptop rocks! LoL but I can do everything on this phone that I do on my laptop!!Except typing maniac (facebook games) I want games!!

All electronics aside...the real world now :(
My knee is sooo bad its like I got two golf balls full of fluid!! GOSH its soooo incredibly painfull!!!The whole body hurts and I also have fluid in the lung dr suspects!I personally wonder what the heck causes all of this!! I also( I know this on my own) have fluid on my lower bacKK what the heck??
OMY I can't write no more little lauren is banging!!!!!!ok she's in the room with me!!!Little Lauren is like a fireball bursting with tremendous force and you'll never know what your gonna get with her lol!!
Overall she's doing good!! She currently has all her toys out of under the stairs closet that brianna wants to put a bed in there cause of harry potter movie lol but its not happening:)its way too small to fit a bed dresser and table lol!!KIDS!!!
Today was school pictures for ashley!! She let's me know late last night that she has nothing to wear --!!!TEENS!!GIRLS!!Drive you nuts!!!
Stephanie is doing well,happy in florida with rob expecting her first baby!! Due in a month!!I have to save $$$$$$ to get out there!! $$$ is always an issue!! Blows my mind how people think we have a few hundred bucks to just spend!!If they only knew how behind we get on things!!!
We had a wedding this weekend and it was one of the most beautiful elegant weddings I've ever been to!!We all enjoyed ourselves and how I would love the food there right now this morning!!!!!l
OH OUR ANNIVERSARY IS HERE we are going to celebrate 14 years yes 14 years of marriage!!Babe....another 14? I love him tremendously!!We have our issues but I know he isn't no liar!!He is loyal which means loads to me!!!LOVE YOU!!!!One day you will read everything,who knows!....But if you do I want thank you for our babies,the work you did in our home,your patience to live in a home full of girls lol and for being my best,closest friend ever!!You don't judge me, You are loyal,the most loyal person I have known in my life!You also don't threaten that you'll never speak to me again lol xoxoxoxo_

BUSY BUSY BUSY is the NAME!

I'm off to the GAME!Ashleys that is.I've been SO busy that I dont' have time to write a proper update!Bottom line is I'm happy,kids are happy and I'm waiting for bill to finish mowing caues Ashleys game is starting in 10 mins!
Stephanie is doing great,pregnant and happy...just moved to a new house.We got granite in our kitchen and things are all coming along nicely.
I am goign to be taking Brianna out shopping for a mother daughter shopping day,she needs clothes more than the rest of them.Lauren needs a new pair of boots,that sums it up for her:)
We are excited for a wedding!Its my cousin Erica,I need a dress,and shoes but I'll get there.:)
Summer went by SOSOSO Swiftly,i'm shocked,however I am sitting comfy wearing shorts:)
I better run,before I never get out of the house lol..updates later!

MY darling Husband..>DH

 
An Updated,2 days ago PIcture of Us..this was taken by Stephanie:) we do look like the happy couple...I cannot believe its going on 17 yrs of togetherness,wowzers.I am just stunned I spent so much time with him!I feel blessed,cause life is going by SO fast:(
Love you SO much Billy...If u read this,Know this..If not,at least I believe U know how much I love you.I thank you for each day of our lives together.
God has been VERY good to us,I only wish for us to be healthy and our family healthy for as long as we live.
XOXOXOXO

Pic of Stephane 8 mos pregnant

 

I'm going to be a GRANDMOTHER..this still shocks me,not surprising we know.:) This is my oldest baby,Stepahanie.I can recall the day I held her for the first time,& now i'll be holding her baby for the first time.
There is something in life to define these momments in our lives.
Stephanie came to visit,the first night here sh cried for Rob whom she left behind in Florida.
She cried and was miserable off and on till she got her ticket to go back.Everything was fine till a ride home once from cheer,a talk i had w her one on one,and than the day she had to leave..she was upset in front of the house.LOL.
Anyways,She is back home in Florida.She drove up,so apparently her vehicle is here.We'll get it up to Florida somehow.Somebody offered to take it up,but they declined??why decline??
Ok,whatever....Whatever makes everybody happy lol!
She looks good.:) We did have our happy fun momments!Love u Darlin..

Lauren in her SPlender.

