Friday, January 30, 2009

TGIF..Again...



Today I have been playing with OLD photos.I am going to upload some cool pics from back inthe day,and some of stephanie "now" in the day lol.Its amazing,how much my children have grown.
I was aim'ing with stephanie..and Agreeing that lies are spread all over the place.Basically its me,I have lots of feelings that I have to sort through.I cannot bury my head in the sand no longer.People who dislike me,good bye.People who care..Hello!That simple.
Girls are at school.Ashley has detention due to being late,so she will be in school till FOUR!
We have like 50 days left of winter,till SPRING hits.Trust me,I cannot WAIT.I se the sun,and can almost BREATHE the beautiful air.WELL till I hit outside,I smell watery mixed with salt air,thats chilly.
This week..I reread the Twilight series again.I want to buy new books,but NO MONEY for me to buy any.:*( Makes me sad.
I dyed my hair,and it was too bright,so I REDID IT,and it looks greyish(DUE to the ASH in the dye)...SO YUCK i'm stuck for now.Looking like an UGLY human being.Hmm doesn't do much for my self esteem.
My foot is still hurting.My back is always acheing,and I don't take nothing for it...some motrin but eek.Doesn't work.Sometimes some patches.
I'm nauseas,I gave up the stupid Lexapro the doctor gave me,yeah,my primary.I read it,and its just bad stuff,all around.Plus itmakes you gain weight.I want to LOSE weight so I am goign to just give up eating as much as I could:)
This weekend will be superbowl sunday.We're invited to Hanks,but billy doesn't want to go.I wonder seriously,is he antisocial.???But he has a point about him.Not getting into it here,but we will not go there.I'll talk to laura and everybody,see whats up.
I could careless about the superbowl this year.Seems like there is a lot of things lately,my mind is numb.Its like its surrounded with a protective film around it.weird...well time for me to get up and put my mask on for everybody.HAPPY FACE....AT ALL TIMES:)
The above picture of Stephanie..Is her NOW:) Isn't she just Beautiful!!!I'm SO proud of my daughter!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

ANOTHER party(ryans) 5th b day:)



Here we are at TB huntingtons for Ryans Birthday party.Ryan is my friend Lauras son.Me and Laura were friends since we were 10 yrs old.So I am so gratefull for that freindship.We go through our motions,yet we remain friends.This sounds like family huh?:)
THe kids had fun.I am going to have Briannas party at the same place.I look foward to it!
OOOH I have SO MANY beautiful pictures,unedited and beautiful in my other camera.YET the camera died.:( SO i need batteries.LOL ack.I have bought the radio shack rechargables and Lauren ripped the whole thing apart.I am missing ONE double A battery.UGh 40 bucks down the drain.So annoying!:(
WELL..I'll update again!

SLIGHT DUSTING..





I took these pics,last week when we had A LITTLE BIT Of dusting.Today is so much nicer out!Tomorrow its going to hit back to the mid 40's.The snow is melting today and it was so much warmer out!YAY.I dislike the freezing cold.The weather from 30 & up I can deal with very well.Its my favorite,weather I can condone with just a sweatshirt and jeans.The summer heat waves is not my favorie either...yet I love summer!I love being able to sit in the sprinkles,go swimming,wear shorts,etc!Just the brutal winter,is NOT for me!:(

Thurs,what i want to accomplish..again...

I made a list a while back,what I want to accomplish!Here it is.
I want to paint.Still.I cannot paint,maybe I should learn how.
I want Billy to snap out of his bummy mood and cheer up.Hoping and Praying it happens.God answered my prayers,because Billy was drifting as a believer and he is starting to believe AGAIN.Praise the Lord!
I have to take the nursing entrance exam.I just want to take it,and pass it.Once I accomplish that,I would put down go back to school as a short term goal.I am aware that nursing is a hard job,however I do believe Its something I can do.I am also aware that the nursing field is something that will not lay off people.I am aware of the pro's and con's of a career in nursing.I know I have a big heart,and the stomach for nursing.Yes,I can.I can be a nurse.Its something I thought about for over 10 yrs.Its about time I do something about it.
I need to be a much more patient mother.I want to do MORE with the children.People around me,probably think what else could you possibly do??The thing is this,time goes by much too quickly.Each day,can never be replaced.I have been on the computer SO much less,because I've been spending that time with the children doing fun things with them.I go out in the snow,even if its just DUSTING,and show excitement!:)The kids love stuff like that.

