Friends or Foe..

I wake up this morning,and had lots on my mind.I have a lot going on in my life.Between the days Billy is home due to lack of work,I have him to play with.lol..he is just sometimes a fun person other times a bummed person.Its give and take.Lauren is into EVERYTHING.If there is something for her to do..she does it.The child NEEDS to go to preschool or something.She is very high maintenance!The highest maintenance ever.Makes me think,is it ME,my age,or is it indeed her.I conclude its her.I think back,and the other girls were NOT as curious about every little thing as she is,and they kinda 'knew' what they weren't allowed to do.SHE does it.Just scarey sometimes!
Now we have a problem.Our neighbor is upsetting Billy a lot.There is a dog.Ok,we lOVE dogs..but the dog poops On OUR yard.What do you do?seriously.Billy cut the grass,we planted flowers,we are not in the mood for DOG POOP.We do NOT have a dog for THAT reason(one of many).SO WHY should WE pick up dog doo.Nope,not happening.On the flip side,if we leave it ummm our yard is not fun.Its a big problem.Luckily the dog doesn't go there 24-7......but Billy decided to put a "STICK" to show where the poop is,and they come to clean it.To say the least,I'm thinking thats just another check mark to sell the house..
The kids are all doing great.Brianna loves sports.Ashley loves life lol,in general.She is a healthy happy 13 yr old.I'm praying and thinking daily of making good decisions.
Something awful awful happened to one of her friends,and the town has upset me to a degree.I'm on her side.Ashley had to go to a detective as a chracter witness.I go online,and just because I mentioned a few things of concern I became under attack.I felt that way,it may not have been such extreme but nonetheless,its how I felt.The topic I am not comfy bringing it up,since this is a blog.The feelings I have,I do get them out.Its just like what??I am not a perfect person,however I can discern clearly who likes or dislikes me.I suppose I'm suppose to be perfect,and never think or spill out unperfect thoughts....WOOPS.It hurt me a bit,Just makes me think why do I bother speaking with people who are not my friend.Just like IRL I have friends.I do not even have FOES lol in real life,just people I do not know or whatever.
I'm into a CLEAR concious.Thats big with me nowadays.Billys opened my eyes with that.
I love Jesus.I love clear concious.I do believe in Karma.I am me.I do not enjoy people hurting.I dislike lies,liars,flakes,whatever.I hate when due to me being sensitive at times(i'm not overly sensitive,thankgod lol),I get sick to my stomach.I suppose suffering from Anxiety is part of it.When u suffer from anxiety,and panic attacks,you see things from the worse scenario and worry needlessly about it.It'll just POP out in front of you,when it wasn't on your mind a day ago..or a week ago.
I hate having anxiety attacks.my mind races,and I cannot concentrate.It is no fun.Trust me.
I'm going to start adding "tags" to my posts.I never do.LOL
Last thing,I just signed up with Photoshop.Just to test drive it.The free" version for now.
WELL dinner is BURGER on the GRILL:) Billy is Making it now!!