 


The princess looks like a princess thanks to Picassa lol:)
I added Black & white center and whalla!
Worked GREAT!
I love this picture,its just MINE MINE MINE.I want one just for Lauren!lol

Birthday GIrl..we love u.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..Our baby girl Lauren.We love you SOOO much.You completed our family,and we are so happy to have you with us!
Thank you LORD for blessing us with another beautiful little girl.Its a pleasure,everyday,seeing your smile Lauren.
You are wonderful,kind,loving,sweet,playfull,interested,michievious,little girl.I am loving every momment with you.
Now this year you will see PRESCHOOL.((sniff))It'll be hard on mommy you know,and daddy too I'm sure.Your sisters pamper you and play with you SO much.You are really a lucky little girl!

JiJitsu Number 1...

 

I have a plan..for the blog.Everyday I go to the jijitsu,I am going to take a picture of Brianna IN ACTION...so itll be Jijitsu IN ACTION pics>:)
Brianna has a passion for jijitsu..she has 8 stripes in yellow belt,and she is moving swiftly.She is strong,much stronger than she appears.I was stunned to the T when She did an Arm Bar on me..OUCH.I could NOt believe her strength.
I seen how well they work with her,and the discipline that she requires outside of home.Motivational figures,etc..
You be with Great People,you too shall be Great!
Oh well,I will be driving soon I suppose to take this kid home.I'm annoyed in a way,he was bothering his mommmy so she obought him here,but I am tired and wasn't in the mood.My kid was bothering ME too but I just dont' cave in to her every beck N call.LOL If I did,I'd go postal!
I think its very important for kids to be involved in sports!!Ashley is in cheerleading,and clubs in school.Brianna is in jijitsu,softball(next year) and we'll see where else her gifts will lead her.I want her to do gymnastics.SHe is very flexable!

GYMBO BABY DAY 1

 

Lauren:) In the mermaid line.I love this shirt on her.it will fit her next year.This is in front of Jijitsu,of course.
I think everybody,who looks at my pictures may notice where this place is at lol.There is a manhattan bagel there,a consigment shop but for big people(they have coach bags,there btw..real ones,just used..lol)..etc.

Brianna will be back there tomorrow.I am going to post SEVEN days of Gymboree:) That is day 1...(just the subject lines)..not every subject line will have gymboree:)

I am in the gymboree mood tonite:) I may browse and look for sales,but Lauren just needs mommy to go to the attic cause Brianna has alot of size 3 that will fit Lauren allready!Tee Tee ileana and Uncle eli bought Lauren size FOUR clothing and MUCH to my shock,it fit(Kohls)...SO SHE DOES fit in everything from size 2 till 4:)
have a great day!

laurens b day 301

My little angel is 3:) I love her SOOOO much.She had such a FUN day.Pics are coming!
I remember the day she was born,I woke up thinking wow,this went very swifty,and she was just sleeeeeeping next to me.Just lke she did as a newborn with her little tiny head..she has grown immensly,and thriving each and everyday.Life is SO fun for her,she has a true zest for Life,fun,running,loving people,and being a friend.She'll hug,tell secrets(lol),show you her favorite toy,and most frequently,she'll bring mommy her flip flops to go "bye bye".This child loves to go OUT more than any child Ive ever ever had.Omygoodnes!

Linon Shutter Twin over Twin Bunk Bed in White - 90152WHT-A-KD-U

Linon Shutter Twin over Twin Bunk Bed in White - 90152WHT-A-KD-U

I am trying to save pages,There is a bunk bed for brianna n Lauren(they both separate to twin beds),this one is cheaper but billy dont like the material,is pine but has this mdf on it which he hates.
Sooo the other one is a savannah one(its saved),and its more money plus u add shipping.I'd rather just shop in town.We'll see,have it his way,they'll get teh savannah,the dresser,and pay for the shipping cause in his eyes its a better bed.:)
Ack