What we're going to do..
I am going to sign Ashley & Brianna up for Softball this year.I see they need coaches.I do not feel like I am coach material,I have issues with putting things off for the last minute.However,I DO know the game,and I realize I can not be head coach,but for the children(probably Brianna,who needs me in so many ways),I would be in the coaching department.:) She will look up to me,as her mother and as somebody to be respected.She will also find what she requires,consistancy.She needs to knwo I am not going anywhere.The poor girl,is upset because ma and papi take off every single year for SIX months.Yes,we should go,however to spend 5K for 2-3 weeks in Spain,it takes some planning.We still do not have our passports.
ANOTHER in my list.
GET OUR PASSPORTS.Even if we do not go to spain,its good to have if we just want to run out of the country for a while lol.
YES I LOVE THE USA!I am not feeling safe here at the momment.I am not scared,just feel unsafe.I think every since 9/11 many of us,especially here in the ny,nj border think the same things every now and than.There may be another attack(the news says there will be).We are smack where they really want to attack us.SO much money in new jersey...AND New York!Heck,just look at the world trade center:(

Sunday, January 18, 2009

A FEW party pics!





(ASHLEYS PARTY at HOME)!!!
(yes I am behind...LOL a whole week,Have to upload pics)I need HER pictures..since SHE got a cool camera for christmas!She is waiting on the Ipod Touch.(SIGH)..it doesn't end does it?I"M waiting on circuit city!they are goign out of business,so billy & I are going to go out there and ck out laptops and televisions.I want a new hdtv,and he wants to ck out laptops.He loves U TUBE,and Is content just laying around watching it.Thats his "newspaper" LOL!
Last picture here is when Ashley got her APpleBees Happy Birthday song lol!She was so SHY HAH..Like right!!:X
Ok,off to get Brianna whom is ICE SKATING right now.YES,our pond is ICED UP.I should take pics.I did take pics of the children playing in the itty bitty of snow.LOL..lauren didn't like it TOO Much.She kept showing me her hands.."COLD MAMA COLD".Poor baby.I bought her in & made hot cocoa..OFF to do that,and hopefully tonight i can upload more pics!

Starting life in the 2009....stormy



Its been so crappy out lately.I am really tired of the darkness.I am noticing now,that its getting darker 1/2 hour later than it used to!How much joy that brings!
Anyways,I'm always so busy,that I find it hard to stick to one subject.Thats my life,its all over.Every single subject,between dinners,to trying to save money(which I try to have time for...but I find myself at the store forgetting this or that(SIGH)....Thankgod I have my reusable bags!At least I can try to "save" the environment somewhat!
WEll,As I far as I know,I shared Ashleys party!She had a 13th birthday(YES,i have a teenager,AGAIN,that makes me ohhh so sad...where does the time go?).Where does my energy come from?Thats what i want to know!First she had a party with friends at our house(after me running to stores etc THAT morning).Than all went well,and she had her movie party,which my friend Laura came with me(I SOO wish she'd start a blog,my friends here in NJ do not use blogs,NOR do they even read emails..LOL the nerve of them):X
I seen 7 lbs.:) Pretty good movie.
http://screenrant.com/will-smith-seven-pounds-movie-vic-4157/
You can see what its about from above.It was profound.One word I can say about it.
Too bad it wasn't close captioned at the theater(sigh)..I missed quite a bit.I should really hunt down hard of hearing people online.
Than the following day we went to applebees with my brother N sister in law.Ashley was 13 that day,(sunday):) We went at 7pm,and had a great time.I ate shrimp with the spinish.In my lame attempt to lose SOME weight.I am not overweight,but i'd like to come down a few pounds.It would be neat to be completely SKINNY again.In my honest opinion,I am at the top of "NORMAL" weight(big boobs,lol,just shapey)..but miss being smaller.I can get down to 130 lbs,and I would feel more comfy.
My plans on dieting,is for now,trying to give UP chunky monkey ice cream...
http://www.benjerry.com/our_products/flavorWorld.cfm?p=7684010035
YUMMMY..but soo oh sooo bad!lol..its an everyday or every other day fad in this house!Rings up quite a bit of money too!ALong with our must have coffees,etc!EEK!
Quick update on my other kids.Steph is in florida,Happy with Rob.Ashley just came back from another party(we had TWO yesterday..one was for Lauras son Ryan(I took pics lol)..and than at night it was AShleys friends lindsays party,but a slumber party.Ashley took a pic of her "Dress up" at her friends sleepover..its NOT how she dresses to go out lol.I was shocked when I seen it,eek!She LOOKS SO much older:**(
I went to webshots,and I will put it in here,the pics are from SOOO long ago.2005!!Well,it seems like yesterday!It has pics at where I would like to be,again,physically:)
My c section with Lauren killed me..and GOOD news,my scar is GONE.You can NOt see it with the naked eye haha!So cool..if i lost the weight,you'd never guess I had four kids...separately:)OR a c section!
PICS!
RANDOM of course...& they start up TOP..never at the bottom LOL

