Snow galore

Jeter is some off the snow we have been dealing with, top it off brianna is now sick again!!!!im, praying she's better tomorrow!!!

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Laurens sick and xmas coming

I'm wrecked!!!lol....just a few more days and I have to have everything ready wrapping and shopping done yay!
I'm not letting people get to me shooo,i know of one person who it is, not a shadow of DOUBT!!!!

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What I want for christmas :)

Lauren waiting for the bus:), she loves school and enjoys everysingle day of fun;)
I can't wait till christmas morning!!!!!

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Christmas its coming soon

Laurens chilling this monday morning, she is excited for the Big Santa Visit aka christmas!!!!!
This weekend I bought a smaller rrrreeeeee, ill put up pictures when we put ity up.Its pre lit and even haaas a stand that came with it!!! I'm going to tt to be ahead this year with wrapping, so from noon to 3, daily, its wapping time lol.
Every year christmas is our favorite time if the year, we see family and reflect just how FORTUNATE wee are.There are soooo many who don't have family or even friends.Many think its about presents, but I've learned that my memories as a child growing up, my memories are the most valuable gift ever given,i can't recall the gifts other than a puppy. I'm going to put a new bike in briannas list.its something she needs and will use:)
Happppppy HOlidays

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Lauren lives school

I never seen a little girl adore preschool more than she does!!!! She wakes me and asks, its there school today???? When there is not she ITS NOT AS A HAPPPPY LIL CampeR!!!!!well can't blog, gotta go w bill to the drs, he always runs late, and later I need to take ashley to the dentist:)
Christmas is coming!!!!!!

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Christmas is coming

Im sitting wondering how these holidays are going to come to play.i know christmas eve we r going to karens house, which is almost 2 hours away, wee went there for thanks giving.the problem its I have no idea what the girls want for christmas!!!i have to think and demand a list.....what to butt when you have it all??? Christmas has become so commercialized...lauren and avah are the easiest.i miss the days when wee bought for just one or two of our own lil ones.
Well, I'm heading for bodywork and thinking of my mom n dad,ill update soon.

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Steph...

I love you.i wasn't you sage and hope you eat alot of turkey xxxooo

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Avah

Ill miss you, have a happy thanksgiving, tomorrow we are waking, cleaning, coffee break, and packing up to go to karens house!!!!!i love thanksgiving there:)!!I'll miss mom n dad too, and we will no doubt think of pop pops, we already are, and im thinking every year of my grandparents,rip love you all.xxoo

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Early mornings

Bri waiting for bus

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I'm in sa very good mood today.i spent it playing w my kids, cleaning and loving my new galaxy s phone!!!
I spent the night out w mom and we bought lauren her bike computer tv toy,itsa plug n play lol!!!
I miss my lil fla kiddos, avah and stephanie, but hoping they can come for a visit during thee holiday season !!praying...it's a dream.
I am also soooo psyched, picking up 2 new hearing aids next week, god is great.i plan on going back tho school,i passed the test and am officially on the road,yay!!!!! It was very simple tho behonest, common sense.
I gotta go,battery nedscharging lmao

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BIlly,worries...

Life is not always fun and games.I don't bother with the sad,other stuff in life much on here.I prefer posting in a journal/private journal.Anyways,Halloween came and went.I also went to Florida in October(pics coming).I am waiting for pictures that is at my mothers house.I have to go and fwd them here.
I am stressing about Christmas.Billy is just feeling awful in every sense of the word.He has an absess tooth,second time in less than 3 mos.He has swollen up,and today we went to his doctors.He discovered Bill has a Hernia(hiatal) which is upper stomach area.Not sure how they are going to fix that,more likely the referral to a different dr will tell us how to proceed.I'm worried it'll be surgery:( He is seriously not a good patient,and a big baby when it comes to pain.
Ashley has been busy with her school and joined gymnastics.Shes doing well:)
Teenagers are not a very easy age,however,at least SO FAR,things have been pretty much as expected.Nothing Surreal has happened,not even a drunken night(YET).So I am praying she keeps her head up!!!
Lauren is progressing IMMENSLY in her preK.Next year is Kindergarten and I am holding her back a year.I know she'll benefit from it.
Stephanie & Avah are in Florida.Just a whole nother story.Avah has just gotten over a pnemonia,and I'm worried about her being so far from me.Just like everything,I cannot control the world,or the people I love.I worry about my mother,because she thinks she can.:( and is getting very stressed out.She needs surgery and did not even pass the testing to get surgery!!Its for her knee.She is in a LOT of pain and deals with it.She's so tough in so many ways,yet weak in others.
I suppose we all are,and we all have our weakness.Hers,loving people too much,is not exactly a bad thing.
God has blessed us all tremendously with her.This I know,and I know it well.Others should appreciate it as well.
GOD BLESS and Hope everybody has a great thanksgiving season!!!

Lauren and Brianna.

 
CUTE picture of them two!!!Early Sunday 1:30 pm october 31st.I love halloween and now we are anticipating Thanksgiving at karens house!
Unfortunatey Bill has some minor health problems,I am hoping they can be resolved for that:(

Halloween 2010

 
This is Brianna,Above,On Halloween sunday(first one in eons that i ever ever recall lol it was ODD).WE had a great time regardless:) First we trick or treated with my sil and mom and my twin niece n nephew.Aiden N sarah.Than me and the lil girls went to meet Bill and Ashley and we ran through the town.Billy had a pain going down his leg,during the last block,so we called it a night earlier than usually do each year!!
Overall,HAPPY HALLOWEEN (belated).I'm playing catch up with my photos,and updates!!!

My JustFab orders....

Its time for me,and of course my husband to indulge a little bit on stuff for US!I feel like this frumpy housewife,right now in my slippers,lounge pants,and robe!!It IS cold here in the first floor but thats another topic.I've been looking online and realize that the items i need are SHOES,and BAGS!They completely change any outfit 100%!!!!Scarves is another option as well.This is what I've picked out this month,JustFab.Com is a personal shopper picks things out that goes with your personality and you can choose to buy the item,everything is 40$ included shipping.If I get it,and dislike it,it has free shipping BACK to the store!!We really can not beat that!!I'm happy.Here is my choices this month.I picked up the DREAM purse and the Brenda Boots!!I think they will look good...I'll try to get a picture when I recieve the items!!!!If I dont like,like I said,it goes back free shipping!SO i have nothing to lose..LOL



(Above..My Brenda Boots)



(above,the Dream Purse)

I'm so sleepy,,no place like home! Kids r asleep and I just wanted to vent a bit:(
I'm hurt how people think they have the right to judge and look at steph like she's beneath them.I recall Billy picking that apart before he met them!!
Anyways I'm so tired my head is delerious lol:)

Brianna made the softballs squad,and more...

