I went in on Friday early morning,and its OVER.The surgery.It was not scarey at all,and billy was up at 3am,& I caught him just looking at me.I did indeed feel loved.I told him NOT to worry,no biggie.However,its now Sunday and I still feel crampy and just pregnant pains,like contractions almost.Very strange.I am glad its over.I know now,i'll never ever ever have another pregnancy to term ever again.I'm ok with it though;) My back is just still hurting so I cannot imagine it anyway.
I slept all day Friday and Saturday due to the anesthesia.Than On Saturday,as well,my van got a flat tire at the supermarket.ugh I had to go all tired to shoprite and get the food billy bought and have him drive me back home.:( it suxs.Now we have to wait till MONDAY to get my new tire.I am going all out and fixing everything that needs doing.I need to fix my window.I need to do an oil change.Just basic stuff.Winter is coming and I do not want drama.
I'm hoping the knee injury settlement comes soon.I want to go for another MRI and see whats going on with my back.The first mri came up as NOTHING.There has to be tests for me to take to find out WHAT is causing this pain?Ugh another pain post?I will try to avoid that one.It just takes the quality of life I have,the cleaning I want to do and diminishes it SO much.Now add the cramping and I'm just not doing well:( I hope the cramping stops.I see the ob/gyn within a week.I'm hoping all is WELL.It suxs having those pains in top of the prior pains.Maybe the gym will help,but can't do it till car is fixed,and pain stops(stomach at the least) due to surgery.
I can't help but wonder crazy things..like WHY the intense pain??Billy has all sorts of herniated discs yet his back doesn't hurt EVERY DAMN morning like mne does???what is UP with that.I feel like a BIG baby when I complian.i do not want to complian.
Yet,I love a clean house,I NEED organization,and I use those organization skills that I do have,to keep things cleaned as much as posible.
WELL Billy will be off soon for a little while.That should be helpfull in doing things around here that needs to get done.
Ok,enough babble.I need to find my battery,so I can take new pics and share:)
The girls are all doing good:)
Stephanie is back here:) It is sooooo GOOD to see her:)
Yesterday Ash had a game,and I feel HORRIBLE,this is the FIRST weekend and than some that Im keepin Lauren HOME BOUND:( UGH no fair,POOR lauren!:(
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
OUR 13th ANNIVERSARY
Its my 13th wedding anniversary!!Imagine that!lol...i'm chilled out with my dh and Lauren.I have to get Brianna who is playing with friends 2 houses away.
WELL I want to write,but i have to go:(
Ashley is at youth group,and I want Brianna home before dark.:)
Lauren is NOT talking much today other than nonstop MOMMY N MAMA & i'm going NUTS.
She has her days she talks so much,and other days she does not.
WELL Tomorrow is not so busy,than crazy thursday(jijitsu,than ccd for bri,run to cheeer for ash,than pick her up an hour later,take her to ccd(pick up bri) and blah blah blah.just lots of running around.
I have to undo the girls clothes.There are so much I have to do ugh no update now haha...Laters.
OH here comes Brianna lol...she came on her own(oh Denise sent her home):) THANKS DENISE:)I'm loving this neighborhood,Brianna finally gets to play around more so with kids her age...and is not "roaming alone"..the older kids and parents we all watch out for each other,and she aint alone:)
Last word..I am a FAN major FAN of STEPHANIE MEYERS twilight series..I can NOT wait to see the movie..12/12/ it will be out:) LOL I allready told Billy.
Sad words..my grandfather is not doing well..:(
BIG stuff..STEPHANIE is on her way home..woohoo I cannot wait to see her:):):)
She has a truck,(i thought it was just a visit,) moving her college papers,and whalla coming back to NJ.I knew that was coming rofl..she always comes back around her birthday time.NOW she will be NINETEEN years old.
MY gift today...consisted of a card,drama,and nonsense...LOL...but dh promised me a kindle:) SoOO I am ordering one NOW:) YAY HE SHOULD"VE GOT IT,but he is so weird that way.I do not need jewelry(I love it),but money is not what i want it to be ROFL so I'll have to make do.he does have great taste,we love stunning items,but they cost so much.WHO DOESNT have good taste I'd like to know LoL
laterz.