Poor Sis In law..Preggy w twinkies;(

She is sick,I feel bad.I cannot imagine being pregnant with twins.WHen I heard a woman say she had twins and she had one,and to her it was not much different,I almost fainted.I think its a HUGE different,Whoa...twins/vs One.I know a girl IRL (two),who had twins,and one had other kids.I recall her saying her pregnancy with twins was tough!Its gotta be TOUGH,i had one at a time and Yikes that was tough at the end..ESP with Lauren(has to be the age lol).
Right now i'm WIDE awake,i was looking at girly dos (link on side of this blog)..
((Yawn))) I am going to bed.Tomorrow is SATURDAY(I keep thinking today is Saturday,NOOOOO) lol I have a few more days till my BIRTHdAY:)
Oh some news..We're thinking of getting a HARLEY:) :) :) I love it and I'm SO SUPER excited.Its great on gas,and yeah,it'll be me on it only when Ashley is babysitting:)lol.
I wouldnt mid waitig it out a year.We'll see what happens.Id rather get a new car.
oh well,Men and their toys.;) im SO tired.
Praying,that the twins come out safely and on time.
praying that Stephanie doesn't go into preterm labor(today she had a pain on her back that took her breath away!!
I'm wIped..WILL write tomorrow and upload pictures.Oy vey i ordered the novels i wanted for SO long today at Amazon!!i like the

AVA..her SHOWER in SEPT,and etc

Ava is coming:) here is pictures of my lovely grand daughter:) i am anxious to meet her,and I am SURE she is anxious to meet me lol!!
Love is grand...(AHHH)....grand thats why GRAND MOTHER came from.WOW,what an epiphany I just had!
Here is my lovely baby girl!

party yesterda,and sweating today

I'm SOOO sweaty,I'm sitting here and sweat is pouring down my face.I do not get it,why is it soooo HOT?Its NOT that hot,but I am sweating profusely.I have sweat goign down my eye,right down going down my face,to my lip down to my chin.I'm not even wiping it of lol..Its nasty stuff.I sweat SO much I have No idea why.Anybody know why a person can sweat so bad?Is it good or bad to sweat to much?I never used to sweat like this?Is it a midlife thing?BUt its not hot flashes,its just Sweat.LOL.
I realize its 80 degrees outside but nobody is sweating lke me that I know of.OMYGOD.

Anyways,Did church,Alexis spent the night,the party was a big success I got to see friends I hvent' seen in ages and ages.
I am EXHAUSTED In a way...I woke up at 2:30am.OMY...thanks Kids~!!

i phone...vs matrix

I have two cell phones right now to play with..the Apple I phone and the Pantech Matrix.
CONS: Matrix: Just a phone.Its cute but doesn't do nothing but calls,text (what I decided to just PAY for).

PRO : IPHONE..it rocks and I wonder if I should just go and activate it for a month see how I like it??Before I upgrade or whatever.

CONS: Its 30$ a month.WHy should I spend that?? I want teh blackberry anyways vs the Iphone.
There are other touch screen phones I'd like to ck out OVER the iphone.Just cause I would need to installI tunes and All that stuff.

Would you get the iphone turned ON??Or just keep the Pantech Matrix.I love how the matrix textin thin skides right out to the sideIts pull open,like the Lg shine.

WE are Set for TWO upgrades,this and next month.Its up to me if I want to use it now or just wait it out.Descisions descisions.
i have to find a new phone store,as I am not crazy about the one I go to.The sales man I caught allready in a few bullshit lines..I'm sick sick of it!

a party today and a grump family!RANDOM PICS TOO!

I am absolutely STUMPED.My gosh!We have a party in toms river today at winding river park.Its an OK park,not my fav but it does what its supposed to do.
NOW Billy decides to cut the grass,the girsl complain thy dont' want to go.How about me?Maybe I can skip hop N go..LOL Its NOT that far.I made 2 big trays of pasta salad.Thanks to Tia Julie..LoL I didn't mean to "Copy" her dish,but it became a dish that NOBODY made.SO allas I made it,and I happily say it is much better than hers(hehe Auntie)..:)
I miss my family.Everybody is away.It makes me depressed.My girls are out of control,there is ABSOLUTEY NO family Unit,except for OUR OWN we are a TIGHT unit but when you have a sister out in Florida.Grandparents out in Europe.Other grandparents you speak to rarely,and so on so forth....There is a saying "it takes a Village to Raise a child..I could NOT agree more!
Billy is overwhelmed.He is a great daddy but some issues I disagree with him about.He has to realize they are KIDS..not grown ups in little bodies lol.Too funny.