I've been very busy.I barely have time to blog anymore.I decided to just update on whats going on basically.The kids are back in school,and loving it.Ashley has a little bit of teenage drama but she'll get through it.Brianna just made softball try outs.I am very proud of her,she is 8 yrs old and one of the younger girls in the team.=) Way to go Brianna!!I am looking foward to watching her play.Lauren is now in dancing school.Stephanie n Avah are still in florida and I do miss them tremendously however,I am going out there for Avahs birthday and hopefully my cousins wedding too.

Now about ME,I have a bad gum/tooth ache combo.I had a hosptiol visit last year for a bad abcessed tooth.I did not get that tooth pulled.For the past few weeks since my nails came off(acrylics),I kept playing with the top of my lip where the infection was(near the gum).So bottom line there is a lil bump there (swollen) because of my messing with it and I am a little peeved at myself for touching it at all!Now it may turn into a hospitol visit AGAIN,and I am not liking it!!i am hoping it will just go "away",since i haven't touched it in a good day and a half:) LOL

I just got an update from Billy,that we have a big bad storm heading our way.Waves are supposed to be 18 to 24 feet,that scares me.If this is the case,I want to bolt and leave our area asap.The bottom line is GOD is in control,regardless of what happens.We have to shake our shoes and get back up again.I know its MUCH easier said than done,when people go through storms and tragedy.I cannot help but think of New Orleans!Omygosh that was awful awful!!

Praying for friends,Praying for everything to be OK with the storm as well.God bless..
nancy

oberon cover,pic next

YAY i got me an OBeron Cover for my Nook.Leather..sweet engraved Leather.With pewter..two favs of mine lol!
I got red roses,I love red and love roses.Couldnt resist.
Here is the link..

School Soon!

I realize I do not blog much,I am more of a reader than writer.I have my nook and it took my time,the little time I had that I used to spend on the computer.Add a set of Nails and forget it..who wants to type!=)
Anyways,I've been on this blog for a while now so it makes sense to just put something IN it.I hate letting things go.I let farmville go..(((wow)))once I was so addicted to that game!It seems silly & a total waste of valuable time to me now.I suppose this happens to the best of us time to time.
Wow.Where to start.I'll start with whats going on in the order that makes some sense.School is starting,very soon.Ashley is going to highschool and you'd think that freshmen highschool is a beauty pageant!Clothing,shoes...you name it."Ash..its about education"..She says she knows but she "needs" jeans that fit etc..Ok.So thats where it is with her right now.She's doing ok,happy for the most part.We did a checkup for school and we declined gardisil.The new dr,i nvr seen before,I should
ve demanded to wait for other dr but overall this dr ordered up a heart specialist N tells me that wolfe parkinsons white syndrome is never away.Never gone.I'm like what???So back to the heart dr she will be going to!
Brianna is doing well.She needs to lose 5lbs and all girls getting blood work.I should be there NOW,but i may split it up...they hate the needle!
Lauren is fine.She needs a hearing test but tats it!:)

I'm feeling a lil sad.Stephanie wise.Avah is ok,but I wish she was closer.Stephanie too.She has to know how much she is loved.I plan on sending her some loot on the 3rd!:)

I have some pics,a new digital camera that I have bought AFTER Laurens 4th birthday party.Since she turned 4..she has blossomed tremendously.I love it!!!
Today I plan on cleaning up and taking the kids to the pool.I took a HOT shower,still have an abcess tooth on right side...and left is a new one)
I worry about that..its just painfull wen it flares up!
Off my day goes....:)

4th..4oth...stressers hit the bazooka!

"I wonder seriously where on earth did the time go.Seems thats what I post quite often!
Lauren had a perfect 4th birthday.I thank friends and BIllys family for that!!And aunt julie,dana:*) The only family I had....=)

She got so much sooo many gifts..two toy story movies,a curious george movie,clothes,doll n carriage ec...So much!=)

Omy i'm stoked.:-) I got the NOOK(barnes N Nobles) e reader.Its made my day!!I'm debating on new digi.Mine both have issues!

Anyways.I love you Lauren Paige.You completed out family!I do not can not imagine life without YOU!You are my true sunshine!May God Bless you and hold u near...forever.xoxoxoxoxoxo"

(copied N pasted from another blog)!
Yeah..Im all over!
Right now sitting here wet after swimming!My neighbor came over.I have so so many errands to run.I'm FLAT broke..broker than I've ever been in ages.1789 mortgage..1500 for next door solar panels(he was supppposed to wait grrr)..Ihave to wait till 19 when bill gets paid and MOM is going to shit not realizing I am dreading bringing my own daugher home while she is not well:( Not while A 14 yr old,is here and sees just HOW much ATTENTION it brings!
700 ELEctric..and they want 300 more..shut off notice I paid 286 car insurance due again..I paid 300$cell phone(extra costs for long dstance but no biggy)...party..gifts...etcetcetc.
I'm flabbergasted!:(SAD..depressed and STRESSED cause I'm a godforsaken awful awful person!
:(

asey!
When we go as a family at nite is 1 thing never again!!!omtgosh!

Its late,waiting restlessly for 14 year old to get home!She went to boa3d n rides 9 to 12. Am w a mom I!!!I'm livid n tired...ok here they come!!!Her n C

woo hot summer day cooling off at home!

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I wanted to share this site with people who are spending their days at home like myself today.I also wanted to share that I have a brand new NOOK:) yeah
its all I talk about as of late LoL.The good anyway.We have the good,the bad,the ugly in our lives.Today I want to discuss the good.I feel blessed.I have a beautiful family and loving friends who I adore deeply.I do not know what i'd do without any of them!!
ANYHOW(sigh) back to the Nook.For 3 yrs now I wanted an E reader.I used to buy baby gear at amazon and look longingly at the Kindle but thought to self"SOMEDAY'...well the someday has arrived for me!I was going to grab the Kindle but I did not want to be stuck with the kindle library so I picked the Nook after lots of people recommended them that I know and the ratings and comparisons I read online.They both are excellent in my opinion,just a matter of preference.My Nook works with my library....epub,just things that I enjoy.I can get books via USB free downloads from websites like the one I posted.!!!Great Blog,go check it out.My next "longingly" things I want is the Ipad and OOh An Iron that just shoots steam that we use standing up.
Well,theres still a month away for my 40th!!!

