My van is dead at wawa still!! Sooooo frustrating,esp that it is fathers day!!
I pray they do not tow it!!!
First BBlackberry post!

Happy Fathers Day!!!

I love you Papi.You are sofar,makes me wonder why ad how on earth can you really be that far??
you love your country THAT much?I know men think country before Life??I do not understand why my father chooses to spend so much time away from us.???
He took my mothertoo.
I am here trying to post,get out things that linger in my mind for such a long time and I hear lauren say " I want cailou".OHMYGOSH.its ONDEMAND!I hear that Cailou song every single day all day long!!THAN I hear Briana "I can use your laptop yet" Its driving me bonkers especially since she broke the backspacebutton on the laptop to begin with!
Anyways,I have to keep using my long finger nail to tap the nothing tab,not even a white button anymore to fix errors.It drives me crazy!
Speaking of Fathers Day.I miss Mine.I miss my husbands dad.I also miss my husband because he choosed to sit up stairs while I am here on the laptop.

BIG problems besides those problems of the heart,and thoughts of the mind lol...My VAN a NISSAN QUEST is DEAD at WAWA(look at www.wawa.com) and a 2006 Nissan Quest.The quest Battery has been dying very easily.Light on too long or whatever required a jump.Now after 10jumps it won't charge.It took a charge with Ileana (my SIL)....but it died right after I got in and went to backup and turned the light on.Wham it died.WTH???????How devastated Iwas.
I knew today was not going to be theday the father of my chidren deserved.
He loves our kids.He loves stephanie.I'm heartbroken forwhat he and Stephanie went through.THats ao whole new story.
I see Icannot blog as much As Iwould with this keyboard and the constant fixig spelling hogw a bad backspacer!SO annoying!
Dad Oh Got a LAPTOP for fathers day 2 weeks early...I hope HEsEjoying his Laptop!!!
Well.Happpy Fathers Day to ALL the loving Dads arouhnd....i love my father
my husband miss my father in law(2 weeks ago died) ( and my abuelito:(
LOVE U ALL......

quick daddy did house pics

wow wow this is Brianna!!Time FLIES!We mustfix the truck.Iwas going through y picassa album and seen so many pics of what we took throughthe year ad deleting everythig from my laptop cause pictures do take memory space!:)
I love you Brianna!You went and got to be 8 so fast!!!!!
Imissthe truck!Right now my VAN is up at wawa broken.The batter wont take a charge.I wish MOM would offer a ride(truck) i will not ask.Never would I.I would offer to my kid..ALL of them(so long their sober naturally):) I am STUCK at home,oh man its fathers day and the redcar geo pris that is unregistered!AND bad sticker.OK,pull us over!We did ot know and officer told us to fix it(oh no ticket) ummm but if we drive it all around we WILL get a ticket not to mention it doesnt fit Laures carseat than Briahna and Ashley.

tired,dissapointed,endless

Kidsare doing good.I get some disrespect and I realize respect s a two way street however I AM treating everybody very nice!wth??
Ok,forget that...I am dissapointed and sad with Bill.He's been busy working,but come on its the weeekend...does he not KNOW I'd love to sit and sleeptoo??I wonder and worry if he is sick.He really needs to get to the dr's for a good thorough bloodworkup!!!Its frustrating!What is a girl to do?Scream??Grrr!!

Here is some good news.Next month we are getting Solar Panels installed on our home.I am ecstatic!I pray it is all we hoped for!