WELL I want to write,but i have to go:(
Ashley is at youth group,and I want Brianna home before dark.:)
Lauren is NOT talking much today other than nonstop MOMMY N MAMA & i'm going NUTS.
She has her days she talks so much,and other days she does not.
WELL Tomorrow is not so busy,than crazy thursday(jijitsu,than ccd for bri,run to cheeer for ash,than pick her up an hour later,take her to ccd(pick up bri) and blah blah blah.just lots of running around.
I have to undo the girls clothes.There are so much I have to do ugh no update now haha...Laters.
OH here comes Brianna lol...she came on her own(oh Denise sent her home):) THANKS DENISE:)I'm loving this neighborhood,Brianna finally gets to play around more so with kids her age...and is not "roaming alone"..the older kids and parents we all watch out for each other,and she aint alone:)
Last word..I am a FAN major FAN of STEPHANIE MEYERS twilight series..I can NOT wait to see the movie..12/12/ it will be out:) LOL I allready told Billy.
Sad words..my grandfather is not doing well..:(
BIG stuff..STEPHANIE is on her way home..woohoo I cannot wait to see her:):):)
She has a truck,(i thought it was just a visit,) moving her college papers,and whalla coming back to NJ.I knew that was coming rofl..she always comes back around her birthday time.NOW she will be NINETEEN years old.
MY gift today...consisted of a card,drama,and nonsense...LOL...but dh promised me a kindle:) SoOO I am ordering one NOW:) YAY HE SHOULD"VE GOT IT,but he is so weird that way.I do not need jewelry(I love it),but money is not what i want it to be ROFL so I'll have to make do.he does have great taste,we love stunning items,but they cost so much.WHO DOESNT have good taste I'd like to know LoL
laterz.
Monday, September 15, 2008
I LOVE lauren,I love my kids.
I love lauren:) Our LAUREN PAIGE!
JUST LOVE YOU GIRLY!
MY PRINCESS,
MY SWEETY
ALL ROLLED UP IN ONE!
I am SO gratefull we went ONE more time...ONCE again to have our last baby!Boy or Girl...we were going for our last baby.She is definately everything I could ask for.She is so sweet,always giving her sweet kisses.She goes out of her way to turn back to pick up a toy on the floor to get a smile out of me.She loves to touch my face.She sees Brianna,and just adores her to pieces,as well as Ashley.She calls Brianna Bri Bri..and Ashley..ASHHH.She is a JOY.We THANK YOU GOD for our girls,and thank YOU GOD for our last baby.I know I'm not having anymore,its saddening,yet another world ahead.More mommy night out with daddy & friends.:)I Passed up a LOT this past many years,to be with my children.I do NOT regret ONE single day.I love being a mother,it defines who I am,what GOD wanted me to do.
When the time comes,the crossroad,for me to do something "new",I know God will let me know.
Till next time...
Ahhhh 11pm,getme to bed NOW!
I feel compelled to sit here.ALL day.Haha..Cleaning,ALMOST DONE.laundry..Umm Must move clothes from washer to dryer.THAN toss in comforter(hope it doesn't get ruined ugh my HUSBAND fell asleep with ice cream and woke up with ICE CREAM all over himself,and I WOKE UP with NO comforter OYE)..well I mayjust buy a nice white comforter!I NEED to get to bed...WE NEED to buy a new mattress,heck a whole new bedroom set.This is one thing that drives me nuts!LOL
We cleaned out the pantry(LOVE how EMPTY it is now lol)!
Plans.