Here is Lauren.SHe is in this toy called the Bonzai.I love it and could've bought THAT,butttt they have the pool lol.Its undecided here about it,but at the same time my lovely cousin Dana has it for her beutiful son and we used it on his fun,adventerous party!!!Lauren goes to school 4 days a week and enjoys it,she also enjoys paties.This was one of the funnest kid birthday party in feels like forever!!LOL She knows how to celebrate hehe!

Back to the Lord...

This is an interesting place to start,as well as Diannas BLog(a flowered purse) who is a good friend of mine.:)
I need GOD back in my life.Satan is nipping at our heels in a bad way.I read today on facebook,if Satan is following you,RUN,and don't even Look at him.
I miss Beth,I should seek her out on facebook??Good idea ...no doubt it came from the LORD himself!I miss church.I m catholic however I find christ's spirit more in a smaller family type church.My town is big so its hard to find that period.
I thank the LORD for the energy to clean the house.It JUST hit me.JUST now,I prayed for this a few days ago.He gave it to me,i did not deserve it at all!!THANK YOU LORD!!!!YOU are the ONLY one who never let me down,nor lied to me.
Everybody I know has lied to me wayyyy too much.Its one thing I DO NOT DO to peo9ple and I get it like a GLUTTON!WTH???


Today is another day.I feel like everybody is getting hand outs left and right....except for us.What we do just to LIVE is unsettling to my stomach....
Bill is lost...very very depressed.I know it.I should be with him cause he is leaving soon.I should go instead.....
Kudos n GOD BLESS!!

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I cannot wait till time goes by and I buy something I really really want!It'll take a year or two..maybe three but this time will pass and google ain't handing out nothing that I know of??
Maybe I should Google "incentives" LoL!

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Today,July 4th morning and I have puffy swollen painfull eye!I am proceeding as usual,my only choices are go to ER or wait it out till tomorrow.Brianna came w a purple ball n knocked daddys coffee along w other kitchen paraphanelia smack to the floor,grrrrrrr!!!Get over it dad lol.Ashley comes down to investigate n had her 3 cents to say all while I am battling some sort of eye issue that travels to my head and giving me a headache as a result.I did take advil,actually 2 of them.The weather is hotter than hell today n I feel avoiding the pool is a good idea for the eye...but not the rest of me.I'm supposed to meet lori n frank etc at beachwood later.fireworks by the bay!!!
I will update how it all turns out.....live laugh love<3

My van is dead at wawa still!! Sooooo frustrating,esp that it is fathers day!!
I pray they do not tow it!!!
First BBlackberry post!

Happy Fathers Day!!!

I love you Papi.You are sofar,makes me wonder why ad how on earth can you really be that far??
you love your country THAT much?I know men think country before Life??I do not understand why my father chooses to spend so much time away from us.???
He took my mothertoo.
I am here trying to post,get out things that linger in my mind for such a long time and I hear lauren say " I want cailou".OHMYGOSH.its ONDEMAND!I hear that Cailou song every single day all day long!!THAN I hear Briana "I can use your laptop yet" Its driving me bonkers especially since she broke the backspacebutton on the laptop to begin with!
Anyways,I have to keep using my long finger nail to tap the nothing tab,not even a white button anymore to fix errors.It drives me crazy!
Speaking of Fathers Day.I miss Mine.I miss my husbands dad.I also miss my husband because he choosed to sit up stairs while I am here on the laptop.

BIG problems besides those problems of the heart,and thoughts of the mind lol...My VAN a NISSAN QUEST is DEAD at WAWA(look at www.wawa.com) and a 2006 Nissan Quest.The quest Battery has been dying very easily.Light on too long or whatever required a jump.Now after 10jumps it won't charge.It took a charge with Ileana (my SIL)....but it died right after I got in and went to backup and turned the light on.Wham it died.WTH???????How devastated Iwas.
I knew today was not going to be theday the father of my chidren deserved.
He loves our kids.He loves stephanie.I'm heartbroken forwhat he and Stephanie went through.THats ao whole new story.
I see Icannot blog as much As Iwould with this keyboard and the constant fixig spelling hogw a bad backspacer!SO annoying!
Dad Oh Got a LAPTOP for fathers day 2 weeks early...I hope HEsEjoying his Laptop!!!
Well.Happpy Fathers Day to ALL the loving Dads arouhnd....i love my father
my husband miss my father in law(2 weeks ago died) ( and my abuelito:(
LOVE U ALL......

quick daddy did house pics

wow wow this is Brianna!!Time FLIES!We mustfix the truck.Iwas going through y picassa album and seen so many pics of what we took throughthe year ad deleting everythig from my laptop cause pictures do take memory space!:)
I love you Brianna!You went and got to be 8 so fast!!!!!
Imissthe truck!Right now my VAN is up at wawa broken.The batter wont take a charge.I wish MOM would offer a ride(truck) i will not ask.Never would I.I would offer to my kid..ALL of them(so long their sober naturally):) I am STUCK at home,oh man its fathers day and the redcar geo pris that is unregistered!AND bad sticker.OK,pull us over!We did ot know and officer told us to fix it(oh no ticket) ummm but if we drive it all around we WILL get a ticket not to mention it doesnt fit Laures carseat than Briahna and Ashley.

tired,dissapointed,endless

Kidsare doing good.I get some disrespect and I realize respect s a two way street however I AM treating everybody very nice!wth??
Ok,forget that...I am dissapointed and sad with Bill.He's been busy working,but come on its the weeekend...does he not KNOW I'd love to sit and sleeptoo??I wonder and worry if he is sick.He really needs to get to the dr's for a good thorough bloodworkup!!!Its frustrating!What is a girl to do?Scream??Grrr!!

Here is some good news.Next month we are getting Solar Panels installed on our home.I am ecstatic!I pray it is all we hoped for!