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

pictures222 002

LOL Part of many videos we made this holiday!
Brianna is all the way in the right w the christmas hat on with the green pants,and red shirt:)
SO cute!We had such a good time watching!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

whoa..PICTURE POST!






pics of the parents:)



ME with My parents..and ME in my van...:) ALL during NEW YEARS EVE!WOOT..that night was FUN!

(((ME))))!!!IN MY VAN!LOLOL!
Thanks...YEA..MY DAD bought it..We were supposed to make payments on it,than It was squashed,because my sister in law got a car,and they said,since nancy couldn't pay that payment(it was summer,I had the money,they RAN to spain,than I had to use part of it to pay my electric bill..yes,we were struggling bad as hell)...(SHAME ON US).
SO my sister in law got a car,which I am happy for her,and I should be even HAPPIER becaues lo and behold,I didn't have to pay anymore.YET..I am sure the papers I signed saying I "OWE" the money isn't ripped up,YET THEY Didn't have to write anything do ya think??Nope!There is lots of favortism.LOTS N LOTS N LOTS.Its hurtfull,yet I put on my happy face,and let nothing bother me.I know lots N lots of people live a replica of what I do.I'm sure they do.

Just had Breakfast,and chat..cleaned

My life is ALL about cleaning,laundry,dishes,mopping,you name it I do it.I drive all over the town,I probably hit almost every nook & cranny of the house and town by now!
The kids have jijitsu,cheerleading,friends,playdates,etc.I am waiting on 3 books(more or less) from Amazon.In the meantime I have a book(forget the title,pandoras daughter,by I donno whom) lol...till my new book arrives!
I am going upstairs to make my bed,with my new egytian sheets(YUM) very pretty too,soft stripes,of light blue and white.I love them...esp on my cool mattress.I never thought lala land of sleeping would be so comf.I LOVE our bed!!!
I am thinking,of meeting my mom and some family members(my brothers God parents),but the problem is this,they Did NOT invite Billy.It was said first,why don't I come and just bring ASHLEY.Than it was said,After I said,i cannot jusst leve Briana & Lauren out too"ummm ok.So than Billy was not even Bought up.I do not want to go then.Screw that!
:(
Stuff like that...umm hurts.Just like for christmas,no we do not expect anything,but when "I" see that my mom buys EVERYTHING for stephs boyfriend of the month,here or there....and nothing for billy whose been my rock my whole life.It hurts ME.Maybe not so much Billy,even though HE notices it.He noticed from day number 1,when my mom told him he is not her son in law...my ex is.It may have been SO long ago,but he is hurt by it.It doesn't just go away,you can put a band aid on it..but once in a while it'll ooze out.
He was raised,where you can put the chips and dip,and redip,my father YELLED last christmas,made a big fuss about NO double dip.HUH?If it was anybody else,he would've said nothing.Again,I may be overreacting,billy may have done wrong,but there IN MY opinion,is a way to say something without making the person feel like crap:(
I tr to remember I'm loved...Lucky that I'm loved...but surely I miss my grandmother.
She is the one person that REALLY KNEW me..which I'll never forget!