We need a night out with friends.I am heading to Florida.I want to visit for a month,and wondering how to pull this off with the conflict of childrens shooling...and of course Billys work.Problems Problems..always.Yet,Now I know,I'm not meant to have No more children.They are getting bigger.The baby,Lauren,is allready 2!Time to potty train her!She is such a joy,and will be PT fast.She is SUPER smart,rips off her dipes when she is wet/or whatever=) Imagine that!She knows,mommy time for panties now!No more diapers.I have to get over this obsession.:X I love organic Bamboo Velour,and its not going to happen.Its happened,but not for much longer.My baby is 2.Get over it,bottom line.I just want to get more Obv diapers,and than quit it...but why?LOL the obsession?
Anyways,I'm off to bed.Will make billy happy!Sitting here just blabbering is not a good thing.Life is too short,and should be spent with our loved ones.
I want to thank GOD for everything,and THANK my family and Friends for always being there.
SMOOCHES!
mY POOR sil had a heart attack!
How SAD is that!:( I am so worried about her.I do not know the cause,but I hope she sticks to her change in lifestyle the doctor wants her to have.
My grandfather is in the hospitol.Doing very poorly.I was laying down on the floor with him,practically in tears.Asking him to recieve Jesus christ as his savior,In Spanish.I have to admit,the words came out so easily,and i haven't spoken spanish as often as I used to.Either God helped me through the holy spirit,OR I just remembered it all.I doubt i remembered it that well,when I was that upset however.....
I am praying that he does get saved,he is angry and has much to sort through.You do not sort through "life" happenings when you are with leukemia,and a lung tumor.I am amazed he is here still.God has him here for a reason.I firmly believe that.
My mother.I'm worried soooo MUCh about her.She cares for him 100% of the time.Minus the hour i had him,or the shave my brother gave him,just minutes here and there,she is his primary caretaker.Thats fine,however her health is not good at all.She has so many things wrong with her that it makes me sad.Why does she do this??She does it because he is her father,and if you know my mother,she is a giver all the way.I do not mean MONEY.I mean HEART.She is all heart,My grandmother was that way.People say I have a big heart,my brother too..so maybe it runs in the family:) I know however,like my dad,I hold some anger at times,yet I know how to let it go.I'm very forgiving.Just ask,talk to me,and its like nothing ever happened.Anyways,it is this way with my immediate family and it should be.:)
I haven't been feeling 100% myself.I worry about if somethign happens to me.I do not know why I am thinking this stuff more so than I should.After my surgery I will be speaking to my doctor about this.Last night My chest felt tight,& than loose.It scared me,but I realize now it was acid.LOL...but thats how much I've been worrying.
My symtoms are wierd.
Not only I am in pain,but my head at times,it comes and goes,feels like somebody hit it with a BAT.YET no bumps,or nothing(Do I sleep crazy and bang my head or something)??Becaues thats how I feel.Billy says no,i sleep fine.SO why does it feel like that,and at different places.
I had a big lump on my neck,it went away,than it went on the other side lol..If I pulled my head back,you can SEE it,and it hurt horrible.It went away,with zithromax because I had to go for a pRE OP.I'm hoping my blood comes out fine and I can get this "ablazion" over with.I won't even call it a surgery.yes,I'll be knocked out,but no,they are not cutting me opened.SO surgery is not the proper word in my book:)
SEPT 26th,is my date,unless for some reason we move it ahead.
Billy.
Well he is busy working,and trying to get ready for WINTER.He is all up in arms about saving money,and getting some SOLAR PANELS for our home.WE definately need a pool cover,anybody know about pool covers?I suppose I can ck on line.
Stephanie: She is going to Everett University In Florida (YEPPIE) I am so proud of her..:) My parents are going down this week,and going to ck out to buy a condo.I'd LOVE to just GO and have a place to stay!Yeah,steph has a place,but it would be NICE if myparents had a vacation home in US rather than SPAIN..even though I LOVE spain.Its just so expensive to FLY there,never mind our dollar is SO low...EEEK.
I think my mom should transfer all her american dollars to euros.JMHO of course..LOL she is not doing that.
I want to do that though...the dollar is at an all time low...so HOPING It climbs up a BIT.:( this is a true crises for our country right now.