I am exhausted as well from the nonstop florida to spain to Nj drama,life problems etc.poor mom should enjoy her trip!!Life falls apart when she leaves lol literally!
Our home right ow is just like walking on eggshells.We need a pow wow,a famly meeting again.Kids need remindig what they have to do.I do not need to ask more than once what i want done!!!
Right now Ashley bathed Lauren:) Brianna is a pain in the rear today to tae a bath.if she does NOT she is NOT going out with us when we do!She went to the beach and has god knows what o her hair,
we went to the beach yesterday,after that we stopped home.I fed the kids,and lauren passed ot on the couch.Daddy came home and sadly stayed with A VERY tired lauren(the beach is a total KNOCK YOUONYOURASS activity) the sun was SO hot that my back,is RED.I did not use nothing on my back OOOPS!Shooo I shouldve had th kids do it.
Excuse spellings..My laptop backspace is literally BROKEN and I have these LONG beautiful nails which makes MiSTakes LOL.Its 60$ to replace keyboard.
I Needd MONEY!!Where is the MONEYTRAIN RUNNING AT??:)
Kudos..Iwill uploadbpictures when I retrieve my blackberry emails.I nvr downloded the app for photobucket for blackberry.Anybody do that????
Well,this is it for now....its saturday at 1pm and I do not know whats nxt.I'm still beat!

lifegoes on...

Im sitting back in the computer room which was once stephanies room.I should be in the kitchen talking to Bill but today I feel like getting sme thoughts out.Excuse the spelling between long nails and a broken,completely broken back space makes typing an effort whereas it is effortless for me.I type fast.
We are doing ok.We are adjusting (not) to the loss of my father n law.Billy is depressed and I'm tryng to get him to snap out of it.I have stress to the hilt here at home and than stress on the phone from florida to spain back to here.I feel clueless and lost on what exactly I am supposed to do??I said i'll take Avah however taking Avah has to be without constants how and what i must do.In seconds flat,i was told avah is 8 mos and must be inmy room??I had every single child in their rooms pretty fast!I can see an occasional come cuddle but they sleep better with a consistat schedule!Iam all for co sleeping.That is baby sleeping n bed wth us.Ok,I'm told this,that Avah s not to stay in Florida but com to NJ.Ok,fine...I call her other grandmother to verify and whatever but she has not said that to me or caled me back!Stephanie,needs to get her head together.She needs to go to rehab.Im scared thatthe hug n tears I gave her at the airport was my good bye forever.Something kept me from letting her go.I am scared out of my wits. i can't type no more,Billy is calling me.(SIGH).
I love ALL my kids.I am annoyed that Stephanie has to be so spoiled and she has NO clue how to get around this little world.Iknow its hard,noodooo its not easy!I struggle howevr,simple things like talking to a stranger,she is unable topick up the phone and talk about things..like wic,or dr's appoinments.I cant even hear half the time and just do my best winging it.The person on the other line could care less whats happening lloll no need to avoid calling the drs and such??O boy!!

Anyways...w are getting ROOF JEWEWLRY!!No not bragging till its DONE than I'll have braggging rghts when its UP on the roof.Solar Panels,I am psyched!!!

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wishi for winter two.

 

COLD??I miss it!

 
me..
I miss the cold.The warm weather is just not suitable.LOL
Brianna just got an A in her project,her MARE project!!!!
I know kids having a beach party,not sure when!!Its neverending......here is the list
1)fix all car issues.
2)call social services fix that
3) all social service issues
4) Pay bills
5)clean house,figure out clothes
6) Games,jijitsu,errands

n trust me it goes On and On and On....I wish we were up north.I wish we were anywhere but here.I think Bills depression is rubbing off on me.Seriously!!!

oh btw..bike is back

I noticed I posted that Ashleys bike was stolen,well allas she got it back.Strange isn't it.its a long story and she's lucky to get it back.Unreal.

I am having some issues with her.She is 14 and her "boyfrend" is 17.wat does one do in this case???

dearly departed father in law....rip n willmiss u always!

I lost my father in law this week.My gosh,he was loved by all...6 children,and many grandchildren.I was so sad and n shock at the same time.we were sitting in seaside heights NJ,Bill taking the girls on the go carts.Iwas sitting and texting with the girls.All during which a phone call came and joanne tells me that dad is going for surgery.When I heard that i was like what!#$!My stomach just dropped.I knew it,unfortunately he never made it for surgery.Bottom line the week SUCKED.The bright part of it was Joannes hospitality and the love of my husbands family who got us through this rough time.

Bill is depresssed now.Its understandable.He lost his dad,and than comes home to chaos.
I want to write more but off to make grilled cheese.Our fridge needs shopping,and its a long story but somehow someway we gotta get food in that fridge.
<3

COMMUNION:) Early Morning!

 
This is th emorning of Briannas communion:) she is lying on the couch watching FUll House.Sometimes she puts it on demand.its her fAVORITE show ever!!!I hear so many girls love the brady bunch.Brianna is such a little bear,she actually put her communion gown on and did what she was supposd to do.I promised her a puppy a year ago.Now daddy is making it impossible!!Whats so HARD about a PUPPY!?!?

bike pic

 
Ash loved her bike,it was stolen and returned,(posts below) day of communion we find out it was STOLEN.She was so broken hearted that it distracted her compltely about mass.
Anyways,overall it had an OK ending.This is when she first got it.Her first beach bike:) a beach cruiser.

stolen n returned..

 

This bike was stolen,somehow it was returned to us from friends of Ashley.APparently these people didn't know it was her bike??I have NO idea,but i'm relieved to have it back!!!Amazing,a week to the day!

easter,and beyond..

 
Easter was absolutely wonderful!!I'm posting alittle late.We went to aunt joannes,billy scared us the way he drove Oye!
Overall the day was perfect.The girls visited "ma" & Papi,than we headed up.It took forever with Jersey traffic,of course...there is like one way UP and one way DOWN..nuts!
I enjoyed seeing the family,like always.Sean,our nephew is getting married in May,which is like real soon now (posting late)..I cannot wait to attend the wedding!
I love Easter,one of my favorite religious Days ever...i feel so in awe knowing christ has risen ,after dying in the cross for OUR sins,for US,for ME.That just does so much to me emotionally.

next of course is Briannas communion,its coming up:) Days are good,we are redoing our bathroom add its gutted up.Come on babe...get moving!!haha!

avah picture!!

 

Gosh I how i miss this little girl.Its killing me.Literally in every sense.How I wish there was money to do what i wished with it.I would fly out to Florida every month to see her and have her ""aunts"" see her.I know as she knows us,she'll love love hanging with us too!!This is all stephanies doing...her dad wants her to be w /near him and can't blame him.Stephanie is currently with Rob??I am confused this off and on relationship..seriously!!This beautiful baby needs stabiity and people getting along.I am anti drama,anti evil in every way.Somebody does evil its not my place to do it back.Its just wrong.people get angry and for me to get angry at them being angry is just more heartache for that little girl1!!!!!!