WEll,I'm heading off to take a shower.Right now I hear billy going on with the kids,about Heaven Knows what.Ashley doesn't want to go to the party.
WHY such A SIMPLE thing becomes such drama.Ashleys bumming due to kids her AgE..Umm whatever.There will be teens there.I'm sure.I am not letting her stay home.No way,No how.Bill wants to cut the grass,since it rained all week..After that we're kicking off:)
Have a great SATURDAY people!

my moms house?

WHO is in my MOMS house?Its very odd,the lights go on and stay on.....for days on end.
I told billy to PLEASE to go in and see who the hell is in the house.Its odd.VERY odd
What made it WORSE is WHAM somebody calls my mom (HUH) in Spain(WHO would call mom in Spain lol..yeahh right,a neighbor has her digits)..neighbors she dont' communicate with.Never ever.
Anyways,and sees A LITTLEGIRL With blonde hair trying to break in.It is not Ashley.I know its Not Ashley like I know my name.I am with Ashley,she is peeved that she was even Bought up.Her words are "WHAT WILL I DO THERE,there is NOTHING THERE".No,Ashley is not your drinker,or smoker or drugger,so there is absolutely NOTHING to dothere.Not to mention,even if she WAS(which she is NOT)..her friends mom is never home!I dont' see MOTIVE here people....GRR
So Now billy drove by AGAIN..and seen the lights on AGAIN.So he is going in NOW to see who the hell is in the house.He is not too happy but he's going in becuase i'll be damned if something happens and my kid gets blamed.They always get blamed,well cuase steph always got blamed and now its pass the blame down to Ashley.Its sad.One wonders why Stephanie is in florida??Hmmmmmmm
It may make some folks happy,however,My mom will just as soon Follow her.So when that happens it won't make some folks happy.
I am happy whatever,I will go to Florida too.LOL..Im just biding my time.I do love Jersey.DON"T get me wrong,Love NJ.I am considering taking my kids to florida for the new school year.Its a thought...now who is going to pay my mortgage in NJ.I could rent the house out..now thats a thought!:) & rent a house in Florida!Whalla!
i'm definately blabbing.I am on photobucket,and just uploaded pictures.This is my 2nd photobucket album and I have 2000 pictures in this one album.That means I have close to 4000 pics,WOW.:) Not to mention whatever is in online albums like shutterfly and snapfish and whatnot.Drop box and picassa..and whattttttttever...
TIme for me to get my head outta my ass.
I need to get moving,get the house moving and eventually get my rear end back in school.Talk about Boring life.How can I say I have a boring life?well I am bored.
period.
BORED.

my stair..the rails on the stairs..LOL

 

HOnestly,I really wanted WOOD.But Bill came home with these..and wierd,they look SO cool.Now its time to paint the steps.
I need to think,what color,a dark color(the steps are oak),dark like close to black(I've seen it and it looks SO cool)...and than I will have all my pictures in a black frame...OR a pretty wooden color.I can paint the arm rails white,and it'll match the white thats on the face of the steps.I cannot wait till end result..OYE When will it happen??

Ashley is at the mall,and Should be home soon.She actually bought two pairs of jeans.lucky girl lOl

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Oh my gosh what a DAMN boring Day today is.It took the pie for the most boring day this summer.B O R I N G!
SHould I cook?Nope.Should I go for a walk...NOPE.There is nothing i even want to do,remotely because top off the rain I have pain from head to tow pretty much.Even heartburn.
I am honestly scared of what my body is going through.Am I going through some unknown illness?Are my kids going to be without their mommy?That just breaks my heart to a million pieces.
This morning,that pain I went through broke me.It made me cry like I haven't cried in a long time.I do not for the life of me,understand how a woman MY age,who is active as I am can go through this crap.I really need to do blood work.I owe money(SIGH),not tremendous ammount but at the point where I could just do without.I should pay it.I am not supposed to have a bill.The woman who works for the doctor wrote teh WRONG code more than ONCE and whalla I get a 200$ bill for BLOOD WORK.SO now when I want BLOOD work done at LAP CORP,I have to PAY the balance.I should just get it over with.Its unfair.Everything is unfair.

Well,I'm waiting for Ashley,who luckily runs off to the MALL today with her friend.Lucky girl!!
I am heading upstairs.Brianna is VERY impatient and wants me to go and help her hang up POSTER of her favorite MOJITOS The NICK JONAS MAN..(SIGH)..or shall I say BOY?Oye!
I am the mother here,and I really have to get these kids to realize that what I say is IT.No ifs and buts.