I am not a whiner,just look around!:(
I believe jesus is coming back,and real soon.I am trying to do my part to help the earth,I bought a bunch of reusable bags.I use cloth dipes.We're looking into solar panels.Dh wants to ELIMINATE gas all together and use ethanol.So little by little we'll get there.Others are doing it.
No wonder the price of copper (etc) is up so high!
ASHLEY:doing well in school:) and did her FIRST science project By herself.:) LOL thankgod!
Brianna: had a rough week at school but now is doing much better!:) she is a total TRIP!LOVE her sense of self,she is so passionate about everything!
lauren:LOVES to copy Brianna,which is a NO NO lol.She is now on the ripping clothes off stage.Drives mommy nuts!She loves toys,and we got rid of lots of toys this week.
Mommy is tired of toys.LOL
SO is Daddy!
OH our football team is UNDEFEATED!GO LIONS!Ashley had her school pics and her cheerleading pics THIS week!!Talk about busy busy!IT WAS SOOOO SUPER HOT at the field on Saturday.My face was literally SOAKED,umm not a fun feeling lol!I had a headache,and nausea combined,so it was just awful,totally.
WELL thats my update!
:)
My grandfather is in the hospitol.Doing very poorly.I was laying down on the floor with him,practically in tears.Asking him to recieve Jesus christ as his savior,In Spanish.I have to admit,the words came out so easily,and i haven't spoken spanish as often as I used to.Either God helped me through the holy spirit,OR I just remembered it all.I doubt i remembered it that well,when I was that upset however.....
I am praying that he does get saved,he is angry and has much to sort through.You do not sort through "life" happenings when you are with leukemia,and a lung tumor.I am amazed he is here still.God has him here for a reason.I firmly believe that.
My mother.I'm worried soooo MUCh about her.She cares for him 100% of the time.Minus the hour i had him,or the shave my brother gave him,just minutes here and there,she is his primary caretaker.Thats fine,however her health is not good at all.She has so many things wrong with her that it makes me sad.Why does she do this??She does it because he is her father,and if you know my mother,she is a giver all the way.I do not mean MONEY.I mean HEART.She is all heart,My grandmother was that way.People say I have a big heart,my brother too..so maybe it runs in the family:) I know however,like my dad,I hold some anger at times,yet I know how to let it go.I'm very forgiving.Just ask,talk to me,and its like nothing ever happened.Anyways,it is this way with my immediate family and it should be.:)
I haven't been feeling 100% myself.I worry about if somethign happens to me.I do not know why I am thinking this stuff more so than I should.After my surgery I will be speaking to my doctor about this.Last night My chest felt tight,& than loose.It scared me,but I realize now it was acid.LOL...but thats how much I've been worrying.
My symtoms are wierd.
Not only I am in pain,but my head at times,it comes and goes,feels like somebody hit it with a BAT.YET no bumps,or nothing(Do I sleep crazy and bang my head or something)??Becaues thats how I feel.Billy says no,i sleep fine.SO why does it feel like that,and at different places.
I had a big lump on my neck,it went away,than it went on the other side lol..If I pulled my head back,you can SEE it,and it hurt horrible.It went away,with zithromax because I had to go for a pRE OP.I'm hoping my blood comes out fine and I can get this "ablazion" over with.I won't even call it a surgery.yes,I'll be knocked out,but no,they are not cutting me opened.SO surgery is not the proper word in my book:)
SEPT 26th,is my date,unless for some reason we move it ahead.
Billy.
Well he is busy working,and trying to get ready for WINTER.He is all up in arms about saving money,and getting some SOLAR PANELS for our home.WE definately need a pool cover,anybody know about pool covers?I suppose I can ck on line.
Stephanie: She is going to Everett University In Florida (YEPPIE) I am so proud of her..:) My parents are going down this week,and going to ck out to buy a condo.I'd LOVE to just GO and have a place to stay!Yeah,steph has a place,but it would be NICE if myparents had a vacation home in US rather than SPAIN..even though I LOVE spain.Its just so expensive to FLY there,never mind our dollar is SO low...EEEK.