Anyways,Sharing her beautiful easter picture.In the meantime,I am crying that my camera is MISSING with OUR easter pics of the kids.Of laurens dress,etc..it went POOF gone.COmpletely!!!SOmeobdy STOLE it,if I do not find it,i will know that it was stolen out of this house.No doubt,its a BIG camera.How can it be gone?I had it on the top bunk of the bed...wtf??

Anyways,today we did shopping,and bought stuff for the old blue bathroom.Its disgusting right now.Im a bit anxious to have it doe before Sunday.Its briannas communion.worse come to worse we shut the door LOL.

life goes on..n on n on

This is my public blog,so whoever reads it,reads it.This is me,Nancy from the heart.I've been busy.I am excited,spring is coming.I was hurt yesterday,that words were said by my mom but I am trying to digest it and go on to another day.I love each and every single one of my children.I love my neices and nephews.All of them.I want people to behave and treat me the way I would treat them.I suppose its not a perfect world.

Ok,my errands today!!
I have to run to mrs njfamilycare
i have to go to the library first.
Brianna has practic for softball.OH she got her FIRST RBI this saturdays game.I am sO proud of her!
well,now i'm off to family care..no time to blog!its been a nightmare..tax returns after tax returns and bank statements..never went through all THAT before..is that the normal??LOL..
I also have softball practice for brianna and jijitsu...i am worried about ashleys thoughts of dating.life goes on.......
TODAY WILL be uploading Pictures!LMAO

my bike,equals weght LOSS

 


YUP all part of the plan.I love love this bike.its a shchwinn hybrid and can hold my purse or books or whateve rin the back.It goes FAST..FIVE nice Pushes and whoooom i am flying.LOL I do lower the resistanc so I can just pedal and feel it burn.I got home and legs were like JELLO>:)
I am on a mission to lose weight.My diet today consisted of cereal,beer bread(one piece,bad thing) Anyways,I picked up whee I left off.
I am SO busy busy busy.Tomorrow its OFF to horizon mercy for nj family care for the kids.They want ALL tax returns.i have to finish up our taxes.OH.I will get it done.I will get everything DONE:):):)
I need to SLEEEEP and all will be great.
I am praying n hoping billy does the bamboo blinds in the parlor!!!
we have to do our bathroom too.Its Unreal what we need done.I feel lke hiding lol.
ME

bikes..ASHLEYS,

 

This one from walmart..99$..she wanted a cruiser so she got a beach cruiser.Its cute as HECK I took pics I will be uploading unless I develop them!!
Ashley loves it,and that makes me happy.She's doing good in school,she has a so called "boyfriend" of sorts named "mike".I am taking it as it goes.If I say NO to Mike,shell want to be with him more.I remember that,and those days..yet,I can say NO,its not allowed.She is FOURTEEN,what is a mom to do?or a dad.Daddy is having a real rough time of it.He is much more than I thought he would.OYe!
She is busy with school,and afterschool stuff,she is going to be doing gymnastics(tumbling).She did not make the CO ED team,cause she would be a flyer due to her skinny small statue,N you need to do major stunts that she doesn't have tdown to pat yet.SOOO she is going to tumbling classes.I want her busy.She CAN go for the football cheer team(which is what i THOUGHT she was originally doing)...silly girl!
I would've told her not to bother,I knew she was NOT ready and boy am I glad in a way.So far it costed them 350$ and 500$ for the camp.So this week it was 850$ for cheer.Id have hit the roof LOL.For that money,She can go to a camp for MUCH less than that.Heck,we can go to spain,Florida etc...with the spending they will be doing.Plus summer would be washed away cheering for state champs.So that is not my thing..everyday she'd be up early practicing in the sun 5 days a week.Where is the summer??lol.

Anyways,I just got back from riding with her.bill is hanging blinds in the parlor.Bamboo blinds...he loves bamboo!!!

laurens progress

 

Laurens making amazing progress in school.I am stunned.She is coming out of her Shell" and is talking to people now,she still shys out sometimes but the things she says and the personality that is emerging is such a HUGE joy!So now,Lauren LOVES DORA DORA DORA..she is in a complete DORA fanatic state!She said for her "BIRTHDAY" she wants DORA to come over.LOLOL..So cute.Such a little girl now,Sometimes serious but mostly a joking fun loving,big hearted full of huge hugs for those she adores.
She still brings up baby "avah...she misses the babies..all of the babies.She'll see them one day soon.That makes me sad.
She is not feelin too well today..coughing and fever coming and going.Not sure what it is.I have to get Brianna ready for school,but the day will be busy as usual.
I am on an exercise / diet trying to lose weight on my own without gyms or nothing(is this a joke?LOL)...but I think it can be done.I did lose some allready without really trying much.
OK,Lauren is singing her ABC's..counts to TEN,(easily),knows every swings name,and slides,vocab of around 75 words off or on now...(compared to just a few zip words..) it is amazing.I am amazed at what preschool does.it brings the child OUT of the baby,literally!:)
I am watching SUER NANNY and she is at a house where there is a 3 and 5 yr old,who are still in bottles??Wear Napppies to bed,and all that.I'm sitting there thinking WHY???Lauren gave up all that for a while.She is potty trained,and has been prior to even attending preshool.This preschool is a special one,for delayed kids and she was delayed speech wise.Now she is catching right on up.Potty training however,she got that down way before that.She was exactly 3 yrs 1 month old.Not exactly YOUNG,but this is 100%.Prior to that she did use the potty but it was still with something,and accidents.Now she does it ALL in the potty.Its really neat:)(NO buying diapers ever ever again is such a JOY).I still have her beloved cloth diapers(and briannas) and can't seem to part with them.I would've parted with them for Avah.But stephs not into it.I also would've parted with them for Eli's twins but they aren't into it.I tried starting off with a few smalls,I never seen them wear it.These are around 2thousand or more dollars worth of diapers...I can't just toss them to somebody who wont' wear them.SOOooOOO much love is in those diapers Silly I know.Only another cloth diapering mama would understand our love for teh fabrics,and diapers themselves..to everybody else they are "just diapers" Lmao!

WEll,Im off,I have to get Lauren situated w breakfast(light eater she is and it shows),and Brianna off to school.She is in SOFTBALL and LOVING IT!I'll do a brianna update later!
XOXO

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PARK DAYS

 


We've been spendin days at the park.Mommy runs with the kids..what else is new.Today we are chillin while the kids trashed the house.I should be doin wash,and cleaning but bein super lazy!Why is that?Well,yesterday was Easter and we had a wonderful time.(Still have loads of pics to upload).Prior to Easter we went to the park 2 days in a row.We are going back today.

