My lower back hurts,Its something thats just not going away.Anybody have a clue what it could be?Do you think it could be from the dang spinal from the C sec?
Anyways,we're not far from christmas,and thats frustrating too!I'm in Ashleys computer and ALL i get is Brianna grabbing my face,(yes whilei'm in pain) to show me the tv and yell in my almost deaf poor ear,"I WANT THAT"...eek...please please go away tv,toys and christmas for what its NOT meant to be.Its meant to be the birth of christ,and its gotten way out of control.
Now I dont' want to be a scrooge,like my husband is(he ALMOST is lol) but he DOES have his points.I did enjoy the magic of christmas and enjoyed the make believe world my parents gave me.Its a gift,I remember once thinking they "LIED" to me,but yanno what,I got over that.I still can remember the looks on their faces watching me open my presents.I still remember my favorite christmas ever as a kid.We were at my abuelitas (grams in spanish) and I got a baby alive dolly:) I still remembered the smell(whenI smell dolls today It brings me back to when i was little).I kept asking papi(My dad) if he seen Santa,and he said "Yes,I think so"..LOL I remember the ride in the car,as a cute cute little girl(yep I was cute lol),and going up the stairs as FAST as I can,and there was a box.In the box was a Puppy.I do not recall ANY OTHER TOY,just the Puppy.SO its strange,all those toys I DID get,the puppy is one that stuck out and the snow falling on the ride home,and playing with my cousin dana in this "storage spot" with our dolls.It was our little "house".I miss those days.I cannot get over how fast life flew by.I want to give OUR children some magic..something to remember very well.Toys,yea,there will be some of those.I do not want to go overboard,yet,I do want to on the same flip side.Does this make sense.What I REALLy want more than anything,is to have my home exactly as the dream we've envisioned it.ME and Billy.My kitchen painted the color I picked,the Living room Painted Burgandy,and remove the pictures and redo it.I want a banister,and the steps completely stained(oak steps).I want everything exactly as it belongs and clean.I hate cleaning and I would be ecstatic if everybody pitched in more.My back hurting is making things just a real pita.
I do not know why some days I am so unhappy.I have everything to be happy about.I get depressed when Billy is home.He is depressed,so it passes on to me.I love him dearly,however when he is home,its like OK,NO MONEY that means NOTHING will happen or somethinglike that.I know we get by so I should be happy.I am addicted to shopping,Online mostly,Gymboree etc.I have to stop,and promised to stop.I also love buying cloth dipes....but right now I just need a few nice things I know will keep me totally off sposies completely.I would also like a nice pair of longies.SEE WHAT I MEAN lol my shopping,I could go ona nd on.I also LOVE hair bows!I should snap a pic of all the hair bows I have,and NO i did not get a discount or nothing!I paid hard earned money for those things!LOL nuts huh!Whatever for I do not know.They are cute,but WORD..at walmart they DO have bows with alligator clips LOL.Korkers no..but Bows..Yet.So does Gymboree:) so I'm going to stick with stuff I cannot buy;)
RIght now...Lauren and Brianna are playing with the leapster table,and watching THE PENGUINS movie!They are so cute together,playing so nice together.
I have to order online stuff that goes with my new sony cell phone.Yep I got it...but it does NOT come with the memory card.Its a walkman phone so DUR you need a memory card.It also does NOT come with the usd (SP) connector to upload music to the phone ughhhhh so at least thats cheap ON EBAY..THAKNGOD FOR EBAY HAHA!
WELL allas,my update!My poor back,my kids driving me nuts..and I'm just running all over.Here is brianna wanting a shoe tied....TTYL
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