I think my mom should transfer all her american dollars to euros.JMHO of course..LOL she is not doing that.
I want to do that though...the dollar is at an all time low...so HOPING It climbs up a BIT.:( this is a true crises for our country right now.
I am not a whiner,just look around!:(
I believe jesus is coming back,and real soon.I am trying to do my part to help the earth,I bought a bunch of reusable bags.I use cloth dipes.We're looking into solar panels.Dh wants to ELIMINATE gas all together and use ethanol.So little by little we'll get there.Others are doing it.
No wonder the price of copper (etc) is up so high!
ASHLEY:doing well in school:) and did her FIRST science project By herself.:) LOL thankgod!
Brianna: had a rough week at school but now is doing much better!:) she is a total TRIP!LOVE her sense of self,she is so passionate about everything!
lauren:LOVES to copy Brianna,which is a NO NO lol.She is now on the ripping clothes off stage.Drives mommy nuts!She loves toys,and we got rid of lots of toys this week.
Mommy is tired of toys.LOL
SO is Daddy!
OH our football team is UNDEFEATED!GO LIONS!Ashley had her school pics and her cheerleading pics THIS week!!Talk about busy busy!IT WAS SOOOO SUPER HOT at the field on Saturday.My face was literally SOAKED,umm not a fun feeling lol!I had a headache,and nausea combined,so it was just awful,totally.
WELL thats my update!
:)
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
PAIN PAIN On my WHOLE body:(
MY FEET hurt,My hands hurt.It just aches,my feet bother me all day long.My back is killing me to the point I cannot stand it no more.In the morning I am paralyzed.I cannot move.It hurts so bad I cry.My husband is now officially used to seeing me crying almost every morning due to pain.
I cannot PROVE this pain.I got an MRI and NOPE not a herniated disc.WELL I didn't really think 100% this was a herniated disc,due to the level of pain I have vs my husband.His is when his back is pulled,or he hurt himself(What I notice) whereas Mine is all day long,it hurts to type.I used to write more emails and Now they are lesser and it hurts to sit here.
My back,when i wake up,feels like under my lungs as well as my lower back are doing bad.I cannot move,i feel like I need a lubricant to move.I am so tired of not being believed.This doctor mentioned that sometimes people make believe they are in pain.Looks like i am going to find another doctor.What kind of doctor says that??
I am going to the ER I think due to the fact I cannot take care of my house or my children.My marriage is suffering due to my non stop pain.
Here is where the pain is most painfull.My BACK.My knee(comes and goes).My feet,My hands and arms.I cannot deal with sounds too loud.I have two new hearing aids,and I'm lowering them all the time.Sounds make me wince...pretty much,especially with 3 girls at home.I believe that can be possible with everybody.
I have a feeling its connected somehow with my central nervous system.I have to find some doctor that will help me with that.AS I type,here is what i feel.
My knee feels like an ice cube pick in it,so thats clarified a STAB.
My fingers and hands feel numbness yet painfull combined.
My feet,both of them hurt.I need a massage.I actually DREAM of a massage.Nobody gives them enough.
I am sick n tired of being in pain all the time/
I"M SO CURIOUS,how the HECK can YOU PROVE that YOU ARE INDEEEED IN PAIN.I AM SO FRUSTRATED!
I am IN SOOO MUCH PAIN and I HATE IT.
I am going for surgery on the 26th but I DO NO TTHINK my pain is related to that.
I want epidural,and just live on it and feel NOTHING.
I also have EMOTIONAL pain,from people that assume things about me.I know for a fact,I am a loving person & HUMAN.
I know that I love my kids and husband.I also love my mother very much.Poorwoman is in horrrrible pain.She is takign care of her OWN father ALL by herself.Some help from me or my brother but thats it.SAD:(
I cannot PROVE this pain.I got an MRI and NOPE not a herniated disc.WELL I didn't really think 100% this was a herniated disc,due to the level of pain I have vs my husband.His is when his back is pulled,or he hurt himself(What I notice) whereas Mine is all day long,it hurts to type.I used to write more emails and Now they are lesser and it hurts to sit here.