I'm sittin here wonderin how or why is Lauren so destructive!She loves to destroy the house,the walls,furniture you name it.She recieved loads of Easter Treats and Even before that she finds something to do that will annilihate my day totally and completely.I wake up exhausted from what she does before I even OPEN my eyes!
I wouldn't have it any other way....=) Busy is what I am.

My plans.
do whites,for Bill.
Wait for BIll and Ash who went up north to visit pop pops..thinkin of Nana,hopin she is ok.
Thinkin of Stephanie,prayin she stays clean and with that she doesn't let people get to her.I miss her So much.I would move to Florida,I believe.I need to talk bill into it.He is not into the hot ness too much!!
Ok,i have to wake up!!!!!!!

happy days...movies (mph

I'm up late at night again,the kids are sleeping in their beds,and husband is on the couch waiting for me watching tv.I am too wounded up but still tired.I'm dissapointed in billy for eatin the ice cream.We commited both of us to give it up.He and I were doin so well for so long,well,one day we decided to 'have it ONCE" and No more for a while.Well,I did that.I am settin a goal for me.NO ice cream.I lost weight just from that simple thing to do.
Next,we went to see Diary of a WIMPY Kid.Myself,Billy and Brianna.Just us three.She needed that time alone with us,so she got it.She really enjoyed it,and we enjoyed ourselves very much.I want to take Lauren next to the theater.She'll love it too!We got there at 2pm for the 220 showin and it was late allready,they sold out.I couldn't believe it.

Im tired

OUT late tonite:)

I'm out at wawa 2am with Billy!!!We had a fun night,as usual:) Tonight we took a look at this house wayyy at the end of my house.Its somewhere I'd LOVE to live!Private long driveay entrance as well as a beautiful home...but not sure what's up w that house!!!!Its been freezing!

I got loads accomplished at home!
I'm making it a point to read more often to the girls!!There are so many I want to buy!!Including Joes book!!lOl

Briannas 8th BIrthday

Our baby,has turned 8!Lots of things happened this week.First we had cake at home with her grandparents(myparents),than we had a bigger party with a few girls from her class.She had a good time,pinata,a huntin game with a prize,cake and presents.Whalla..party is done.I realize,every party we whip out the works to clean the house!I do not nknow WHY we go so our to clean caues they just amake a mess anyway!!
Brianna is 8.Brianna Grace,I remember how HAPPY Billy was (and I) when she was born.My mom was in the room.It feels like yesterday.Billy & I have been through SO much,19 yrs of together,yet some times i feel like I am threading along..alone sometimes.I love my family SO much.I am one completley mis understood.Everybody misunderstands me.I realize that nobody really knows me,Except those who read my daily emails,they may understand me a little more.how odd is this.
Anywas,this is about BRIANNAS BIRTHDAY,boy do I drift and probably on every single post!yeah,I do this when i talk too.LOL Ill be talking about a hair do,than WHAM discuss something totally off the wall!

SPeaking of Brianna,Our Bear is ready for SOFTBALL!I am wonderin why on earth we did not get a phone call yet????She will freak out if she doesn't get to play!!!I am calling recreation today!!!
Pics coming!
*ABOVE*

LAUREN...PRESCHOOL..loving it!

 

Lauren is doing absolutely Wonderful in preschool.She went due to speech delays,they have a program in there and i was
her ONLY advocate to get her IN this school.She loves it,the teacher is wonderful.Everybody is actually!
Fortunately when it comes to children,they do not mess around.She is speaking sentances nicer and nicer each week.
Oddly enough she is a leftie like Brianna (who was speech delayed too):) whatever it is,as long as she is healthy N Happy!Its all I want!And no more sickies!She just got over an ear infection.I kept her home from school etc..till she was on abx for a while.I happen to LOVE to stay home.I am sure everybody who knows me knows ThAT ol its justnot feasonable to drag my kids OUT,when I love to be home so much.The house I have..why the heck would I want to be out anyways!!
I love love it here lmao

Lauren..her eyes are...

 

From BLUE to Green to Brownish Hazel or green?:) LOL I have pictures I was looking at,let me tell you this girl had Light blue eyes.I mean Light,just like her sisters.I am so proud and happy that she has a shift,a different color..after THREE girls that look pretty much identical..its neat:) they are ALl beautiful..love them ALL.This is just a neat pic,one of many..of little Lauren!
In our bathroom,Just before watching SNOWWHITE!

wow what STORM,Life,and WORLD!

There is SO much happening my lord!One,Is i'm in a very happy moood today.Oddly Enough.:) Its pouring windy and i'm singing little indians to the kids.I love my kids,and all kids and its nice to see they are happy.They are still coughing,its been ongoing and ongoing,no getting away from it.I have to give breathing treatments to brianna who hates them,and Lauren may need tubes if her ears dont' stop with the infections.that sums them up.Ashley,just got over a punishment.One week,:) For saying her phone was dying but it wasn't.

I am going to put my best foot foward,always.Positive thoughts bring postive Things ahead,that is my goal for the summer.Truley and totally.I love my friends,and those who are in my life who want to be in it,Happily SO..I love you guys!
I am excited about Laurens birthday party,even if just a handfull of pepole come,Her bed is coming (She is singing about it now lol) and over all she just wants some friends,n her uncles to visit.I should've copied and pasted,it was precious...She has three uncles.She does love them indeed.She loves her daddy.She bonds very well with males,not as much with females,except if you are spitfire enough to handle her.LOL