I am exhausted as well from the nonstop florida to spain to Nj drama,life problems etc.poor mom should enjoy her trip!!Life falls apart when she leaves lol literally!
Our home right ow is just like walking on eggshells.We need a pow wow,a famly meeting again.Kids need remindig what they have to do.I do not need to ask more than once what i want done!!!
Right now Ashley bathed Lauren:) Brianna is a pain in the rear today to tae a bath.if she does NOT she is NOT going out with us when we do!She went to the beach and has god knows what o her hair,
we went to the beach yesterday,after that we stopped home.I fed the kids,and lauren passed ot on the couch.Daddy came home and sadly stayed with A VERY tired lauren(the beach is a total KNOCK YOUONYOURASS activity) the sun was SO hot that my back,is RED.I did not use nothing on my back OOOPS!Shooo I shouldve had th kids do it.
Excuse spellings..My laptop backspace is literally BROKEN and I have these LONG beautiful nails which makes MiSTakes LOL.Its 60$ to replace keyboard.
I Needd MONEY!!Where is the MONEYTRAIN RUNNING AT??:)
Kudos..Iwill uploadbpictures when I retrieve my blackberry emails.I nvr downloded the app for photobucket for blackberry.Anybody do that????
Well,this is it for now....its saturday at 1pm and I do not know whats nxt.I'm still beat!

lifegoes on...

Im sitting back in the computer room which was once stephanies room.I should be in the kitchen talking to Bill but today I feel like getting sme thoughts out.Excuse the spelling between long nails and a broken,completely broken back space makes typing an effort whereas it is effortless for me.I type fast.
We are doing ok.We are adjusting (not) to the loss of my father n law.Billy is depressed and I'm tryng to get him to snap out of it.I have stress to the hilt here at home and than stress on the phone from florida to spain back to here.I feel clueless and lost on what exactly I am supposed to do??I said i'll take Avah however taking Avah has to be without constants how and what i must do.In seconds flat,i was told avah is 8 mos and must be inmy room??I had every single child in their rooms pretty fast!I can see an occasional come cuddle but they sleep better with a consistat schedule!Iam all for co sleeping.That is baby sleeping n bed wth us.Ok,I'm told this,that Avah s not to stay in Florida but com to NJ.Ok,fine...I call her other grandmother to verify and whatever but she has not said that to me or caled me back!Stephanie,needs to get her head together.She needs to go to rehab.Im scared thatthe hug n tears I gave her at the airport was my good bye forever.Something kept me from letting her go.I am scared out of my wits. i can't type no more,Billy is calling me.(SIGH).
I love ALL my kids.I am annoyed that Stephanie has to be so spoiled and she has NO clue how to get around this little world.Iknow its hard,noodooo its not easy!I struggle howevr,simple things like talking to a stranger,she is unable topick up the phone and talk about things..like wic,or dr's appoinments.I cant even hear half the time and just do my best winging it.The person on the other line could care less whats happening lloll no need to avoid calling the drs and such??O boy!!

Anyways...w are getting ROOF JEWEWLRY!!No not bragging till its DONE than I'll have braggging rghts when its UP on the roof.Solar Panels,I am psyched!!!

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wishi for winter two.

 

COLD??I miss it!

 
me..
I miss the cold.The warm weather is just not suitable.LOL
Brianna just got an A in her project,her MARE project!!!!
I know kids having a beach party,not sure when!!Its neverending......here is the list
1)fix all car issues.
2)call social services fix that
3) all social service issues
4) Pay bills
5)clean house,figure out clothes
6) Games,jijitsu,errands

n trust me it goes On and On and On....I wish we were up north.I wish we were anywhere but here.I think Bills depression is rubbing off on me.Seriously!!!

oh btw..bike is back

I noticed I posted that Ashleys bike was stolen,well allas she got it back.Strange isn't it.its a long story and she's lucky to get it back.Unreal.

I am having some issues with her.She is 14 and her "boyfrend" is 17.wat does one do in this case???

dearly departed father in law....rip n willmiss u always!

I lost my father in law this week.My gosh,he was loved by all...6 children,and many grandchildren.I was so sad and n shock at the same time.we were sitting in seaside heights NJ,Bill taking the girls on the go carts.Iwas sitting and texting with the girls.All during which a phone call came and joanne tells me that dad is going for surgery.When I heard that i was like what!#$!My stomach just dropped.I knew it,unfortunately he never made it for surgery.Bottom line the week SUCKED.The bright part of it was Joannes hospitality and the love of my husbands family who got us through this rough time.

Bill is depresssed now.Its understandable.He lost his dad,and than comes home to chaos.
I want to write more but off to make grilled cheese.Our fridge needs shopping,and its a long story but somehow someway we gotta get food in that fridge.
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