My back,when i wake up,feels like under my lungs as well as my lower back are doing bad.I cannot move,i feel like I need a lubricant to move.I am so tired of not being believed.This doctor mentioned that sometimes people make believe they are in pain.Looks like i am going to find another doctor.What kind of doctor says that??
I am going to the ER I think due to the fact I cannot take care of my house or my children.My marriage is suffering due to my non stop pain.
Here is where the pain is most painfull.My BACK.My knee(comes and goes).My feet,My hands and arms.I cannot deal with sounds too loud.I have two new hearing aids,and I'm lowering them all the time.Sounds make me wince...pretty much,especially with 3 girls at home.I believe that can be possible with everybody.
I have a feeling its connected somehow with my central nervous system.I have to find some doctor that will help me with that.AS I type,here is what i feel.
My knee feels like an ice cube pick in it,so thats clarified a STAB.
My fingers and hands feel numbness yet painfull combined.
My feet,both of them hurt.I need a massage.I actually DREAM of a massage.Nobody gives them enough.
I am sick n tired of being in pain all the time/
I"M SO CURIOUS,how the HECK can YOU PROVE that YOU ARE INDEEEED IN PAIN.I AM SO FRUSTRATED!
I am IN SOOO MUCH PAIN and I HATE IT.
I am going for surgery on the 26th but I DO NO TTHINK my pain is related to that.
I want epidural,and just live on it and feel NOTHING.
I also have EMOTIONAL pain,from people that assume things about me.I know for a fact,I am a loving person & HUMAN.
I know that I love my kids and husband.I also love my mother very much.Poorwoman is in horrrrible pain.She is takign care of her OWN father ALL by herself.Some help from me or my brother but thats it.SAD:(
Friday, September 5, 2008
SURGERYDATE For ENDEMETRIOSIS
ON the 26th @ 7am i am going for my surgery.I bet its 123 and i'll be done((EEK) lol I will be knockedout.
Do not know if it will take.
I PRAY It will take care of the pain I'm going through.The doctor doesnt' think it will.
I am also running around with a belly that POPS out during this"once a month,than it fades down..
NEXT: Brianna went to first grade.I cried when she left,i was sad.ALL day she is gone.
NOW she does NOt want to go.
Yesterday i let her sleep later and took her later.
TODAY,No games.I got her dressed,I climbed on her,held her down gently and dressed her while she cried.I do not know why she is bbeign this way.i called the school back,and we had a good talk.It appears a BUNCH of children are going through this.Its really their FIRST time beingaway from home that long:(I have ONE HOUR to go gether.I cannot wait!;**(
I miss my huband,i awnt him home too.
I miss AShley,OH we got TWO bags from ebags,(backpacks) i am takingone back,but Brianna likes it too.heck,maybe I use one for Lauren as a backpack diaper bag.Since she has so much stuff haha!
I love my life,I love my kids more than ANYTHING.
I just reallywould be happy if My pain would go away.
:(
Do not know if it will take.
I PRAY It will take care of the pain I'm going through.The doctor doesnt' think it will.
I am also running around with a belly that POPS out during this"once a month,than it fades down..
NEXT: Brianna went to first grade.I cried when she left,i was sad.ALL day she is gone.
NOW she does NOt want to go.
Yesterday i let her sleep later and took her later.
TODAY,No games.I got her dressed,I climbed on her,held her down gently and dressed her while she cried.I do not know why she is bbeign this way.i called the school back,and we had a good talk.It appears a BUNCH of children are going through this.Its really their FIRST time beingaway from home that long:(I have ONE HOUR to go gether.I cannot wait!;**(
I miss my huband,i awnt him home too.
I miss AShley,OH we got TWO bags from ebags,(backpacks) i am takingone back,but Brianna likes it too.heck,maybe I use one for Lauren as a backpack diaper bag.Since she has so much stuff haha!
I love my life,I love my kids more than ANYTHING.
