I went to my dr's yesterday,and I got two different news.One is my liver,the enzymes level was high.Not sure what that means,but i have to go today for blood work for HEP B & C..NO WAY could i possibly have hepatitis,how the heck do you get that??How weird is that.My friend lori has Hep C but You can only get it through blood right?Makes NO sense!Doc asked if I had blood transfusion,so he is clearly concerned:( :(.
I am stopping the Effexor,cause I read that anti depressants can cause Fatty Tissue in the liver,soooooo ADIOS!I took them in the past,and NO more steroid treatments on my knees either,I swear,you listen to docs to heal one thing and you can get sick with another issue.I'll find out more soon enough (SIGH).
NEXT,is I have endometris or whatever in the lining of my uterus & the lining is xyz thick(I should bring the paper that states exactly what).SO I have to see a OB/GYN to fix that.I also need to get one of those conoscopy things,u/s etc..UGH.Last thing I NEED now is a Hysterectomy(SP).BUT I allready had surgery for my cervix..I am concerned,why I am always nauseas,and tired.I do the gym,and this week I exhausted it,I am goign this morning.Its raining so Billy will be home.He cannot work in the rain.I dont' want to bring Lauren to the gym.I don't mind,but its easier just putting sneakers on and go.I think working out and eating healthy will help heal myself on my own.I'm planning on looking up Herbs and stuff that help with the liver.
I am NOT taking Tylenol ever again either!
I spoke to my mom,I'm sad that my grandfather is doing so poorly.It breaks my heart t hinking of him not being able to walk from his room 4 feet to the bathroom:( AND him falling.He has a huge tumor in his lung,I don't see him making the next year.How awful is that:(
I miss my mom a LOT.Especially days like yesterday,she is SO helpfull when it comes to the little girls,when I have doc appts.I had to bring them yesterday,even though Laura says "just ask" and "I'll watch them".I guess I should just "ask".My mom says to "ask" Ileanna,she'll watch them too.I guess I'm silly for NOT 'asking".I'm just used to just my mother,me or my husband watching them.So are they.The only other person who has 'watched' the lil ones is Ashley.She is a mature 12 but she IS ONLY 12..but an hour or so for the docs..she'll handle that perfectly.SHe's proven herself a few times allready and we pay her very well for it.LOL.So she knows she is helping out her own family,and gets an allowance and pay for when she "sits".She wants to 'babysit" outside of home,I told her she can have a job next year.WAY too young to want to work I think,::shrugs::: I want her to be a lil girl as long as possible.She so far has been great,normal 12 yr old.She has friends,drama,does good in school,and is respectful and loves her sisters,and family.Brianna is always a goof..my lil tomboy/super excited about summer!She was saying stuff about wanting just a "SMALL" pool in the yard,where its up to her knees,and the sprinklers,and we'll have "fun" and I can sing to Lauren and her,and we can play.Just the way she says it,sooooo cute and sweet.To be 6 again,LOL what a lovely age.I love my kids.
Stephanie spoke to me yesterday from Florida.She is happy out there,I miss her.She has been through the wringer,& me too..but I know she is unhappy with herself.She is in outpatient treatment for depression and substance abuse.I think she should go INpatient..we'll see what happens.She ""Loves"" this guy Anthony,soooo if so,she should try to get better.Or else they won't work out.Life is "hard" as it is,to toss in a mix of the above to it.
Oh Ashley had a class trip:) LOL she loved it.It was at the museam in Philly.Her only complaint was it was a long drive.The boys were teasing her about the Ben Franklin Bridge is going to fall down while they drove over it.She has a fear about bridges.I don't know why..but she always hated bridges.
Anyways,its 5am,and I'm UP.I dont' get WHY I get up every morning at 3am.I miss sleeping alone with my husband:( I love lauren,but the co sleeping bit,is nice but I basically miss my husband.Its not how I wanted it to be.It just fell into that,I am going to start going in her bed with her,and wait till she passes out,than leave.
Thats it...or fall asleep and Myself leave lol..either way,its whats next.Brianna complained that Lauren wakes her up,SO we let lauren in our room.WHat happens next...BRIANNA started sleeping on our bed too.GOOD THING we have a huge king sized bed,or else FORGETABOUTIT..even SO it wakes me up.She sleeps on the bottom part with her feet BY my face,UGH.Lauren sleeps sideways,and me and billy both get kicked all night.I enjoy it,I turn over and let my back get kicked at.My back hurts every damn night.I hate it.I suppose a new mattress is in order?
We plan and plan,have the money but never GO do it.I suppose we like to 'save" the money,cause emergencys DO happen and we like to be prepared.Many people shop with an extra thousand or so,we have to save it.I am not happy unless there is a few thous saved,and we have our bills paid without TOUCHING the money we save.If we have to dip into that,I consider us BROKE.BIG TIME.Speaking of shopping,this week I spent over 300$ in clothes for Ashley(but did get Brianna 2 outfits lol and 2 shorts,and 1 top for lauren,and a pair of cute canvas sneakers at old navy).Myself two tops..blah blah,CUTE though.Now that I have some more toneness to my body,and arms,the tops I got looked SO cute.I am waiting on Gymboree for the girls(lil ones),and Some cloth diapers arrived for Lauren.I also got her G diapers.I bought BAC OUT,and it works GREAT for stains and what not!I am waiting on bows now too for Lauren N Brianna.:) Brianna is starting to let me do her hair again.I sing my Praises lol.Her hair got LONG in the back now..N its so much thicker than Ashleys allready.She is so pretty but the way she dresses,and wants her hair so BLAH drives me NUTS.i want to put earrings on her,necklaces,you name it.(SIGH)..I embrace how she is though and do not dare try to change her into something she is NOT.I feel they need to discover their OWN Identity.She is tomboyish but loves girly stuff too.Its cute:)
GAWD,I babbled enough:)
I miss mom,Steph,I love you guys...papi too,and Abuelito:(
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