The sad note of the day,Billys Aunt Delores Died,and i wish we went up north.Its sooo RAINY so it didnt happen.Plus the kids,and the drama,but if it wasn't 2 hours away we sooo would've been there.I hate how we aren't at places we want to be at.I dont' recall his aunt Delores but I know HE does..I'm BORED,yeah,did I say that ALLREADY?

Dinner consisted of TEXAS TOAST..LOL..some chicken nuggets,Mac N Cheese,hotDogs,Sausages,Potatoe Salad,we call it a smorgasbord.Everything for everybody thrown about lol!!
I told billy i would like to have RED WINE with Dinner EVery night!
Its UNBELIEVABLY healthy.Wine N Water that is it...No sodas.
WELL,I'm heading UP to do the JONAS thingy!Brianna is being VERYVERYVERY upset,cause I am actually (GASP) sitting down.Imagine that.
If I wasn't in PAIN,I would be UP and running around.The rain doesn't stop me.How rude..These kids need a lesson in knowing how LUCKY they are!SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!
I am going to do this for Brianna and than tossing her in front of you tube and bringing up some videos toshow her just how it is!!
BTW,I just copied N Pasted this cute (background) I may change it.LOL I think its just adorable!HAHE
BILLY is just driving me NUTS!

CyberDefender 2.0 Free / AVG AV going $$$

CyberDefender 2.0 Free / AVG AV going $$$

OK,I have this for antivirus.I am debating onwhat to do.It is internet security.I had nortons 360 for 90 days.I had my laptop for 3 mos allready(reminds self to buy ONE more DVD that i'm short of to make back up discs lol even though i can run to best buy and buy a rebooting disc if it crashes.ALL my pictures are in web albums and developed,and cd's.:) Priase god.

I am wondering if this will work?I do not get it.I should just get another one.I am not into aVG at all.There is projonsky or other ones that I feel work great.
I may just hold on to this till I have money.It does cost but I did the trial pay from by getting a month of NetFlix movies.:) I love movies so why the heck not.
I can cancel it anytime regardless.I'll watch a few movies though.I can watch it on my laptop.

Ok,today was a BAD morning for me.My neck has been hurting for TWO yes TWO days.Its not better yet.My arm is tingly and numb.I have hearburn(get over that).My back hurts SO terribly.I am going to give up smoking..AGAIN,I went through too much allready to quit the first time for 52 days.I have No idea why i went back,well I have a clue.My friend Lori tell sme I can gain weight,
I had liuid taken out of my knee,and thats out of mowhere.lol;)

WELL,My daugher ashley is at the MALL.Its POURING out.SHe knows IAM NOT going out to get her,I can't barely keep my eyes opened.i obviously did not sleep enoough than took an anxiety pill,Today is definatley the perfect day for it.The rain is hurting me :(

Today what did I accomplish..sooo little anyways..tomorrow I have to drop money into my account so I can use the coupons and baby bucks for Briannas back to school clothes.SHe'll look darling)
I gave coupons along with baby bucks,maybe i'll drop it off on the WAY to pick up ashley lol.
Things I reallyw ant to do.
1)WORK
2)WORK
3)WORK
I cannot deal with ber!

makeup?advice..

 

I hate the way I do my makeup.honestly.There has got to be something..OH ignore the lipstick on my cheek.LOL yes..me and Brianna were playing dress up.YEP..& Iknow my roots need touch up..MAJORLY.I just don't know what to do with it:) SO it remains.
Anyhow,Brianna KISSED my cheek:) so precious...but whalla every picture remains with a red cheek.LOL

These pictures I was debating for which or what will go for facebook or myspace.I decided on a smiley one,these are just not "FB" style..Not my personality for "FRIENDS"...They were just self poses.(cough)..Boring,but fun for me to have.Its a first..Pictures of ME,rather than everybody else:)HEHE

A Lil Sexxxxy

 

Nahhhh:) Just Being a GOOOF today.One day,billy will look back..and think,what is she doing?lol

Me again

 

Just tossing ME.:) Latest self portraits...yeah..self indulgant little me.