I just reallywould be happy if My pain would go away.
:(
PAIN PAIN N MORE PAIN:**(
am suffering.NO joke,NO lie,NO reason to lie.YET I think dr's think I am crazy:***( I am in tears right now.
I cannot mop.Yet I do so.Mopping causes BAD HORRIBLE back n neck pains combined.My knee(which I know was from a car accident) hurts off and on,mostly when I'm sitting in a car driving.
I wake up with the most DELIBERATING pain EVERY MORNIGN.I walk HUNCHED OVER,and slowly have to straighten.The pain is so horrible,that I cry.My husband doesn't seem to give a crap.he is in his own world.Makes me wonder what the heck am i married if he doens't care for me at all.I need massages,and does he give them to me??NO.I miss them terribly.
HE has herniated discs..so HE thinks "I" am just overreacting:::tears::: MY FOOT feels ICKY like they ACHE,my hands ACHE,its literally every part of my body is hurting me.i have a HIGH pain tolerance,trust me,ESPECIALY compred to my husband,but I cannot PROVE IT.
I had a stupid MRI T SPINE and well according to THAT my back is FINE.
OK,than wonderful,I'm HAPPY bout that,but WHY WHY WHY WHY is my pain so intense????
WHY WHY Does it hurt to climb the stairs in the morning,(down) when I first wake up.My foot won't straiten al the way,it hurts so bad.??My knee hurts,N I am almost hunched over.
I am 37 years old..should I blow this off for 10 yrs where I'll be paralyzed cause a nerve doc thinks "I am making it up"????
ANYBODY have ANY IDEAS what it is??
I do NOT think its arthriris
I was reading up online,and spinal stenosis is one thingthat is probable,I am going to see my doctor(primary ) and TELL HIM how SEVERE mypain is.Maybe its cancer somewhere?I have NO idea:(
Its by the lung area..and below and upper but i breathe fine.No dots on xrays.(NO I do not believe I have lung cancer) but this is how confused I am that i really need relief.
Sadly N Scarey,I wake up in the middleof the night,thinking,for some reason,Maybe its God telling me.I feel very close to God during this time.I beg him to please not take me,not till my babies are grown:*( I cannot imagine them not havign me here.
I have a scarey feeling,that something is happening to me.This pain,so severe is not normal.Especially that degree of pain.
I am also stunned.About Brianna,she has a big big scar on her back.We went to the attorneys office for 'me",and i was thinking Back,on how I got treated.Iwrote a blog,and it was nothing major.yet,My cousins wife printed it out for the world to see..and I'm such a horrible person for having some anger.Yes,that hurts(lol not physical,but inside/emotional).I thought people cared a lil more than that,apparently NOT.
Now the attorney,sees that I AM OWED damages,I did not want to sue at all.Damages,meaning medical bills etc.YET,this family refuses to even speak to me to give me the address of the womans insurance (Nobody sues Nobody,reasonable people KNOW you go through the INSURANCE..HELLO0..)..its just utterly rediculousely sad.The victem is a littlegirl,and the spinoff on it is horrendous.I had visitors that never met her care much more.
If I burned somebody acidentally,GOD AS MY WITNESS,I would apolgoize to the persons FACE,right away,and sayis THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO.
I would ALSO,Like in CAR accidents,SAY if you have ANY PROBLEMS,please let me know.
C'mon now,People,be grownups.Not children.
OFF I go,to sit in pain.i will find out the culrpit,eventually,about MY pain.
I did another X ray on my lower back.its my UPPER back.I am NOT living like this forever..its intolerable.:(
I have have to take care of 3 children at home..and 1 child in in florida.I sing mypraises,My prayers got her doing well.She is in college(university.Everest University IN Florida.She is planning on going for Criminal Forensics.YAY baby girl:)
Once I beat whatever has me feeling like crap,DVR is placing me on the nursing program.
I love you friends:) & cannot imagine life without you!
