THREE times this week!

I made my goal:) 3xs this week to the gym.This week I also met ANOTHER goal..Lauren went by herself to the daycare.She loved it and did NOT cry,not ONCE.Today she went 2nd time,and again NO crying!I am so proud of her.I can take her to the gym and she hangs out and plays.So now i can continue with working out and achieving my 30lb loss.I am not eatign much at home,and its starting to show.Its been a month and half,and I haven't been going as much as I would like to.I do see my goal happening,as long as I stick to it.:)
This week has been chaotic,one day rain,the next beautiful out.After returning from up north,the funeral which was a crazy night after the wake.(SIGH).I went to this place called the GIN MILL and shouldn't of drank like I did,I'm a non drinker really and it hit me and hit me hard.At least I had fun,and felt like I was 20 again.The wake though broke my heart:( I felt super sad.I will miss Danny and his wife,I feel just horrible for her.
I had a great time talking to my MIL:) I missed her and I feel like is going by so fast!
WEll,now dh is home from work.Its Saturday:) Lauren is worn out,or something,she took a nap,Ashley came home making noises and woke Lauren up.(SIGH) so much for goign to the park:( i feel guilty now.Well,maybe tonight we can hit the boardwalk or something.I cannot believe we're heading into JUNE.I just put another order in gymboree..AND i have found out that there is one gymboree in SEA GIRT(SO CLOSE) and an OUTLET in JACKSON(SO CLOSE) lol both closer than where the original gymboree WAS prior to those two.AND there is a crazy 8 at the store where the original gymboree was (AND STILL IS LOL).Its time for me to separate stuff and start SELLING:) I have wayyyyyyyyyy too much,of ONE name brand clothing..Gymboree.WHY did I get started with that?LOL.Lauren right now is wearing her TARGET clothes which is SO cute(osh kosh) etc..I love that too.It truley is fun dressing her,and picking out diapers for her day:) packing her bag with the diapers as well.NO,I don't use the disposable plain ol diapers that take 500 years to disingrate in the ground.I cannot fathom the thought of LAURENS diapers living on and still on the earth,after she,and her great great great grand children are born and gone!To me that is rediculouse.WHY are companies so greedy,that they have to destroy the planet for money?Its sad.VERY much so.

Last,I miss my mom.I feel like i'm a dissapointment no matter what.Its frustrating for real.
XOXO