Billy ran off,he's been super busy with work.Super busy with helping me when he is at home with the girls.Super busy with Brianna and Jijitsu.He is sad for me,for the loss i have thats not disclosure here on this blog but in my own private diaries.I know ME,and I know my rights and my wrongs.It takes a lot to get me going so to speak.People who know me,know that...if u dont know that,u dont know me.Simply put.Shoo I was thought of as no backbone person,for a while now...which is not true.Its that I despise the thought of certain things,and well,certain things come to pass.Kids suffer,all around,all the time.
That seems to be something that I notice,very much,and nobody notices cause I do not yack about it all the time.I just choose to be a parent to my children 100%.ALl of my children,I love dearly.Stephanie,I miss you and I am praying for you to get better real soon.You are my first Bear,and you are beautiful.Inside and out.Just take it easy....Ashley,I love you,and pray that you can defeat all the nonsense that you go through.I know who you are,and I love who you are becoming.Brianna,my tough as nails baby.My bear again,Brianna Grace...who has mood swings at age 7 like she is 14!!!I love you baby,you make my life a challenge that I love and need.I do not know what i'd do without you.You make me look at myself,and strive to improve in areas that I would've NEVER noticed without you and your """Smarts""" :) Keep it up.Lauren,I needed you in my life when you arrived.You completely completed our family.I remember your FIRST birthday.your SEcond.Third,and now your FOURTH will be here in August.I love you dearly and I don't know what I'd do without you keeping me busy all the time.You are definately one who doesn't miss a THING.you can go into a room,visiualize everything that you are going to do and actually go out and DO it completely.(Sounds like daddy some?).:)
Billy..I don't know how I'd survive without u,my best friend aalways.I want honesty,trust,always.Our vows are everything to me.For 19 years,they went by so fast.Our memories are everything to me.Our familiy.
i am a family , about family.
Tonite,for dinner is chicken,and some nathan Fries.Hoping bill gets his pay and all goes WONDERFUL:)
BUNKBEDS are COMIN you do not know how EXCITEDI am for the girls!I have to hang up their tv.OOOH they have bamboo curtains blinds up:) So prettty!I have to snap pics soon!Off to make some creamed spinish!
I have a blog,for my blackberry,this is not the one I use.Is there a way to use this blog.:)
Long time NO post here!

At the drs...yucky!

I'm sitting in MY drs office feeling absolutely awful!!! My throat(side) feels like I have a baseball in there!I cannot swallow,my eyes are heavy,I just feel achey,stuffy and all around miserable! :(
Lauren went yesterday and has an ear infection in her right ear.she has antibiotics and is mich better but now its me and brianna whose sick.I'm taking Brianna tomorrow,and mine is today at 4pm.Bri can talk n play,I cannot BE sick ever w the kids!Og my gosh,something happens to me forgetaboutit!!!
I'm worried as well about steohanie,and her little path!Avah,last thing I want for her life is fighting among her own families!!Her best interest is imperative!as much as I'd love her...I'd love her w us in NJ but there's things that need sorting out.I believe things will work itself out!
Omigod do I feel awful ;-) I want to see dr and go HOME!!!There's a kick ass droid nxt to me(cell phone) I'd love to try it!!!AtnT aint budging lol
Good news! I haven't rouched ice cream for over 2 weeks!!!!Yeppie ne

Reflections...eyes..and no noises..

reflecting...wow,this is a while ago!No sound,but still lovely to me!Time flies.So fast.Its sad in some ways.I'm anal I suppose about time.
Anyways,My lower back is killin me as I am typin this.it never used to hurt when I type.I need anther MRI and there is this new medication,NO side effects that helps that type pain.Its from a plant??Its not cortisone,which is GOOD!Starts with an S i hear...
Anyways,Bill took Brianna to Jijitsu..Lauren is still coughin.We went to the EYE drs today cause I am concerned about her eye,she has a lazy eye but its Nothin bad he said...She can come back in SIX mos and he said she don't need glasses.I am glad,but she kinda wanted glasses.I think she would've been adorable with them though...LOL.
I go next week,because I have the same thing,and in my case I see double when 'm tired of wake up.Its frustrating I hvae to blink when I am driving esp at night.'
Oh some GREAT news,Stephanie I think is on the road to where we are hoping her to go..Praise the Lord.He is good.
GOD BLESS<3...

this is an Old viedeo..No sound but oh well..:) its still cte cute cute

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Heading to bed;;;;

Tonite I have to wake up at 3am,to take mom to the airport!My daddy is coming too!!I'm praying everything goes well down in Florida!I am worried and really wish it was simple for me to go.I would go,I just needed some planning...warning.I miss everybody.
Anyways,What's up with Lauren a of late!!!!She loves to destroy destroy destroy:) daily I have to pick up clothes she tries on!Yes,Like stephanie....Lauren loves to play dressup!She is a girly girl which is a joy to have again!!Brianna is not as much so but I adore her exactly the way she is!!!Sweet lil bear!Soon its softball season(girls) and I foresee her kicking butt!!She enjoys jijitsu n got another stripe;) she is doing very well!
Ashley has a so called first boyfriend named mike!will say more next time,its first time posting on blackberry!I just put a twilight theme...damn I wish ATT would get the storm,it would be a dream for me lol
OHH blackberry now has the amazon kindle app!!I want it!! I can read so many books through this phone its unreal lol!!I'm psyched!I need to adjust the credit card unless they take paypal!The books are not free but indeed cheaper:):) somthing I've been waiting for!!Bye ereader!they were a ripp off!
Kudos n nitey nite for 5 hrs IF that lol

pics of our little storm

(((WE ARE HAVIN ANOTHER 20 inches on WEDNESDAY)))) haha...I am Like OVERWHELMED??Much??I really don't care as long as we are warm,together,and have food!lol

(Shot from upstairs..by the steps walking to the foyer)...
*first picture*
btw I want to get into srapbookin.I know I will enjoy it.Its NEVER too late is it??I feel bad,Should've done it for Stepahnie and Ashley..but i can do it for them now,and still have the other girls..avah,lauren,brianna,etc

my girls are right by the door.I am going to make stephanies room,my temporary computer room.Its better off,more comfy and I'll just smoke there rather than the bathroom.So lame being in here JMHO!

I will never catch up with ANYTHING.I am avoiding those "REALITY" games on facebook.Its just rediculouse,how lameo.no life?I do not have the TIME to sit there for hours on end.I feel bad..but I do not play it,I try though,20 mns here..or 10 mins there,and i just have TWO games I play.Farmville,Farmtown.SOmetimes CountryLife.I do like scrabble and whatnot,but no time!!
Here is pics of the snow...I should've took more but it wasn't the best "MOMMENT" to take pics lol