OH AND my cloth diapering experience:) I have NOT caved not ONE day in TWO WEEKS now!:)
YAY!Even at NIGHTTIME!Billy as NOT caved and bught 7th generation dipe.
I cannot mop.Yet I do so.Mopping causes BAD HORRIBLE back n neck pains combined.My knee(which I know was from a car accident) hurts off and on,mostly when I'm sitting in a car driving.
I wake up with the most DELIBERATING pain EVERY MORNIGN.I walk HUNCHED OVER,and slowly have to straighten.The pain is so horrible,that I cry.My husband doesn't seem to give a crap.he is in his own world.Makes me wonder what the heck am i married if he doens't care for me at all.I need massages,and does he give them to me??NO.I miss them terribly.
HE has herniated discs..so HE thinks "I" am just overreacting:::tears::: MY FOOT feels ICKY like they ACHE,my hands ACHE,its literally every part of my body is hurting me.i have a HIGH pain tolerance,trust me,ESPECIALY compred to my husband,but I cannot PROVE IT.
I had a stupid MRI T SPINE and well according to THAT my back is FINE.
OK,than wonderful,I'm HAPPY bout that,but WHY WHY WHY WHY is my pain so intense????
WHY WHY Does it hurt to climb the stairs in the morning,(down) when I first wake up.My foot won't straiten al the way,it hurts so bad.??My knee hurts,N I am almost hunched over.
I am 37 years old..should I blow this off for 10 yrs where I'll be paralyzed cause a nerve doc thinks "I am making it up"????
ANYBODY have ANY IDEAS what it is??
I do NOT think its arthriris
I was reading up online,and spinal stenosis is one thingthat is probable,I am going to see my doctor(primary ) and TELL HIM how SEVERE mypain is.Maybe its cancer somewhere?I have NO idea:(
Its by the lung area..and below and upper but i breathe fine.No dots on xrays.(NO I do not believe I have lung cancer) but this is how confused I am that i really need relief.
Sadly N Scarey,I wake up in the middleof the night,thinking,for some reason,Maybe its God telling me.I feel very close to God during this time.I beg him to please not take me,not till my babies are grown:*( I cannot imagine them not havign me here.
I have a scarey feeling,that something is happening to me.This pain,so severe is not normal.Especially that degree of pain.
I am also stunned.About Brianna,she has a big big scar on her back.We went to the attorneys office for 'me",and i was thinking Back,on how I got treated.Iwrote a blog,and it was nothing major.yet,My cousins wife printed it out for the world to see..and I'm such a horrible person for having some anger.Yes,that hurts(lol not physical,but inside/emotional).I thought people cared a lil more than that,apparently NOT.
Now the attorney,sees that I AM OWED damages,I did not want to sue at all.Damages,meaning medical bills etc.YET,this family refuses to even speak to me to give me the address of the womans insurance (Nobody sues Nobody,reasonable people KNOW you go through the INSURANCE..HELLO0..)..its just utterly rediculousely sad.The victem is a littlegirl,and the spinoff on it is horrendous.I had visitors that never met her care much more.
If I burned somebody acidentally,GOD AS MY WITNESS,I would apolgoize to the persons FACE,right away,and sayis THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO.
I would ALSO,Like in CAR accidents,SAY if you have ANY PROBLEMS,please let me know.
C'mon now,People,be grownups.Not children.
OFF I go,to sit in pain.i will find out the culrpit,eventually,about MY pain.
I did another X ray on my lower back.its my UPPER back.I am NOT living like this forever..its intolerable.:(
I have have to take care of 3 children at home..and 1 child in in florida.I sing mypraises,My prayers got her doing well.She is in college(university.Everest University IN Florida.She is planning on going for Criminal Forensics.YAY baby girl:)
Once I beat whatever has me feeling like crap,DVR is placing me on the nursing program.
I love you friends:) & cannot imagine life without you!
OH AND my cloth diapering experience:) I have NOT caved not ONE day in TWO WEEKS now!:)
YAY!Even at NIGHTTIME!Billy as NOT caved and bught 7th generation dipe.
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