I KEEP thinking,we SHOULD move,we really CANNOT afford to live here...yet we're here.
Its wierd.
Oh well,my vent of the day I suppose.I love my husband,everything he tries to do for us..puts his life on the line literally,and in return its like REJECTION over and over again.
That means REJECTION to me too..its wierd,but I feel rejected when he gets rejected.Does this make sense.SO NO I am NOT going to the lunch.I am sad,I get to miss out on fun...fun fun...
I WILL however,go to babies r Us with ileanna:) she may have her issues,but I KNOW what to expect out of her.I know her well.I DO like her(love her lots)...and she a fun person to know.
OYE..Laterz...praying for her sister(who has cancer)...what a new year.ALLREADY Nonsense on my plate.(SIGH)...

Pics.Camera debates...etc.




MORE christmas pictures!
I got the FUJI VD1000sd (whatever)..I'm debating,keepers or losers lol..Its great so far.I have to practice though.10mp,it was on sale.
Ashleys digi ROCKS,I am STUNNED by the pics.Its the blue fuji(looks like torquoise lol) and takes soms slamming picss with NO work to it lol just point & shoot lol!
I will be using that one too.and my old kodak zd10*7.1mp).I love using different cameras.I really want to try an SLR camera..wit time..im
I missed my grandfather SO much this year,and my oldest deaughter Stephanie.She got the NIKON COOL PIX from us,and she was so happy.I'm glad,now she can send us pictures!
I am debating,seriously about what carseat to buy for Daddys car for Lauren.
A)A cheap carseat,like the costco scercena(SP)..
B)an Evenflo titan or the V one,thats only 60$

C)a sunshine kids radian?
D)a regent?
I am so mad that I SOLD SOLD the other britax I had.UGH,never thought of the day dh would leave me with the red car,and NO carseat,ONLY briannas backed booster,she has two of them now@@
ADVICE???LOL
OH next week is Ashleys birthday.I have to get that one figured out.Talk about STRESSERS..and Busy.
I am going to be at the gym at night with my friends,sitting and swimming in the pool,doing 45 min work outs,than sitting in the suana..:) FUN huh:) LOL
than a shower,and come home!Feeling refreshed:)
I aim to lose 10lbs fast,and NO MORE chunky monkey ice cream!

A few pictures..(Below Is New years Eve of Lauren)




Here are some CHRISTMAS PICTURES!PRAISE THE LORD!MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!WE LOVE YOU!
I am SO blessed and gratefull for everybody in my life.My friends,My family,and especially my children!
I am blessed to be able to buy things & make people happy.I realize I love to give.I'm just awful with getting to the post office..me and post office do not get along.LOL.
Here are some pics!

Yay..Holidays past....Happy New Years too!


OUr holidays were everything we could wanted it to be.We were all together.We had christmas eve at Billys sister,& christmas day at my brothers house.
Christmas morning at home and my mothers:)
I had a great time at the grab bag at my sister in laws.We played a game,whoever goes first,gets to lose the bag,lol,so on so forth,till the last person.SO fun!Highlight of my night!PLus seeing the kids open presents of course.I always love that.Food was great,esp the buffet,and desserts.
I have lots N lots of pictures.Many are in my picassa.(same name)..Nancybout picassas...
New Years was such a joy.The girls had SO much fun with so many kids here with them.:)I just cannot believe we're in 2009 allready!
My parents showed up to our little party(get together).We were going to have a BIG BASH,but we didn't send invitations,nor call back people...so those who didn't call us to confirm the party,were not there:)
It was perfect the way it was.I had a great time.We made sangria,and one of the best I had.
One favorite part of my holiday,is one night shopping with bill.We had such an awesome night,I dont think I'll ever have so much fun again LOL..tossing gifts into the cart,etc.:)
Girls got lots of clothes,toys,etc.:) I'm happy with what they got!
I got a cool blackjack 11 phone,(prior to christmas).On christmas,money,a new phone,a kindle(its coming...still not here)...N clothes etc..OH perfume.:) LOL and avon stuff.Didn't expect it...and a big bag.LOL perfect for laurens stuff!
OOPS I hear lauren,she is back,and needing to go potty!!
AND She is crying,MUST be bad!