45 mins before school starts...ohhhhhh eck

Ashley is out..we have school today.BIG BLiZZARD feb 2010 and they have school on Monday.Hilarious..and we had a state of emerency?ODD???
People in De (based on news) were gettin ticketed for bein out?Why?its only 20 inches of snow,you plow it and its a OK to go!!I don't understand that on,Its baffled me this weekend lol.
HOwever,I did enjoy the "feelin snowbounded" feeling,but inr eality we were NOT bounded for more than one day.No biggie.I actually DROVE last nite to get Ashley from the SUPER BOWL GAME..HOw about those SAINTS??LoL..I think its great they won,due to Katrina.However sometimes I wonder if things are set up..but with Football,i doubt it deeply.
I lost 4lbs this week,doin NOTHING but avoidin ice cream.LOL.I want my body back,was watching this lame show called "bad girls" and recallin when my body as like that if not even better..I miss it.:*( sooo I am on the roll to stop eatin ALL icecream,oR cakes,or Muffins,ANYTHING sweet.I think that should work on so Many parts.Eat so much of 1 food,and cut it off your stystem cold turkey.I was miserable this week though,It must've been the sugar withdrawal??Its hitting me RIGHTnow as I type..Hmmmm Possibly..
Nasty wicked stuff I swear it is.
Anyways,today got a bunch to do.LAUNDRY is piled so high its nvr been this bad.We have to get Lauren bunk beds...(for bri too),Its never going to get done I swear.Bill needs tires sooo BADLY for his car,its like so dangerous to drive!People do not understand what a struggle it is day to day basis,and no we could be livin worse,but its still not easy.Life is not just one big party!=)
Well,off to Get me dressed,Brianna has her clothes ready and set for school.Lauren has snow pants,and a hat on...Nxt is boots and coat.We are going outside to play.Pics comin up!
Have a GREAT WEEK:)

front of house..Sat Afternoon

 


this is half of the snow we are gettin.I'm exhausted.And Ashley took off to another part of town she was NOT NOT NOT suposed to do.I am SO livid,so NOW what?I have to et in the van and get her!OMG.I am SO livid.She just wants to be by more of her favorite friends,and sleep at my moms I'm bettin.
I do not know why I am so livid..but I just am.She KNOWS I want her home.I'm hurt,what?She can't remain snow bounded with us?I have to risk driving?
Billyw ants to drive...im like what??WHY?I do not , honestly do NOT want that van out of the driveway!

back to gym/or freeze another 3 mos?

I have to make choices.I am not going to pay 50$ a month for nothin.TOmorrow I am heading down to the gym,to either freeze it for 3 mos or just cancel and use up my final 3 mos.I think I am goin to chuck up the 2nd one.I feel run down,exhausted,weak,you name it.The gym...will be a huge help and stress reliever.

I am thinkin of stephanie in Florida and wonderin about her and mom and the choices,consequences of things.I cannot get certain things out of my head.Its just crazy all together.I miss Avah,and can't wait to see her.Next time I go,It'll be when I'm there alone...

whats in the air here?

SO many things.So many worries.Where to begin??I do not even have time to come to the blogger.I do post at Journal website,its more private however I do not even go there anymore either.Or Myspace.Just linger around Facebook from here and there.
I haven't bought gymboree,(online),or any of those things I USED to do online.I stopped posting and responding emails like I used to.I miss those girls,a lot.my life,my mind has taken a whole new direction!
Part of me feels depressed.Its something thats been lingering forever.Festering.In my heart,my mind...Just "bummed".Its not going to get me any antidepressants.I read enough about them to feel an annoyance about them.Not going to get "Happy" Pills,as they are called(inappropiately imo)..However,i DO see how they get that name lol.

Billy..another one just like me.Depressed.I seriously feel we are NOT happy with how our lives are going,where they are going.We expected better,we really expected more out of our lives.WOrk is just Minimal.Money is just Rediculouse.100$ is just NOTHING,and gone in a blink of an eye.Shit,5000K a month is just surviving here for us.its time for us to really consider talking and moving.The question is WHERE..and things are easier said than done.
I feel guilty,being depressed I tend to slack with things.You neeed Money and lots of it,to do things you really want to do.Without it,Its not happening.Doesn't everybody KNOw that???Than top it off,I feel more depressed looking at people I love cry and feel depressed themselves for other similar reasons but on the other side of the coin if that makes sense.Spending TOO much money lol...wow.I suppose u can get depresse about that!however,there,you have a CHOICE.Spend,or NOT spend.Here..its like day by day,month by month.I do know,I should feel appreciative.There are people who are doing SO much worse....and have illnesses,and health issues etc.There is a war out there.Maybe some of my depression has to do with the LIES we are hearing from our OWN country leaders.Its pretty pathetic.They sit and just lie to us,and we are supposed to take it??wow...I thought they worked for US??the USA people..Hmmm makes me think.Its no WONDER the country,women and MEN are all affected and just DEPRESSED!! To THINK of it,I never felt,just a huge dissapointment,and lack of faith for people and respect of "LIFE" till 9/11/01!!Its a date thats forever in my head!!!

I pass my time driving my girls.
I read novels,perfect escape.I'm an escape artist.Truley..In many senses of the way.Billy knows that.
He is the ONLY one who knows me fully completely and utterly.So much that I won't ever leave or hurt him in any way.To love me so broken is unreal.He is broken too...how do two broken people raise children?I have NO idea but our children our family is our EVERYTHING!!!!We do our best.People can complain.Say OH nancy does THIS...Or wow,she is miss NICE to her kids...whatever..complain away.I don't sweat the small stuff.If I did I'd go into a mental home.Seriously.I'm sure there are some who would love to see me wind up there (sigh)..there are always those who really love when others would FAIL and that is just EVIL in my opinion!!!!

I am sad,that stephanie and Avah,and Rob are not moving here to NJ.
That said,Ashley went to FLorida for a week(not even).She wants to stay till Sunday but I really need her home.Do I sound selfish?She needs to do her work she is behind on???what do people think?I know from tue till Friday she needs to catch UP!

Lauren is LOVING school.Praise GOD for that:) She is in Special Preschool due to her SPEECH ,she is SO behind in SPEECH...yet I am not seeing her take speech classes,Only 1xs a week.Oh well its somethingg!
I need to post about Lauren.
I need to post about Brianna..everybody.Do I make a blog per kid?LOL..this is a just blurby blog as I labeled it when I created it.Whatever comes to MIND.Its not made with a goal to reach loads of women.Its just for ME.
I do have an idea,of a blog to reach women.Its just never been started.I do not know what platform to use.
I am off,I have to clean the house.My enery is down.My mojo is off.Lauren makes so many messes.Today is the onE day I am not runnin around everywhere.Tomorrow I WILL be.
I wonder if MIKE,Ashleys friend(boyfriend?) will come with me to pick her up???I do not want to o alone.I will o with my phone.
I am tire dof my phone.I want a different phone.I have a blackberry.I wonder if I can do a change to a different blackberry or the Iphone.I can o to ATT and find out.
TAXES..I need to do those too..SOON=)
AND ON and ON..=)